people sometimes do stupid things that they dun realise. they get angry over little things that shouldnt be gotten angry about. and when they calmed down, like 5 mins later, they realised what they did and unintentionally hurt the ones they love by being indifferent abt the whole situation. though they can still say sorry to whoever that they hurt, but the scar might still be there. the hurt felt when something nasty is said.

i'm sorry sayang. yes, i want everyone to know that i'm sorry. i'm sorry that sometimes i get frustrated that things doesnt go my way, like using the comp or going out with you without having people calling and asking me out too. i just want to be with you every second... totally dependant huh? *smiles* yeah, they all say love makes you do crazy things. i didnt actually believe that, until i met you..

i know you're in your emotional state for the past week. i try to make you happy. i try to make you smile and forget all your worries. i believe i did it. i'm positive i did it. but on the other hand, i do stupid things too... maybe it's just miscommunication, well at least i think that's the case. and once again, i'm sorry..

and sayang, i'd like to express my heart to you with a simple lyrics below. my love, you're the only one.... *takes her hand and lifts it slightly towards him* *bends down and kiss the back of her hand* *looks at her* can i have this dance....?

My love
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's right

My first love
You're every breath that i take
You're every step i make

And i
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do
And your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Oh, yes you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives had just begun
Forever
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
I'll be a fool for you
I'm sure
You know i don't mind
You know i don't mind

'cause you
You mean the world to me
Oh, i know
I know i found in you
My endless love

Oh
And love
I'll be that fool for you
I'm sure
You know i don't mind
You know i don't mind
And yes
You'll be the only one
'cause no one can't deny
This love i have inside
And i'll give it all to you
My love
My endless love...

You're so beautiful, divine
Everything 'bout you so fine
And with the love like yours
There is no pain in this world that i can't endure

So beautiful, so wonderful
And as we float on the floor
I hear the music of love

Chorus
This is our song
This is the song we'll remember forever and ever
It means to you what it means to me
So from this moment on, we know
This is our song
Our song

Anytime i feel alone
I put on our favorite song
And like the music and words
We merge into one
And play on and on

Love's so beautiful, unconditional
Can't find the words to explain
This is our song and our song says it all

Chorus

When my skies are grey
Make them clear again
When i'm weak you are strong
I need to hear the sound, you need to hear the words
This is how it all began

Chorus

This is the song we'll remember forever and ever
That it means to you, what it means to me
So from this moment on
This is our song
This is our song
So forever and ever
With just so you know
Just so
We know
We know
We both know
This is our song

wahahah!!!!1 i suggest you guys to download this!! wahahha!!

Help A Guy Out

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

*smiles* i love you sayang~

Beautiful_Soul - Jesse McCartney

I just watched Puteri Gunung Ledang today. I know i know that it's been out for quite a while, but i didnt have time to go watch it. *laughs* aaaaanyyywaaayyy, it's actually a love story, with parts of history and myths reflected in it. the flow of the movie is slow to people who doesnt appreciate the richness of the Malay Language. i do agree that it can get boring at times because it's purely dialog, and there's a lot of flashbacks and inner desires. anyway, i'd give it a 7/10 for it's professional look, beautiful use of the Malay Language, amazing sceneries, and its commendable costumes and props....

for the official movie website, visit http://www.pglthemovie.com/

for a hilarious perspective on the movie, visit http://mel-licious.blogspot.com/2004/08/hang-tuahs-pick-up-line.html

and for a negative perspective of the movie from Malaysians themselves, visit http://www.aizuddindanian.com/voi/archives/2004/09/review_puteri_g.html

personally, what i feel about these malaysians is that they doesnt even appreciate the historical/mythical value of this movie. from their comments, i assumed that their expectations of movies are MORE action, MORE love scenes, MORE easily understandable dialog and MORE young actors/actresses.... *shrugs*

and i believe i'll get lots of comments on my tagboard regarding this entry.. *laughs* if i dun, phew! hahahaha.. if i do, BRING IT ON!!

and this is everyone's that's left after the whole event... tired out.. hahaha
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and jeng jeng jeng... my SAYANG!!! *chuckles*
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akbar, haqeem, hafiz, khairul, me, muhammad, fahrur..
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ahhh.. jalan raya.. hahah i know i know it's like 2 weeks ago.. but hey, when else do i have the time to post rite? hahaha lalala.. zat's me for those bloghoppers to take note.. hahaha!
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This Day is Dedicated to the ONE that i LOVE...


~*~Noorhana Atiqah~*~

Happy Birthday My sweetie... i know you had a great time last night, with lots of surprises up my sleeves.. *laughs* and a surprise birthday cake and gifts from the rest of our friends... *smiles* dun worry, i didnt tell them about it.. hehe.. see, i kept my promise! i LOVE you... with all my heart.. *gives her a hug* *and a small kiss on her cheeks* once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY....

L.O.V.E.Y.O.U.... I ain't gonna lose your love tonight...
I just wanna make you feel alright...
L.O.V.E.Y.O.U.... I just hope you can stay the night...
Kiss you, Love you, Hold you tight...

hey hey~ i just came back from field camp last night. sooo tired out.. hahaha

on monday, we had to stay in-camp because they wanted us to have 7 hours of sleep before the field camp. well, i was kindda excited about it.. haha.. i mean, it's field camp with the people i can work with. it's not like BMTC where my section was being some racist idiots. yah, so, we did some last minute checks on our field packs and issued items to ensure that we have them. the whole weight, including SBO and helmet was more than half of my weight i think.. i couldnt even lift up the field pack from my sides.. haha..

on tuesday, we woke up at 445 and had our shower and stuff. we fall in at 520 in our number 4 to go for breakfast. our platoon sergeant(PS) started to make us move quickly instead of taking our time. *feels like BMT all over again* so, he made us run to the other side of the road on top of the hill and fall in to walk-in-steps towards the cookhouse.. haha... we draw our weapons after breakfast and proceeded withh all the necessary items needed for the weapon. we then took our field packs, SBO, and helmet down and arrange them nicely... hahaha.. we waited until first light broke and then we loaded up the 5-tonner, while others loaded up the LMTV, a maintenance vehicle and the commanders took the rovers. we moved out towards yishun for our training.. haha.. it took a long long time to reach there cos military vehicles in public can only be drove at 50km/h max... :P

it was our first deployment site. we moved slowly into the jungle. then we came to an area which we call our holding area.. once there, we unloaded the tonner and form an all round defense of the area. i got a stinky area where some dudes just peed.. urgh.. but i didnt sit at the pee la.. crazy eh? haha i was just nearby.. and it smelt of pee... haha.. after a long long wait, we loaded the tonner again and moved in to our deployment area... there, we did and all round defense again and waited... waited for minutes to pass... many many many minutes to pass.. i was fascinated with the mosquitos cos i tot there was only one circling around me... but when i moved my whole self, a freaking horde of mosquitos arose from my body... sheeeeesssshhhhh!!! and so, after many many fascinating moments with my new frens, my sect comm finally came to assign me a place to dig my shell-scrape.. aka my coffin.. it's the same size to bury a dead guy except that it's not as deep as a real coffin... ah.. and mine was in the middle of a field of long, tall grasses with thick hard roots.. hahahahahahaha... go figure...
before digging,i was made to help out in camouflaging the vehicles... which took till afternoon to complete... did i mention we reached there at8 plus....? hahahaha... after lunch, we continue to dig and do our security.. it was when our first contact occurs... Apple sector was attacked, and 2 guys were down.. they called in the rear area local protection team aka tiger force, to enfore the area. i lovethe drills cos the enemies are visible and they keep shooting at us.. so we were sent in to flank... in the end, we got shot by friendly and the enemy escapes... sheesh... hahaha... after that, we discuss abt it as one paltoon before breaking up to sections again.... to end the day, we had artillery drill to evacute from the place... and move on to our next deployment site... at night! so we repeated everything all over again.. except that .. we didnt have to dig at night.. haha.. tired seh digging the ground... so after stand down, we had a trip-flare lesson.. hahaha.. cool stuff seh.. after that, the management decided to let us rest for the night.. cos they said we did great in the morning.. so we did get the rest.. ahhh.. better than nothing seh.. we slept from 1045 to 4am... den, that same morning... before light, we headed off to our third deployment site... same thing again.. like yesterday... except that... on the second day, we had 3 contacts...

first contact was on my sector... i was doing sentry at the other end of the road... about 200m away from base camp... HQ used the comms to call all the tiger force from the sentries to report back to camp.. cos my sector only left 3 guys... i was the last to arrive there.. so i was enforced to Apple sector... the enenmy was finally run down by our sector... except that, they crossed Apple's line of fire... meaning, they could have been dead too if live rounds were used.... sheesh.. our OC, a Major, was definately unhappy with it... after the scolding the whole platoon got, OC called all the sect comm to report to him.. and from far, we saw that he gave them push ups! sheesh.. after we break to sections, as we're about to start our discussion, another sector was contacted... Chiku sector.. GAWD! they were in need of reinforcements.. and so, me, a tiger force, had to run back to HQ to wait for PS to send us to the frontline.. enemy contacts was from both angles of the sector.. so my side we shoot the one on the left.. and the other on the right... i located the enemy though the others cant see.. i mean.. wth seh.. he's crawling.. yes.. but the tall grasses was moving erratically.. obviously he's there seh... hahahaha... so i ordered the guys to shoot at that position.. haha. instead of waiting for the IC to make the decision.. sheesh.. we could all be dead if we're to wait for the IC to command... so after everything was done, we went back to regroup and talk about what went right.. and what went wrong... erm... and the OC wasnt pleased still ... though it was better than the last 2 contacts... hahaha...
so the break us up back to our sections... when we reached our side, we all decided to top up our water bottles... as i was topping it a gunshot rang at our sector.. DAMN IT! 3 freaking contacts continuously..... i was shagged la of cos... everyone was shagged too... but i tot.. ah what the heck.. actually i wasnt even feeling tired la... hahaha... kk .. den ah, my section IC and some of the guys ran forward to their defense position when the gun was being fired... i was like WTF!!! i shouted " GET DOWN!! GET DOWN!!!!" good thing was, everyone listened to me.. haha.. good! den i shouted again " LEAPORD CRAWL TO YOUR POSITIONS! GO GO GO!!!" everyone crawled to their positions and started firing at the general direction of enemy fire.... wuuhoo!! as we were waiting for our next command from the section IC, we got news that he was being shot... sheesh!!! of cos our 2 IC decided to call for reinforcements immediately... and so we got 4 tiger force to help us out... i got 2 in my team... i openly tell them "2 OF YOU.. FOLLOW MY ORDERS!!" they nodded as they heard that.. cool thing... at this point of time, i was still waiting for my 2IC to make the next move.. we were still being fired at.. damn.. he panic and blanked out.... and of cos, i shouted at the section.. "SECTION!! 11 OCLOCK!!! ENEMY LEFT OF TALL TREE!!!! WATCH AND FIRE!!!!"hahaha.. and i started to give all the commands everytime... the photographer took my photo as i was shooting.. hahah.. cool.. :P den the warrant officers were asking each other... "is farhan the IC or robin....?" hahahaha.... i gave another command that wasnt even taught.. i shouted "SECTION!!! HOLD THE LINE!!!"haha... den i was looking for the enemy again.. i shouted to the guy on my right if he can see them.. he said he cant.. i shouted at him to ask the guy to his right... yeah man!! not even taught by the commanders.. hahahaha.. i mean.. seriously, u have to take initiative to win a fire-fight... and then.. finally the 2IC regained his composure.. he shouted for everyone to crawl forward a little more while maintaining the line.. wahhahaha.. nice work 2IC!! and from there, we keep communicating to each other as he asked how many guys do i have with me.. i said i have 4... all still alive.. khekheke.. finally.. all the enemies were down... i waited for his command again.. he didnt gave any.. so i told the guy on the right to tell him the command... khekhekhe... den he gave a very solid move... "TEAM 2! ADVANCE AND CLEAR YOUR SECTOR!!" wuhoo!! we stood up with rifles at high alert position, meaning eye aiming at the front already, and moved forward in a line and stop a few metres from team 1.. den he commandes his team to move forward and link up with us... making a longer line again... khekhekhe.. we did that for several times before ensuring that the whole place is cleared... section ic declared the place is cleared and ordered an all round defense... he asked me to check on everyone's status.. even enemy's.... and he said, go and be the rear defense... get 2 guys to evacuate the casualties... and get out of the place.... so i told my guys the plan.. and they did it! hahaha.. we completed everything with only 1 man from the section down.. sheesh... that is already bad.. hahaha.. and guess what...? the OC commended on our performance.. especially on me taking over the section and completing the mission.. hahaha.. i just smiled as they talked about my wonderful performance.. hahaha.. oh well...
den at the end of the day, OC saw me and personally said "farhan, they way you took over the section was wonderful... great job" and i went sheepish smile "thank you sir" hahaha

so we ended the field camp with a 4km route march.. it's been a long time since we've had route marches.. so it felt very very tiring... we stopped near the seaside.. yeah.. that was the whole field camp story.. hahaha.. so so sooooo tiring....

khekhek.. and i brought along my hp for the field camp.. sayang didnt know.. haha.. so i waited the whole day for her to sms.. khekhekhe.. and she did!!! and of cos, she was surprised to receive my reply.. wahhahaa.. i sure do know how to make my sayang love me more.. wahahaha.. lalala.. and i love her too.... a lot a lot... and i ended this entry at 1252AM ... 03 dec..