yes yes! had a great day yesterday!

first off, the day started with a trip down to PJC for... OPEN HOUSE!!!!!
wuuhoO!!!!! yeah.. i went to meet sayang and her brothers, 3 of them, at choa chu kang mrt station... hahaha. and of cos they had to mistook someone who was wearing a PJC uniform, who has a goatie, and who's taller than me, for me.... sheesh! why would i be wearing a PJC uniform in the first place seh~ she brought along her 5 and 8 year old brothers.. hahaha... and i recall one of the girls in school was flirting with the 8 year old... WAHHAHAHA!!! she was wearing a camouflaged pants. so if you're the one and you're reading this, well.. hahaha..

the goodie bag was interesting. they had sponsors from MCDONALDS, SKATELINE, M1 !! there's a journal in it, frisbee, NEWater, sweets, *cant recall anymore* hahahaha... first off that i noticed when we arrived was that, the 5th student council was wearing a YELLOW JERSEY! *faints* cant they get another colour...? why must it be similar to the 3rd student council's colour......?? ah..

oh, then in the concourse, there's the mcdonald's booth, bubble tea booth, skateline booth and the DJ booth. sheesh! most of the stuffs there went for only 1 dollar per item. like lemon tea, 2 cups for 1 dollar! and any mix of flavours for the bubble tea costs only 1 dollar!!!! and the skates provided by skateline is FREE!!! sheeeeeeeeesssssshhhhh!!! and i met the councillors at the concourse.. hahaha.. and all the enthu people, OGLs of my time, also.. hahaha.. coolnesss~ feels like school all over again...

den at the canteen, there were lots of items on sale. game booths were set up by the different CCA committee... and of cos, there were lots of booths selling drinks... ahhhhhh.. there were performances too, by mats band, art soc doing bhangra dance to hindi music, and wannabe PJC idols ... hahaha...

den we went up to the hall to look at the booths there and a councillor tot that i'm still a secondary 4 student who's taking my O levels this year.. wahhaha.. and of cos, i had to disturb that poor councillor by asking what special sports PJC has.. hahaha.. and, she cant tell me.. heh.. instead, she asked what kind of sports i'm looking for.. hahahahaha!! farhan farhan.. .disturb ppl only....

den we go towards the classrooms and the maths soc, "haunted house", and IT club set up their boooths.. hahaha. hana's brothers, hakim and harith, decided to go thru the haunted house.. hahaha.. oh, it's 1 dollar per ticket.. and cos many people were queueing up, we detour to the IT club booth after purchasing the tickets. den, of cos i had to disturb them again.. hahaha.. a guy approached me asking if i wanna play games and beat the highest score.. wahahha *dun they know that's my forte* and i went, "is this what you guys always do in IT club?" while pointing at the screen with this cool game.. hahaha... and he said they play games only when the teacher in charge's not around.. haha.. and i said "cool~! maybe i should consider IT club as my cca" *giggles giggles* oh, and at this point of time, sayang was giving me an unbelieving smirk.. =P she's probably wondering why i'm disturbing all these kids here.. haha..

den we proceeded to the basketball courts... they hockey set up a floorball booth... yaayneesss! and it's the same people that me,khairul, mat, and 3 other guys trashed during arts day earlier this year.. hahahahahahahaha! and they're the SCHOOL TEAM! the hockey girl has been persuading us to play the game since we got into PJC.. aha.. so since we're already at their booth, the 2 kids decided to play the game.. *laughs* the stick was taller than them.. AHhaHAhaH! at least hana's taller than the stick! khekhekhe.. *tongue out* out of 5 hits for the penalty shootout, both kids got 1 goal each.. coolneesss..

den we went back to the haunted house and 2 SEC sch boys were scared out of their wits after the whole visit.. hahaaha.. what only.. and hana's brother went out of the room.. feeling stuffy rather than scared.. hahahahaha... and the girl who led them inside got scared instead.. haaha THEY MADE THE THING!! how can they be scared...? *shakes head*

the rest of the time was spent watching pioneerama and sitting down at the canteen benches while talking and singing and laughing and enjoying the whole time there...... *sayang can elaborate on this point in her blog* *laughs*

yeah.. den i sent hana and her 2 younger brothers home. the older one went for tuition and had to leave early.. yeah.. den i went to solat at her place, and played x box with the brothers!!! wahahha!!! damn... harith is good at it.. but i'm better! wahahha.. though he trashed us earlier in the game.. hahaha... but i trashed them back~ so it's fair.. hahaha...

so yeah.. that was the whole day before buka... i had fun.. enjoyed myself.. and i love noorhana.. *chuckles* *smiles* *winks*
*dances around happily*

hey people.. i'm kindda doing a research .. erm so called research la. haha. i want you guys/girls to give your views on this matter...

Difference between guys and girls.

1a > attached girls still talk about OTHER guys other than their bf. they say things like, "oh that guy is cute" .. is that the way girls are? if so, do MUMS talk about other GUYS other than their husbands to each other? or does it mean only unmarried girls do it cos it's a sense of security when the relationship fails...? or is there any other reason to why girls should be making comments like that?

1b > attached guys ALWAYS talk about their gf everytime they see another pretty chick. they say things like, "she's pretty, but my gf prettier". (although we all know that's not true) if you do see a guy who doesnt say this, i can assure you that he's not really interested in his current relationship. so, is he doing it to make himself feel better? or because he doesnt care about other girls anymore cos he just want her?

2a > what do girls talk about when they are together? (add more to the list)
+ guys, guys guys
+ shopping

2b > what do guys talk about when they are together? (add more to the list)
+ soccer
+ computer
+ what is sex
+ work
+ relationships
+ music
+ instruments
+ places of interest
+ definitely more to the list

3a > girls didnt realise that they're trying to be someone they're not so as not to hurt the guy's feelings. do they change for the better? or do they change by hiding that side of her?

3b > should guys be insensitive to what the gf says? does this mean that he should feel comfortable and not react when the gf says that the guy who just passed them is cute?

4 > any other comments...?

you can answer both parts of the question but it's preferable if girls do part A and guys do part B. you can add any other comments to it. send your feedback to moonwalker1485@yahoo.co.uk. your help is much appreciated~

We drive tonight
and you are by my side
we're talking about our lives
like we've known each other forever

the time flies by
with the sound of your voice
its close to paradise
with the end surely near

and if I could only stop the car and hold onto you
and never let go I'll never let go
as we round the corner to your house you turned to me and said
"I'll be going through withdrawal of you for this one night we have spent"

and I want to speak these words but I guess
I'll just bite my tongue
and except someday, somehow as the words that we'll hang from

And I, I don't want to speak these words
cause I, I don't want to make things any worse
And I, I don't want to speak these words
cause I, I don't want to make things any worse

Why does tonight have to end
Why don't we hit restart
and pause it at our favorite parts
we'll skip the goodbyes

If I had it my way
I'l turn the car around
and run away just you and I

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everytime i listen to this song, it makes me cry...
and i'll miss her badly...
*weak smile*

all the overseas thing is making me easily irritable. i dunno. i just hope i dun hurt anyone's feelings during this period of time. maybe i'm just trying too hard to spend more time with her. but i cant... like today.. and this coming saturday.. i'm just too emotionally dependant now to leave singapore to a place that i really wanted to visit since school times...

argh! i want to go.. i dun want to go... *dunno what to type anymore*

to the person on sms now: sorry....

the dreaded news is here..

i'm leaving for brunei... on the 30th OCTOBER.. yes.. 2 more weeks. and it's freaking irritating la.. i mean, i wanted to celebrate hari raya with my family and the friends before i go.. but of cos the army has to send me off 2 weeks before raya... how sucky is that....? very!

i really dunno what to feel. should i feel happy? sad? frustrated? afraid?

i really hope there's internet access in brunei. some said it's in the middle of the jungle.. some said it's bunks are airconditioned and there's internet access.... well to me, even if there's no night life.. as long as there's the INTERNET, i'm satisfied.. at least, i can keep in touch with all my friends.. especially my lovely princess, ms noorhana atiqah. and of cos my family too....

hence, the benefits of the internet. if there's no internet....... man...... a year of imprisonment..

tonight... was a little better... in fact, i loved you more.. much much more..
so much that i dun feel like going overseas...
i feel like i'm losing much more than the money that i'm getting...
i lose my friends.. cos they'll be in reservice without me...
i lose 1 year of my relationship with sayang.. well.. as in .. cant get to see you la..
and i cant celebrate hari raya this year.. and the next.. with my family... WHERE'S MY DUIT RAYA?!?!?! *thinks.. i'm making more than the duit raya that i get* *laughs to hide his sadness*

now you see... money doesnt bring you happiness... without money, you'll still be happy..
i'm happy with my friends...
i'm EXALTED with noorhana....
i'm not as excited when i heard my posting order today....

some things money just cant buy... for everything else, there's always mastercard...

i'm getting a debit mastercard soon.. and a new handphone line.. in other words, new hp number... then i'm getting a new hp as well.. and i'll probably be getting a laptop for myself.. wanna bring it to camp... and get some games as well... at least, that'll be sufficient for 1 year.. if i can bring sayang along, i would.. hahahahaha.. and i really mean it.. she can postpone her SIM studies.. hehe.. *i'm going crazy*

oh well... i love noorhana.. good night...

i really dun feel like blogging.. haha...

hey! guess what people...? *waits for a moment* i can't wait for hari raya! wahhaha!! the wait is unbearable.. and ramadhan's not here yet! well... in a few more weeks... it will be here! yeah! hahaha..... *yaay yaay RAYA !! wuoooOO!!* *prances around* my mum, well actually the girls in the house, decided to go for PINK this year... sheeeeessshhh! pink...? again...? well we had pink 6 years back! wahha maybe longer than that.. i cant recall.. *thinking pose* but anyway, i'm still getting WHITE.. yes WHITE.. hahaha.. and i have just thought of the kind of baju kurung that i'm gettin! hahaha.. it'll have golden designs down the centre and the top of the pockets. wahhaha.. and I'm getting a new sampin too to go along with the white baju kurung! hahaha! songkok.. hmm think i have it... probably be dusty by now... *sheepish smile* hahaha.. and.... i have NO idea what FOOTWEAR to get.. haha.. should i just use black leather shoes...? or chapal...? or my brown, skinned shoe...? or... what? hahahaha!

anyway, sayang will help me with this! yes!! she's going with me! hahahaha *wuuhoo!* *dances around* *burst out singing* all i want is you~~ hahaha okie okie.. hmmm anyway, we'll decide on the colour and design when we're buying it.. haha. yeah..

and today, my friend's driving me to work.. haha.. meeting at 0655 at bukit batok interchange.. better be early.. yepz! and sayang's still asleep.. khekhekhe.. will sms her again.. buubye!

it kills him everytime she cries.

he just wants her to smile.... everytime...

that's all he need to keep this romance going..

good nite darling..

he's never felt so restless over someone before. just the sight of her made his knees goes weak, his breath quicken it's pace, and his mouth stutters every word he says. never in his lifetime has he experience such embarrasing moment. ever. all because of one girl he just knew.

he really wanted to know the girl more but he doesnt know how. he wanted to be her friend, but he's shy. he wanted to tell her how much he likes her, but he's afraid to know the outcome. is this love at first sight, he thought.

*okie.. i wanted to continue this story.. but someone keeps pestering me what i'm doing.. so i post this for now... hahaha*

lost. confused.

all around him was pure darkness. cold sweat trickles down his cheek. there seem to be no exit anywhere nearby. struggles through the darkness like a man who lost his eyesight. he needed guidance, support from someone who's willing to.

lost. in the dark. alone.

after what seem like eternity (it's dark remember?) he saw a speck of light far in the distance. without thinking, he rushed towards his only hope of security. of love. of comfort. getting closer, the face of the most beautiful girl stood smiling at him. stood in the middle of the light. all he could think of was, who is this lovely lady? and what is she doing here, in the darkness that he sought to flee from?

"i'll be here for you. i'll guide you through this darkness, to freedom, to a brighter future," says the angel.

pjc open house '04 is coming.. and yes people.. it's on the 16th i think.. wahhahahaha! i'm still confirming it with matthew for further details.. yepz.. hopefully someone can be there too for the mass dance... if not, i wont dance at all... *sorry fellow councillors.. hahaha! maybe i'll dance with the guys... =P* so yeah.. if u want further details on the open house... i think u can check up the school's website... or contact matthew for more information.

hahaha.. yeah.. today i read a book on ecommerce and how to gain the niche... it's just vague explanation of this and that.. which of cos by common sense and logic, is how the business works... probably to me it's common sense .. but to the author it's not.. haha.. yeah.. probably i can get book suppliers and sell these online.... with prompt delivery to the doorstep... *goes into another thoughtful idea* well, i recall a part in the book which says "... revenue from 1 million to 100 billion... depending on how you manage your market.." and i'm like.. wow.. amazing.. i'll consider it.. hahahhaha.. again.. haha

and i went out with sayang after work today.. yeah.. we fall out early.. around 5.. and i showered and everything.. by 520 i was downstairs waiting for the shuttle bus to tampines... the bus came.. but it didnt move away... i asked the uncle if the bus goes to tampines.. he said yes.. and he said it'll leave at 545... i'm like huh?!? hahahaha
then of cos i went out of camp to try to catch the public bus... hahaha.. and surprise surprise... the recruits from 3SIR are having their long weekend... so the bus stop is full of smelly, botak soldiers in green and FULL back packs... hahahahah... i waited for the bus.. till 540! 20 mins wait... sheesh.. and hafiz called to say that the shuttle bus is leaving... wah lau ehhhh.....
anyway, i got into the bus la.. and i changed halfway cos it detours somewhere else... hahahaha.. and i made it to interchange at 558.. khekhkekhe...
we went to the library.. so that she could study for her coming test.. hahaha.. yes.. she came to tampines to meet me... very sweet rite? hehehe.. sanggup sehhh.. *giggles* den sat there for a while... before going for prayers... we ate at kampong chai chee restaurant.. it's at telepark.. uhhu.. and many people were there for dinner... i had claypot chicken rice.. and she had beehoon seafood.. is that what it is darling...? hahaha
took the bus home afterwards... didnt get to sit together.. haha.. and we slept form tampines to yishun.. woke up to see her smiling in her sleep!!! khekhekhe.... *wonders what she's dreaming* ah..at yishun, where people alighted, as in.. almost half of them alighted, we got the double seats.. hahaha... and den .. i didnt feel sleepy anymore.. khkehekhe.. told her that i only fall asleep beside other people... cos they bore me.. *laughs*
then went to admiralty's mcdonalds to buy ice cream!!! wuuhoo! had coke float.. khekhe.. and she had sundae.. choc sundae... walked her to her auntie's house... and navigate my way back to mrt station.. hahaha.. took 912 instead of 913.. and ended up travelling longer than needed to reach woodlands interchange.. hahaha.... well.. i'm home now.. so.. yeah...

and i feel like i'm telling every little things in my life to everyone online.. sheesh.. probably i shud stop.. haha.. no privacy sehh... and i sense that darling might not update her blog cos i already did for her here.. hahahaha.. rite rite? =P
so to everyone.. i think this will be the last entry where i describe what i do for the day.. hahaha... feels so.. erm.. exposed.. khekhe..
but come to think of it, people SELDOM come here anyway.. hahaha.. cos i update once a week or so.. hahahahaha...

to the sayang who's busy at mak long's house...
i love you.. a lot a lot a lot.. yeah.. many many loves from me to you.... *muacks*
good luck for your test on friday... *smiles*

well.. i want to dedicate this song to my dearest and most wonderful person who has touched my life in the past few months.. just want to say... these words.....

Artist: Natasha Bedingfield
Album: Unknown
Title: These Words

Threw some chords together
The combination D-E-F
Is who I am, is what I do
No one’s gonna let it down for you
Try to focus my attention
But I feel so A-D-D
I need some help, some inspiration
(But it’s not coming easily)
Whoah oh…

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Don’t you know, don’t you know, don’t you know?
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flown
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There’s no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you…

Written by Ricelli and Keys
Resided in over a heartbeat
I’m having trouble saying what I mean
With dead poets and drum machines
I know I had some studio time, but
But I couldn’t find a killer hook
Now you’re gonna raise the bar right up
Nothing I write is ever good enough

These words are my own
From my heart flown
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There’s no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you…

I’m getting off my stage
The curtains pull away
No hyper bowl to hide behind
I’m naked, so exposed
Whoah.. oh.. oh.. oh.. Whoah.. oh..

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flown
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There’s no other way
To better say
I love you…
I love you, is that okay…?

so you see darling... no matter what i write in my sms, or here, all i want to say is i love you... and i do... *muacks*

wahh.. yesterday was tiring.. haha.. it was supposed to be just a simple, and nice datee with noorhana. hahaha.. this is how it went...

in the morning, i went to SIM.. again. *laughs* yeah, it's great to crash lectures in SIM. *smiles* i sat through the whole lecture.. yeah.. listening to the lecturer, then do my own stuff, play games on hp and all stuffs to keep me entertained.. hahaha. den during break, my primary school friend waved at me.. haha.. of cos i waved back la! and smiled and she came to us.. and said hi.. haha.. and even said hi to sayang.. khekhe.. as she left, sayang said "dun do that!" wahhaha.. and i went.. "jealous jealous jealous jealous *fades*" khekhekhe.. and she hit me.. ;)
oh.. haha.. and she took for me coffee during break.. hehe.. so sweet.. :P yeah.. they served coffee/tea and otah bun/malay kuih ... she asked me to get her the kuih.. cos i wanted to get the food.. haha.. den i told her, the kuih's name is kuih bau.. she dun believe.. wahaha.. until she smelt it.. khekhke.. it's this ... green coloured kuih la... haha... yeah.. of cos she didnt finish it...

after school, we went to.... botanical gardens! hahaha.. my first trip to the botanical gardens.. *yeah.. sad sad farhan.. haha..* was impressed that singapore has that kind of standard for a garden.. khekehkhe.. and i tot only overseas has that kind of landscape... =P we took photos of the plants.. trees... and a spastic girl... wahahhaha!! okie okie.. it's like this. the girl was feeding the fishes... sounds innocent enough...? well.. the way she feeds them is that she took a small piece of the bread, and SLAM it to the water.. wahahha!!! and without stopping, she's throwing.. i mean.. SMASHING the water as if she's angry.. haha.. den when she got bored of the fishes, she AIMED and hit the birds with bread... wahahhaha!! spasm... and there was this innocent duck.. that swam cos it saw the bread... and she threw it and hit the head of the duck.. and the duck went "aper ni...?" wahhahaha!!!! ask hana for the movie clip.. hehehe.. yeah.. so we practically sit around and enjoy the serenity and scenery... we left around 1440 to travel to royal plaza at the scotts... hahaha.. we wanted to go to little india for some indian cuisine.. hehe.. tosai masala... yepz.. and out of the blue, the brother wanted to tag along with us... wahhaha!!

so we waited for him at borders.. looked at some interesting books.. and i think i might buy some.. wahahha... we then took the bus, which we took a long time to find, that will take us to little india.. haha.. once there, ALL of us ate tosai masala... *is that how it's spelt?* hehehe.. yeah.. at first taste, man.. it was wonderful! wahahha.. den i decided to have another serving.. it's only $1.80! haha.. and i asked someone to eat with me.. khekhke.. and yeah.. her brother decided to get one for himself too.. khekhekhe.. i tot the taste will be as wonderful.. but then... it turns to be rather watery.. eeww.. and i felt like vomitting.. haha.. and it tasted sourish too... khekhekhekhe... ah well...

after that... we went for prayers.. and took the bus off to yishun.. cos there's no direct bus to woodlands... hehe.. the brother took out a deck of cards.. supposedly wanted to play daidee.. but then ended up showing me some of his magic tricks... *impressive* and his tricks are better than khairul faliq's... wahhahaha!! definitely! and i decided to show mine too.. and.. of cos i forgot how to do it.. wahhahaha.. so it didnt work.. :P at yishun.. we went for prayers again... and took the bus to woodlands interchange... hahahaha.. chill at mcdonalds.. playing daidee (one round), bluff (one round) and ended up showing tricks all over again.. wahahhaha! and of cos i practised mine... and it worked this time round!! wahhaha...

all in all... it was a tiring day.. yeah.. and i was too tired to even update last night.. khekhekhe.. so i did it today... uhhu... so yeah la.. that was a day spent with sayang and her brother...... :)

medical FFI was today. it's one of the prerequisites before going overseas. they want you to be in tip-top medical health before allowing you to get posted overseas for a year. yes.. overseas posting.... for a year..
the medical officer didnt find anything wrong with me.. and declared me to be FIT for OVERSEAS POSTING. a part of me said.. yaay!!!! i'm going to go!! and another part of me said... i have lots to do before going... hhahaha...

ehem.. so now i'm waiting for the interview to be done... and then the announcement of the posting to which overseas camp... there's a high possibility that i'm going to BRUNEI with hafiz.. hahaha..
it's weird that we got selected...
my reason when i applied was cos i wanted to help my family financially... and hafiz's reason was because he's staying at home alone.. wahhahah!!!
oh.. hafiz still has to remove his wisdom tooth before he goes to brunei.. yeah.. and it'll be in alexandra hospital.. khekhekhe.. hopefully we both get to go together.. khkekhe..

and to my sayang...
dun worry too much.. hehe.. there's a high possibility that i'm going off in january.. hahaha.. but most probably will be before my birthday.. yeah.. i dunno.. we'll just wait and see after the interview... for the time being, i just wanna spend more time with you.. and my family before i go.. haha.. 1 year sehhh.. ish.. but yah lah... after that one year is over, my bank account will be 10k richer... waaahahhahahaha..... so cool.. i like.. :P

to all of u... yeah.. still can call me if u people want.. haha.. at brunei, cant call home as often.. yeah.. and i've decided to stay at home instead of camp.. hahaha.. i'll lose my sanity there... really...

that's all.. signing off...

Sometimes... I think about the first time I realised that I love you...
It was as if my eyes took a picture at that moment...
and stored it in my heart...

Sometimes I think about how much my life has changed because of YOU...
I think about you and your happiness...
about us....
and our life together.....

And I realised that you are as much a part of me now as the air I breathe and the dreams I nurture....

But from time to time...
I still like to remember..
the first time...
I looked into your eyes....
and saw our future there....

harlowwwww people! haha i'm in camp.. updating.. as usual..
it;s not so bad.. haha.. got tv and computer! wuuhoo!
okie la.. that's all .. i guess.. cant think ...
cos talking to hana.. hehehe..

soo... tata!

wahahha.. this is.. erm.. the "sick" poses... wahahaha.. good thing i wasnt involved.. *innocent look* *senses someone's shocked looking at the guys* hehehe...
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this is my platoon.. yeah! i love them!!! wahahaha... compared to BMT, post-bmt life is much much much more enjoyable for me... yeah... no racist bastards...
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yeah... OETI's graduation day... see if u can spot me... wahhahaha!
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i missed her so much.. so i decided to say this to her...

Happiness lives for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

it's harder to juggle work, play and relationship at the same time... hahaha..
another week has passed.. and this has been the longest week i've had in months..

the day after my last entry, i had guard duty. it's like, i just got posted there on friday and i had duty on sunday... *shakes head* and sunday duties are unlike weekday duties... the camp is huge.. definitely.. took 2 hours to complete the whole camp compound prowling. and by then, your leg hurts like as if the joints came off...
to make matters worse, duty rest after yesterday's duty is only 2 hours.. from 8 to 10 supposedly... but then, on monday, you found yourself being held back because they had problems with the checkpoints registers... and they held you till 0900 and make u do stupid work called area cleaning. the windows were thick with dust and we had to clean it... *shakes head*
so on that monday, i didnt have sleep for the day.. cos by the time we finish showering, it was 0940... and we didnt do anything either on that day.. but then, i stole a few hours of sleep in front of their office cos i just dun care anymore... i was glad i went home on monday night... and as usual, i went to meet sayang before going home.. hahaha..

tuesday came... it was duty day again .. for me... urgh.. and i tot since i knew the duty better, i'll get the time slot that i want... but apparently, out of all the guards there, only 3 were trained in weapons... i was like... "are they so stupid that they can't even go for rifle range...?" it was irritating.. cos firstly, the sentries have to be weapon trained... and since there are 3 slots, you know where this is going... then for prowlers, they must have 1 weapon trained prowler for each detail... and cos of these untrained people, me and my friend got different duties... i choose prowler... den was pushed to sentry... and then pushed again to the earliest sentry... which means, i do 1 extra duty for that day compared to others...
my friend didnt really know what was expected for prowler.. and he went with an untrained arms guy.... and he got 2 extra duties for spending too long between checkpoints..
wednesday, we were released from the guardroom at 0830hours.. it wasnt so bad.. at least, got an hour to sleep before we shower... and still no work to do... spent the day sleeping at times..
think i met sayang on wednesday too....

thursday was a little better... we got into sections and start to know the old guys... i decided to stay in-camp cos we had OC parade on friday.. and we had to report by 0720 latest... and i cant reach there at that time....it was another long long night in camp...
yesterday's parade was shitty.. but then again, which parade wasnt... the inspection took half and hour to complete.. and we had to stand unmoving... then there was a "motivation" talk to encourage us to give our 101% for the company... *shakes head in disgust* and then i had to sit through another induction program on safety and discipline... ah.. rite.. and that all ended at 0940... managed to go for break at 1000... den we cut oil basins using hammer and chisel and screwdriver.... *smacks forehead*
and at the end of the day, i met her again.. hahaha..

will meet her again today... for movie..
i started to come down with flu... and the block nose sucks.....

have to stay in camp tomorrow night so that i wont be late on monday. it's CO parade... and as usual, report before 0720...

sometimes i begin to wonder... does going by the books makes you suffer more than going against it... *shrugs* i'll never know....

hopefully, next week will get better... as in.. the week will go faster a little ...

*STRESSED* hahaha.. yeah.. that's cos i have lots of updating to do.. khekheke...

firstly, i'm out of OETI.. yaay! so now i'm a qualified and trained technician! wuhoo! haha.. we got this beautiful certificate that is recognised outside army. yeah. it's a skill... i like~ besides the cert, we got our platoon photo that we took during one of the weekdays.. hehehe.. so, officially, on the 9th of september, i passed out of OETI and was transferred to my new unit....

on the 10th, i went to my new unit. 9 dsmb (direct support and maintenance battalion)... it's situated in changi... and most of us stay in the west... urghhhh... the hassle... it's like, we take 2 hours just to get there... and there's only one bus from one place... like from tampines, only bus 29.. bedok, bus 2.. and pasir ris, bus 89... *shakes head* luckily there's a shuttle service provided.... yeah.. should make use of it and reduce on my concession fare... currently i'm using the bus concession.. which is unlimited ride for 61 dollars... but the mrt concession will cost 50 dollars... and only 4 rides per day... which will be a total of 111 dollars per month! and there's no pay rise... *thanks ah akbar*

i'm not officially a corporal yet.. but the rank will come, together with the pay...

yeah, so that's my unit for the time being... cos....

i'm posted to overseas....

my new camp will be in brunei. i'm still waiting for the chief clerk to send me my letter for medical checkup. so as long as i dun fail the medical checkup, it's confirmed that i'm going... it'll be for a year minimum.. and i can choose to extend the duration if i feel i want to.. but the thing is that, i have to stay for 6 months there before i'm allowed to return back to singapore using my leave...

i want to celebrate hari raya with sayang this year....

i want to be here for her birthday....

sigh.. oh well, i've always said that things happen for a reason... i hate going to jc.. but i was there... and the reason was to find my other half.... *insyaallah* think i found her..khekkhekhe...

yeah.. some of you might have known about this... but just wanna say that there are internet access over there in brunei.. i'll try my best to update from there .. hehe.. must be a great experience... though part of my heart will always remain here with someone......

the earliest i'll leave will be this month.... i dunno yet.. i'll keep everyone informed...
so till then, keep telling the ones you love how much they mean to u.. cos you'll never know when they'll leave u.....

Artist: Westlife
Album: Coast to Coast
Title: I Lay My Love On You

Just a smile and the rain is gone
Can hardly believe it (yeah)
There's an angel standing next to me
Reaching for my heart

Just a smile and there's no way back
Can hardly believe it (yeah)
But there's an angel, she's calling me
Reaching for my heart

I know, that I'll be ok now
This time it's real

I lay my love on you
It's all I wanna do
Everytime I breathe
I feel brand new

You open up my heart
Show me all your love, and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

I was lost in a lonely place
Could hardly believe it (yeah)
Holding on to yesterdays
Far, far too long

Now I believe its ok cause
this time it's real

I lay my love on you
It's all I wanna do
Everytime I breathe I feel brand new
You open up my heart
Show me all your love, and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

I never knew that love could feel so good
Like once in a lifetime
You changed my world

I lay my love on you
You make me feel brand new
Show me your love, and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

I lay my love on you
It's all I wanna do
Everytime I breathe I feel brand new
You open up my heart
Show me all your love, and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

a whole dayof yesterday spent with sayang again... *chuckles* the time spent : from 0745 to 0845 then 1230 to 2015... yeah~

it started with me "accidentally" dropped by her house early in the morning. hahaha. i reached there around 0730am.. hehe cos i know she'll be leaving her house at 0745. *thanks to my ingenius way of asking her* hahahaha. and she didnt suspect a thing till yesterday morning when i asked "do you like surprises?" *smiles* so i accompanied her(in my army uniform and triangular hair) to clementi mrt station. hehe...

then it was the army open house. we're supposed to meet at the entrance of the place by 0930.. and 5 people were late.. including the ic. so i took over the role and marked the attendance. we stayed at the entrance till almost 10am and it was freaking hot and stuffy and humid. so, i got the attendance ready and wanted to cover for my friends who were late.. and so i asked the officer in-charge if we're to take attendance again later after the whole thing. and of cos, he had to give a i-dont-give-a-damn face and said "i've briefed the ic yesterday" so i said, " i'm not the ic that you briefed yesterday" and he said " fuck the ic" wah lau.. early in the morning, and i got fucked for no apparent reason. wonderful wonderful. of cos i got pissed la.. and i took the attendance again, and my platoon mates wanted to know if we're to take attendance again. and of cos as the ic, i went to ask him again.. and the same thing happened again. i mean, i dun even know what to do there, where we're supposed to go and stuff.. so i asked... and this is what we get for asking in the organisation.. den he really reached my limit... after he said "fuck the ic" den i raised my voice " WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THEN? I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT U WANT" yeah... chargable offence... but if the commander doesnt give a proper instruction, how are the men going to follow properly....? we dun even know what to do... i reported to him the attendance, and he pulled me to one side nicely... *laughs* and he said " i dun like the way u talk to me just now. "
"sorry sir, but i dun know what to do, and that's y i asked u."
"i don't care what you do. just give me the attendance then i'll tell you. i've been here since early morning just to get the attendance ready. all i want is the attendance and what u do is your problem."
(in my mind) i was here before u arrived... heh
"yes sir. sorry sir."
(in my mind) if he had said that earlier it would have been easier. and all he said was fuck the ic. wth...

so it's over la.. as in, the whole tense moment... i said sorry, he's happy.. everyone's happy... hah..

a few minutes later.. we left the area... waited for 30 minutes for the bus.. wahhahahahha.. bad bad day... we reached the interchange at 1045.. and of cos we decided to get a drink first before going home. so we walked around and around till 1100 before we get our drink.. and that's not even cold.. *shakes head* i got into the bus at 1108... and reached home at 1150.... showered and changed in 10 minutes... and left the house to meet her all over again!

hahaha.. and so, met her at the bus stop of SIM. her eye's still red from the overdue contacts. good thing she wore specs yesterday.... yah, nak i suruh baru buat.. *grins* *sidetrack* i love you *back to story* and we travel to clementi before getting on another bus to orchard. apparently, my mum was behind us at the clementi's bus stop.. wahhahahahah! i was like.. "asal tak tegur" (why didnt say hi) cos she smsed me la.. yeah..

hehe... it was fiza's birthday gathering.. so we had to be there at 3.. and we reached orchard at 1330. sat at mcdonalds for a while, head down to borders until 0240 and went royal plaza at scotts for prayers. hehehe... the whole gathering was cool.. it's at constant cravings and 9 of us were there, including fiza. hahaha... i had an embarrasing moment of asking a sprite on the left.. wahhaha.. like fiza said "not as if the sprite on the left is any different from the sprite on the right" err yeah.. haha.. it happens la.. hahaha... embarrasing moments.. hiakz! doesnt really matter.... took lots of photos.. haha.. photos of food, of sprite, of people, of me, of her.. hahaha...

accompanied sayang to her cousin's house after that. and the bus took a long long long long long long time to reach jurong east. hahaha.. and i fell asleep during some parts of the journey.. heh! she was feeling tired.. tired from the whole week of studying and tuition and all ... and she still have wedding to attend today.. so.. yeah.. that's how tired she'll be.. all drained..

yeah. that's all i have for yesterday....

*you*
the times we spent, the times we're together,
the times i'm with you, i'll always treasure...
till the day comes for us to be one,
to be legally recognised as a couple,
i'll always be by your side...
caring, loving, smiling, helping...
and make everyday of your day a better day....
i love you darling...

signing off...
your humble prince *wahhaha oxymoron*
Farhan Suhada

she was only half asleep throughout the whole night.
said that her arm hurts.
massaged it herself.
wonders why it hurts.
thought it's probably the aircon.

army open house on saturday. i think even civilians can go there. but.. but.. sayang got lesson.. so.. she can't go for it... *smiles*

theory test in a few more hours.... *shrugs* just do what i have to do.. hehe.. 50 mcq questions for dunno how long.. probably 2 hours... *nods head* so.. till later!

*whispers* i like my desktop pic... hahahaha!

yeah.. just got back from woodland's library's mcdonald's. of cos, i was there to meet her la. hehe.. as usual, she looks sooooo sweet!!! must be the baju kurung.. no wait.. she IS SWEET! hahaha.. it's just her~ but i'm biased ... hahahaha! *pauses* DONT CARE!

*laughs* so yeah.. she was studying. i returned her book to her.. the paul jenning's uncanny... i just cant find the time to read them... cos most of the time i have after work, is either spent with her.. or spent with her.. hahahha! but it's my choice what! though i can choose to stay home.. and rest.. hehehehe! yepz... just as i got seated, ezeikel suddenly popped up of nowhere and said hi to us... i was like... " *shudders* " hahaha.. seriously, i didnt expect ezeikel to be there la... haha.. and she was smirking and grinning and smiling when she sees us together.. hahaha.. aper sajer kel... i wonder why she's so fascinated with us.. hahaha! *are we on some.. farhan's show or hana's show or something?!* heh..

hahaha.. 2 more weeks to posting out... and tmrw's the theory test... fine fine.. hahaha.. followed by photo taking.. hahaha.. and friday's the practical tests... so... yah.. and i heard that we are already posted to our units... except that we're not informed of it.. cos they dun want us to be complacent and not do the test properly... *shakes fists* and i bet i was given this vocation even before i got enlisted... heh...

okie gd nite! miss you sayang~

how can i resist her charm....? hahaha.. eh..? what's that on the right of the photo.....? *peers*
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harrrrlooowwwwww~~
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*sneaks up behind her* *grinning*
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this is me... looking retarded... wahhaha!
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heh heh heh... sayang went.. "what...?" *chuckles*
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sent her home today.. haha.. cutted my hair! yupz... the moon was beautiful.. it still is.. full moon tonight you see...
she's having ringing in her ears.. doctor said some infection too place... felt helpless that i cant do anything about it.. all i can do was just make her smile.. as always.. hehe.. i'm hopeless...
i should learn to be patient.. and keep the surprises where they belong.. hahaha.. man.. i sometimes can't resist telling her these surprises... like what i'm doing now la... hahahahahahaha!
like the song from wheatus.. "i'm so in love with you.. i'll be forever blue... " hehehe.. blue's probably toooo happy huh? wahahha!
me and her started up OUR own blog.. where both of us can post in the entry... and as such, it's still under renovation.. uhhu.. i'm thinking of coming up with some template for the site.. make it looks more personalized... so when it's done, i'll probably put it here.. unless we have posts there that we dun want people to see.. *laughs*

downloaded some songs for her.. since 2 days ago.. finally found the un-spoilt one.. hehe.. so i sent it over.. and she started to get irritating.. haha.. like.. super irritating.. and i clicked on cancel when it's almost 100kb left... out of 4.6mb.... she.. seemed pissed.. and.. i.. blanked out.. uhhu... i clicked cos i knew it was going to resume again.. but then.. it didnt.. and.. i felt bad.. really.. bad...

but hey, we sorted it out a few moments later... aiyo....
*sayang* sorry k....? was just playing around.. uhhu.. like u said, it's already sent now.. so.. dun worry.. i'll make up for it.. hahaha! good nite sayang.. miss you.. like crazy.. *blushes*

*stretches himself* i feel sooooooooo tired.. haha.. in a good way that is.. yeah! and i dun mind feeling tired for that somebody... hahahaha... practically, today i met her at SIM... then.. we went to.. *drumrolls* CONSTANT CRAVINGS!!! hahaha.. yeah.. had erm.. chicken.. both of us.. *nods head* and i had coke! wahhahahahah!! *inside joke* den we walked around... and around.. for shtuffs.. *err* stuffs... yeah..
she called her mum for directions to the comex exibition at suntec city.. man! it was SOO BLOODY PACKED!!! sheesh! and i was spoilt for choice.. i literally went crazy.. i collected as many leaflets and brochures that i can get my hands on.. and i had a stack of them.. wahhahaha.. i went crazy over the xbox displays there too.. it's like... 30 over games on display.. and u can play them if u like! WAH LAU!!!!!!! shud have gotten xbox for some reason.. urgh... but then, purchasing the games will need a little more help ah.. cos i cant get the pirated ones... unless i modify the system.. *smiles*
sooo.. yeah.. had a long bus ride home.. probably that's when i started to feel tired... cos we stand for half an hour throughout the journey... hahahahahaha.. so full... and now i'm hungry.. hahaha *looks for things to eat* *dances around* she made my day again!!!

~sayang~
i love you... really really really do! and i cant believe that you're Noorhana from my school.. wahahha!!!! *whispers* and we thought about it at the same day.. *shakes head* hahaha.. i love love love you!!! what else can i say? cos i do!!!!

man... can't things get any weirder? hahaha.. i believe in Allah... and i trust him to give me the best for my future.. *winks at someone*

How do I get through one night without you

If I had to live without you

What kind of life would that be

Oh I, I need you in my arms

Need you to hold

You're my world, my heart, my soul

If you ever leave

Baby, you would take away everything good in my life



(Chorus)

And tell me now

How do I live without you

I want to know

How do I breathe without you

If you ever go

How do I ever, ever survive,

How do I

How do I

Oh how do I live



Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky

There would be no love in my life

There would be no world left for me

And I ,

Baby I don't know what I would do

I'd be lost if I lost you

If you ever leave

Baby you'd take away everything real in my life



(Chorus)



Please tell me baby

How would I go on

If you ever leave

Baby you would take away everything

Need you with me

Baby, don't you know that your everything good in my life



And tell me now

How do I live without you

I want to know

How do I breathe without you

If you ever go

How do I ever, ever, survive

How do I

How do I

Oh how do I live



How do I live

Without you baby

yeah am back! err.. from work.. yah.. *laughs at own joke*

*controls himself* okie okie.. today we practically bleed the brake system. (bleeding in automotive terms means removing air from the hydraulic system) uhhu... and i realised that i was the one who pointed the nipple, i mean, the valve that releases the air and oil from the system.. *grinning* and it had to be done from under the vehicle, so we used the floorboard to slide under.. hahaha! fun!

after bleeding, we did... erm.. steering wheel components. yeah.. more on the power assisted driving system. *nods head* if u dun understand...well.. too bad.. hahaha.. it's like, the system that allows u to use minimal force to turn the wheels... and we removed the drop-arm that controls the steering motion of the steering wheel.. hehe.. *i feel so knowledgable in this topic* wahahha! maybe cos there's a motivation somewhere...? by someone maybe....? *wiggles eyebrows* *laughs*

at the end of the day, i did road marshalling for those running around camp. given a red flag and yellow CWO vest and had to stand at the middle of the intersection of the road. was with khairul anwar.. talked about.. erm.. girlfriends.. wahhaha.. and other stuffs like "why are they not running yet?" and "master *ehem ehem* acts as if he can run faster than another instructor and he *coach* the other guy to endure everytime he reaches us" wahhahahah!! probably he really can run la.. and.. not doing the persuading to act.. hahahaha nvm..

so yeah! my life with princess noorhana has been more than just wonderful... and i feel like i'm floating on air! seriously! *blushes* and i love her much much much more than when we first started out... and like she said, "Everyone says you fall in love once, but that's not true!! Everytime I hear your voice I fall in love all over again..."
and i think the text starts to change it's font and size... hehehe..
i longed for her voice everyday... uhhu.. even a message at different intervals of the day can make me smile like crazy.. maybe that's cos i'm crazy.. hahaha! but really! i have no words to describe her... and i want her ALL TO MYSELF! hahahaha... allright.. maybe i'll not steal her away from her mum .. hiakz!

sayang: sigh, i know that u cant be online at night as often as u used to be. but, in a few minutes, i'll call your house! wahhahaha!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

everyone else: woi! dun complain so much la! everyone has their own shit to settle... soooo all i can do is listen and try my best to help! the rest, is up to you~ hehehe.. soo if u wanna feel beautiful... FIND THE ONE! hahaha!

*smiles happily* a beautiful day spent perfectly with everything planned went about smoothly....... *u know i know we know* and i wish it never end.... good night my dear... *hugs her tight*

hey hey~! i'm left with 3 more weeks to my next posting out of OETI. and there'll be 4 tests before passing out. 1 theory test and 3 practical tests... yupz. and after the dreaded test, we'll be officially be trained technicians. heh.

aardwolf's back online. and we're getting double experience to make up for the lost of levels we didnt manage to achieve during the power failure over there. it's due to the tornado apparently and their power source got cut off. hahahaha. what a life!

the whole of this week's been great! guess i do more stuffs after work almost every day.. hahaha.. let's see.. erm.. 5 out of 7 days?! heh! go figure!

happy 3rd anniversary to you sayang! it seems like time flew us by since i got to know u deeper. i thank you for giving me your love. life has been wonderful since and you have made me realise how meaningless life would be without you. *whispers* i love you sweet princess....

a special message via hp....
waiting patiently as the clock strikes midnight, his eyes got blinded by the hp light... in this heart longs for his princess, the one that's his one and only wishes...to her ears he moved closer, to tell her that he's the luckiest lover.. so as the clock hand moves to 1, i wanna wish you happy 3rd anniversary my lovely one...

Kiss the rain~
Whenever I'm gone, too long.
If your lips
Feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn.
Keep in mind
We're under the same sky
And the nights
As empty for me, as for you
If ya feel
You can't wait till morinin'
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain

parents fighting... more of like.. blaming the other in such a way that it hurts his ego... the hp is misplaced.. let it be la.. why must you be so... uptight and naggy abt it...?

stop blaming him ... people are not perfect.....
cant she just be more supportive when he needs her...? sigh..

well i guess it's the way the producers do it... they put all the worse candidates first... urgh.. os irritating... at least.. now i'm enjoying the beautiful songs and voices.. haha

wah.. tired... had ippt trial test today. *shagged* erm.. yeah.. think i made an achievement of doing 11 pullups.. wahhahaha.. one more to 12.. and that's 5 points for pull ups station... hehe.. *whistles innocently* heh.. yeah.. and the only dreaded station is of course.. the 2.4km run... *shakes head* even sayang runs faster than me.. hahahahahahahaha!!!! *looks around for signs of Her* *smirks*

yeah.. so.. *sheesh* i dunno what to write.. but i want to write... *blabber blabber blabber*

oh.. singapore idol is starting to be irritating.... so what if they can sing...? do they really work really hard to meet the judges expectations..? guess not.. well maybe not yet.... *i'm being optimistic here* uhhu.. probably when they start the live telecast... it'll be the best of the best... *thinks* why in the world does singapore wants this competition anyway? firstly, singaporeans have the tendency to produce people who can sing.. but dun wanna apply for it.. and then, those who applied... cant really sing.. but wants to be famous and known by others...
what's the point of making a joke of yourself? for example.. the bananaman... that's pure stupidity... u've waited for several hours just to do that stupid act for one time....? *shakes head* whateva la singapore....

erm.. she's not home.. i think.. haha..

yeah.. i know i know.. i haven't been updating for a while... hahaha.. not that i have nothing to update about, but i .. erm.. i wasnt motivated to do so.. haha! so yeah.. a lot of things had happened in the last week... =P

okie.. let's start with work. we've began to do repairs on landrover 110 series. uhhu.. learnt how to do valve clearance and engine timing... and until today, we've been working on taking the engine out of the vehicle.. hahaha.. lots of things had to be removed.. like the alternator, coolant, cowling fan, electrical connections, fuel lines and all those stuffs la... haha.. and it took us around.. 4 hours to finish dismantling i guess.. hehehehe.. and that's HARD WORK! so today we practically sat around cos there's only one floor crane and engine stand. hence, we have to remove the engine tomorrow...

now on to my online life...
been trying to log on to aardwolf since... since a few days ago.. and i didnt manage to. feels so pissed cos i need 2 more levels to reach level 100.. haha.. den i can buy ANOTHER AARDWEAPON! not that i cant get one now lah.. it's just that when u want to resell the equipments, people will buy them only if they are at levels 80,100,120,140,160,180,200 .. yeah... so.. i have to meet that requirement. byt he time i reach level 100, i can purchase 2 weapons.. hahaa.. oh btw, aardweapons are special items that can only be bought using quest points.. and u can do quests every 30 minutes from the last quest.. and each quests will give an average of 12to16 quest points... so.. everyday, i can collect around.. *thinks* 200 if i play for 8 hours straight.. and do quests every 30 mins.. that doesnt include the time taken to complete the quests.. hahahaha.. go figure!

and now.. to my princess...
hahaha.. been spending quite some time with her last week... wednesday la.. saturday la.. haha.. anyway, went to meet her after work on saturday.. she ends at 12.. and i end at 12, but i managed to get the bus at 1235... so... finally met her at 1pm la... she was wearing black tudung and pants.. and checkered blue/red shirt.. hahaha. and she wore specs!! yeah~ that's cos her eyes were swollen the night before due to contacts... and she jolly well didnt bring the container and her specs... sheesh.. *i'll get back to that later* yeah.. so.. we had lunch at bukit gombak's alif restaurant.. uhhu.. she had chicken rice and i had.. err rice with chicken... *sniggers* wahhahahaha!!! yeah.. oh.. and an old guy tried to flirt with the makcik who was mending the stall.. wahahha! that's pathetic la... cos i recall her saying that "i'll treat you to eat mcdonalds or kfc.. but i dun think you'll eat" and he said something like "oh.. but i can eat mcdonalds if u do treat me" err.. nvm.. doesnt make sense.. hahaha.. so yeah lah.. but it's like the makcik doesnt want to entertain him.. and she gave her very sarcastic remarks and short answers... heh..
soooooooooooooooooooo after lunch.. we walked from bukit gombak to ar-raudah for prayers... yeah... passed little guilin ... hehehe... after prayers.. erm.. I DECIDED TO HAVE A WALK UP THE QUARRY.. but she decided to just stay at the bottom.. and sit down and chat.. hehe.. AND SHE DIDNT TELL ME THAT HER FEET WAS SWOLLEN AND RED... sheesh...
so there we sat.. looking at vandalised terrapines and her turbine and submarine... and my entrance to atlantis.. *shakes head* *laughs at our jokes* hiakz.. sent her home after a few hours sitting and talking... hahaha....
took the bus home .. and it took me 2 hours.. *points fist at tibs service*
hehe.. and that same night.. we.. talked on the phone from 1030pm to.. err... 4am.. *smirks* that shows how much i miss her la ah~ wahahhahaha!! *whispers* and i know u miss me too..

and on friday night, she was at her aunt's house.. and she got to use the comp.. hahaha from maghrib to 10pm... yeah.. and SHE DIDNT BRING HER CONTACTS CONTAINER!!! sheesh... it was fun i guess.. cos she invited her sister and 2 cousins to one msn chatbox.. and i invited my brother in.. wahahhaha.. and that's like.. 6 ppl talking simultaneously in one small freaking box.. hahaha.. and my brother and her cousin was like... typing song lyrics there laa.. hahahahaha
aper2 la.. =P

*stops for a moment* *scrolls up* that's a long entry..... hehe.. guess i'll stop for now... *phew* so.. yeah.. updates for 6 days of absence.. hahahahaaha!

for sayang...
i keep a part of you with me...
and every where i am there you'll be...

went to meet my princess after work today. hehe. was fun... she.. was.. a ... little... loose up there.. hahahaha! but it doesnt matter.. cos i love her anyway.. wahhaha! and.. yeah.. it must be that "NERD" sweets... u know.. the one by willy wonka... yeah.. hahaha!! we had dinner at raihan's cafe in jurong east.. uhhu.. first time there.. *sniggers* my lady's just wonderful.. hahaha...

and yes.. i dun feel like blogging... cos .. she's not online... *shrugs* and i tot she said she updated her blog.. hah! didnt see any updates at all.... and being online seems... pointless.. i feel BORED nowadays being online when she's not here.. hahahaha... except the times when i play aardwolf la.. sigh.. hahaha.. shows how dependent i am on her now.. hahahaha! what what?! hahaha!!

so.. yeah.. gotta go to sleep.. AND YOU SHOULD TOO sayang.!! u got lessons tmrw in the morning.... and by the time u read this it'll be like afternoon.. or even at night.. hahahaha... and i know u might sleep a little late.. hiakz... take care ait...? love you~

I can be your hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away....

Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight....

wahhaha!! i forgot to mention something.. this happened last night la! there was this cat. a black, with some white spots on it, cat. hahahaha... yeah.. it's like this.. i was standing at the door and it came to me... hahaha.. it looked at me in the eyes.. i.. rubbed the back of her neck and she looks as if she's high or something.. wahhahaha!! cos her eyes closes a little like she's enjoying it.. sheesh! *sick* yeah.. den.. she went to my legs and started to rub it's back on them.. hahaha.. i recalled reading somewhere that it's a way the cats tell other cats that i belong to them.. uhhu... after that, she lied on the floor... and looked at me.. and rolled around playfully.. wahhahah!!!!!!
wah lau eh... hahaha.. and i just had to call her.. and she comes... cool!!! hahaha! i tried it la.. cos we were supposed to have staff parade.. and she ran up to me.. wahhaha! nice~
now i feel like getting myself a pet like that.. hahahaha.. but no.. my mum will kill me.. yupz...

oh.. heya people! had guard duty last night.. uhhu.. well more of like the whole of yesterday and this morning.. yeah.. from 730am to 8am today.. cool rite?! ahhahaha! yesterday's Duty Officer was great. he's a warrant officer and he too had to come back on the eve of public holiday to guard a place that isnt worth guarding. he's funny too. that explains his rank.. haha.. cos officers are not friendly, most of them cos they're supposed "educated" with DEGREE and morals... rite..

cos i heard a story that this officer he got posted overseas. more of like thailand. and he got this thailand girl attached to him as a personal assistant la. as the days went by, the girl followed him everywhere he went.. until one day, the girl looked for him, crying. by then, he had returned home and left the girl there... pregnant...

so how do u expect us, WOSE ranks to really respect the commissioned officers.. when they themselves do things that doesnt deserve any respect...?

yeah.. back to guard duty.. so the warrant officer said "you cooperate with me, i make sure i won't give you problems" ahhahah! and problems refer to turn-outs and stand-to drills.. and that sucks yeah.. *those in army will know* especially when they are not satisfied with the drill. uhhu... so... the day and night went SLOWLY... as in.. real slow... but there was television.. yeah.. and i slept as much as i can get... too tired la... sleep a while, wake up.. sleep again.. wake up... *like sayang waking up to message her loved one* hahahaha..

then at night, there's this illegal bike racing outside camp.. hahaha.. the whole stretch of road... noisy sia... wished could take photos of it.. hahaha. but no cameras allowed in camp.. so.. no photos.. hahaha......

and i came back today... and slept till 1.. wahhaha...

den on saturday, i crashed Noorhana's lecture class... it was cool i tell you! ahahha.. the school and all. but then, i wasnt supposed to be there.. and i was afraid of getting caught.. hiakz! everything was fine la... flirt with ehem.. until the teacher, mrs meeeeeeennnnaaaaaa, decided to walk around the lecture room to inspect on the students' workings.. wahahahah!! i was so scared that she asked me to refer to my lecture notes.. and i had to show her the bankin notes.. wahahhahaha.. luckily that didnt happen.. and at that precise moment.. suddenly like i forgot how to do factorisation... wah lau!!!! she walked up to me.. looked from behind while i tried covering it.. and she said.. "try again yah" sheesh....... so malu!!! wahhaha.. and Hana's there smiling smiling at me... hahahaha.. aper sajer.. yeah la.. 7 months and i forgot.. liao.... and what more can get worse...? during break.. i dropped a whole cup of tea... *censored* urgh....... hahaha.. felt the day was getting bad or something.. cos i was supposed to go to pasir ris for some islamic gathering.. yeah.. hahaha...

so after contemplating with myself... i decided to not go for pasir ris.. and just spend the rest of the day with her instead. which was a good choice i would say.. hahaha.. at least i wont miss her that much on sunday ... hehehe.. we went to watch THE VILLAGE! wahahha... loved it.. and she keeps talking abt shyamalan... oh.. his birthday was yesterday... wahahhahah!! and he's 34... yeah lah.... wanna know more about the village? erm.. i suggest u go and watch it! wahahahaha.. let shyamalan makes more money!!! cos he's a genius! *quotes from sayang* hahaha so yeah lah....

den on the way back.. up the escalator... she said, " i think... nvm la" and i continued "we go to jurong east instead..?" wahahhaha *only she'll understand.. cos this is for HER!* yupz..... hahahaha... i enjoyed the whole of saturday.... yeah! was REALLY GLAD that i didnt go to pasir ris.....

my friend told me yesterday that the whole event started at 4 instead... and bbq didnt even start even at 9... whahahahahahha!!! *thank YOU SAYANG!! I LOVE YOU!!!!*

see.... spending time with loved ones is better than friends... if u know what i mean la.. hahahaha!!! love love love love loved it!!!! wah lau.. am soooo high ... sooo high on her love~ uhu....

sayang: indeed, we just got together... but you displayed your all, both your good and your bad... and i dun love you any less... is this what they really call love...? being there for the person they are... and not selective hearing.. or selectively accepting for only their good points...? i want to be there.. to always make u smile... and cry with u when ur sad.. hahaha! cos i cant guarantee i can make u smile.. =P hey.. at least i try whatttt!!! hehehehe! miss you....

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WO AI NI!!!!!!!!!

~good morning everyone~
ehhehehehehe... we met yesterday. uhhu. at McDonald's near her house. yeah, and she wanted to study there. so, since i was.. erm.. "free", i went down to accompany her. hehehhe.. aiyo dunno what to write.. i'm soooooooo groggy with mucus trying to escape from my nosehole... *shrugs*

*echo* baik jamal~ wahhaahhahha.. that was what the guys in camp have been saying. must be the anugerah thing that was on repeat telecast last sunday. uhhu. *rubs blocked nose* anyway, the song below is an old old song. but they changed the female singer from OGY to SITI SARAH. oh oh.. and SARAH's voice is nice.. wahhaha.. but my girlfriend's voice nicer.. so.. period. *giggles giggles* *gf feels scandalised* and...we tried singing that song *points below* in camp.. hahaha cool~

oh one more thing... i miss my gf... hiakz~ now i dun feel like using the comp at night anymore.. hhahaha.... dun ask.. heh..

*~*YOU*~*
"All that I am, all that I see, all that I dream and do are brighter, more beautiful and meaningful, because of my feelings for you."

Jamal Abdillah & Siti Sarah (M Nasir)

Sandarkan Pada Kenangan

Kenangan manis kau dan aku
Takkan terhapus
Duri ranjau dalam bercinta
Lumrah dunia

Sayang menyayang
Cinta dikenang
Perasaan menjadi rindu

Ohhhh...
Lihatlah diriku yang kehilangan
Tanpa kasihmu sayang
Siapalah aku

Sayang menyayang
Saling percaya
Punca kasih berpanjangan
Ohhh.... oh...

Mengapa kita harus bersengketa
Kerana fitnah dan salah sangka
Apa yang telah terjadi pada kenangan
Sememangnya aku tak pernah melupakan
Mengapa masih ada perasaan benci
Kerana cinta dan percaya luput dalam perasaan

Marilah kasih
Kita saling sayang menyayang
Kalaulah ada benci
Kita sandarkan pada kenangan

Apa yang harus kita lakukan
Kita sandarkan pada kenangan
Mengapa masih ada perasaan benci
Kerana cinta dan percaya luput dalam perasaan

*shrugs* somehow i feel miserable that she can't be online. *sighs* there's still the phone... but then, will i get to see her as often....? uhhu... *pathetic face*

it's amazing how parents can make or break their kids. i dun blame them entirely either if their kids dun succeed in the education mainstream cos sometimes, it's just not the way the kids learn. uhhu. some kids are better in academics but needs more time to do the practicals aka hands-on. some kids learn by doing it, in which they can memorize in graphics rather than texts. uhhu.

on that, it comes to freedom. everyone was a teenager once and understands the need for freedom. but when these teenagers grew up to become parents, they seem to forget how they so badly wants freedom. freedom in a form of staying out with friends, chill by the beach, hang at friends houses, and learn the life outside the confines of the house. there's also freedom in personality, freedom in speech, freedom in thinking and freedom in democracy. since parents know that they have this authority to CONTROL their children's freedom, they tend to impose it on their kids with an iron hand. *shakes head*

but who am i to say what a parent should or should not do? i won't know until i'm one myself. and when that day comes, i hope i'm not like some parents who restrict their children in some areas of freedom. *nods head* for example, my parents gives me freedom to use the computer whereas some parents don't.

*talked for 2 hours*

okie back... hmm.. yeah.. hmm... now i dunno what to say..
dun worry so much k....? everything's gonna be allright. you know i know we know..... just let me do the talking.. hahahahahaha!! and YES!!! stop waving to the other block.. -_-'

"In life you meet thousands of people, but only a few can touch your heart, like you have touched mine."

wahhaha *blushes*
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uhhu.. this can be seen by typing WHOIS
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Artist: Keane
Album: Hopes And Fears
Title: Everybody's Changing



You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Faded into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same


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to my friends who just lost their other half, it hurts, i know... but life has to go on... and it's just because everybody's changing... which can be due to many reasons.... just be happy that u've had had a great time.....

and YoU
"Love is the greatest feeling you will ever have, yet it is also one of the greatest sorrows. There is so much suffering, but then there are times when the crying, pain, and heartache is worth it. Those moments are perfect, they are right. Those moments make all the suffering worth while. It's those moments we should live for."
-Source Unknown

"I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be."
-Source Unknown

yeah.. aardwolf client... and that's me!
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ahhahahah!! harlowww~~ *waves at everyone*
yeah~! had my first blood donation exercise today! ahhahahhaha... it wasnt so bad (i think) cos it doesnt take a longggg timee to collect one packet of blood, which is around 450ml per packet. verrrryyyy little whattt! *laughs* yupz. and before the registration began, they gave us this pamphlet stating who shouldnt donate blood. they are:
1) HIV-infected or those with AIDS
2) Syphillis and STD/VD
3) Hepatitis
4) Malaria
*nods head* and then, they made us fill up a 6-page form, on personal stuffs like "have you had sex with more than one partner in the last 12 months" and "have you had sex with another man". what's up with the medical world man.. hahahaha... and i was sniggering at the questions la. so after filling up the form, i went to the registration counter to erm.. register myself. *duH~* hahaha. and i got this NICE sticker! it says "be NICE to me. This is my first donation!" hahaha.. will try to get the scanned pic of it. after the registration, i proceeded to this 'station' where the medical officer do diagnostic checks on you. yeah, and he went through the form to ensure that i understand that blood donation is voluntary and non-beneficial. (well, we got a day off. that's y we donate! wahhahaha) so, he declared me safe for donating blood.. hahaha.. which leaves the next station, the blood testing station. sheesh... this is where the pain starts.. wahhaha! okie okie, i hate feeling pain.. period. so this guy prick my middle finger and pushed the blood out into a straw-like straw (-_-') .. hhahaha.. i squirmed when the needle clipped on my finger. hiakz! i clenched my toes (cool rite? *wahhahaha*) and twitched and got tensed up.... haahhaha! *shakes head* after taking "a lot" of blood, he let one drop of blood into a blue solution, and he throw the rest... *cows cows cows* and he said... "you should be fine for donation" HAH! and i was still sguirming and whining in pain.. hahaha! my friends all around what... =p we got to lie down on plastic safari beds while blood was being drawn out lah. hehe. the RESERVIST medic was a corporal Rahmat (not sure of his rank *scratches head*) and i thought he looked familiar. was trying to make a conversation.. so i asked if it'll hurt.. hahaha.. he said it'll just be like an ant bite.
right.....
he took out this cotton bud (HUGE bud) that was soaked in green solution of dunno what.. and he rubbed it around the vein that he wants to use. *sniggers* a large area that is.. around 8 cm in diameter. hahaha.. and he keeps pumping the high-blood pressure squeezer to restrict blood flow into that vein.. hahaha.. and i got to squeeze a rubberlike thing to help with the flow. (perverts!) hahaha.. didnt know i was going to get two needles poked at the same spot! he told me that the first injection will be anaesthetic so that i'll feel all numb at the area where he's inserting the BIGGER needle. yeah.. BIGGER.. it looks like yakult straws.. except that it's oval and the width is wider than the straw. *shudders* the anaesthetic causes a HUGE clot of substance in that area, making it swell like mosquito bite. hahaha.. when it reduces in size, the "bigger needle" was inserted and blood flowed into the bag.. hahaha.. luckily i didnt feel pain when the bigger needle was pushed in.. but i know that i felt a metal object moving into the skin. hahaha.. and i watched the whole process! cool~ hahaha.. it's not like i get to see that happen everyday. =p
the best thing was that i was still smiling at everyone around. haha.. i looked right and my friend looked like he's dying from cancer... sheesh... when i asked, he said he's sleepy.. CHEH! actually, everyone around the room wasnt even smiling... wah lau~ not fun one.. hahahha.. so i smiled and smiled and laughed at the medics' jokes on each other... haha.. what only... i learnt that CPL Rahmat is working with Mediacorp, as a Programme Producer for channel 5. hahaha.. dunno how true that is.. but he do have the flair for it.. hahaahhaha~ but i really think he was this actor in Suria who acted as Farhan, a split-personality psycho who learnt about his condition when 'friends' locked him up in the toilet. he said he's not an actor.. *shrugs*
everything went well... no pain, no dizzy feeling, and not giddy at all... until the removal of the needle from my arm. the tube was clipped and cutted and 4 samples were taken in separate sealed test tubes. he said it's going to hurt when pulling the needle out. i had a cow then. hahaha! but when he pulled it out, i told him it didnt even hurt. and he went .. "oh..? good la" hahaha! he told me to apply pressure to the hole made from the needle jab....... and that was when my face felt cold and i felt giddy. it was like... the feeling of WARM blood being DRAINED out of your body. sheesh... luckily another medic, a Singh, noticed the change in colour of my face. hahahaha.... they told me to lie down.. and then they elevates the legs, MY legs. hahaha... the medics and medical officers who passed by me stopped and asked if i'm feeling okie. hehe... the benefits of smiling while donating... and emphasising the NEED to be NICE to ME! ahhahhahaha! and they ARE doing a WONDERFUL job! and these are people from the Army themselves. *smiles* haha.. i felt cared for... at least, even if i were to die of low blood, i'll know that there are people around who cares. heh~
so after lying there for a while, the blood came back to the brain. felt the warmth of my long lost blood that was finding it's way around my body.. hahahah! only then could i open my eyes and look normally. hahaha.. CPL Rahmat helped me to another bed so that they can get more blood from another donor.. haha.. no lah.. it's to cater to the other donors wad.. *winks* hahaha.. and everything was well....
or so i thought.....
it was time to apply the plaster to cover the wound la, and i removed my hand which was still applying pressure to the hole. after the plaster was there, the blood drained out of my head again... wahhahhaha... i panic! i was then made to lie down and have my legs elevated.. again.. hahaha.. farhan farhan *shakes head* oh, the blood donation really made me thirsty.. really really really thirsty... haha.. and i asked for a packet of milo from the medic.. felt so helpless.. he even opened the drink for me and fed it to my mouth.. *giggles* he left when Khairul, Hazmi, and Hafiz came to crowd around me... ahhahahha.. oh yeah.. they donated their bloods before me and they seemed allright! *sheesh.. not fair* and Khai's a regular blood donor. so he knew what to expect... i didnt.. hahahaha.. then Hazmi started to 'pray for the deceased' .. like i'm the deceased there... *aper ni* hahaha.. they sticked around.. till i THOUGHT i was better... *innocent face* so after another a while, i moved my ass away from the bed.. and to the resting point... where there are seats and drinks and biscuits. was feeling all normal when 5 minutes of sitting down, i felt all cold again... urgh.........................................
my friends helped me move to the bed again... *troublesome farhan* hahaha.. the medical officer said .. if i still am giddy again, he'll get the ambulance to transfer me to hospital. *shudders* i stayed longer la... for 15 mins... hahaha.. and the guys had to go for prayers... so they called Balajee to assist me... yeah.. i got up and went to the seats again.. sat for another 15 mins or so... and yeah.. was back to normal.. hahaha!! but, a sudden feeling of weakness came over me... doesnt feel like walking.. doesnt feel like eating.. doesnt feel like doing anything... just want to lie down ... and get some rest... which i didnt get la.. thanx to the.. practical lesson after lunch. but all i did was sit at one corner while the lesson was going on. i couldnt do anything else. hahahaha. not even sms my gf.. *hides face*
though i feel better now, i'm still feeling weak.. *oxymoron* hahaha.. am not feeling better.. just trying to make someone not worry about me. *she'll get enough cows to start a dairy farm when she reads this* i'm tired.. i want to rest.. am not sleepy.. i think.. *shrugs* just... shagged...

hehehehe... so that's all for the... blood donation exercise.. *feels more tired after typing it down* hahahha..

for YoU~~
The way her tears makes you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them, or hate them, or know that you would die without her ... it matters not.
Because once in your life, whatever she was to the world, she becomes everything to you.
When you look her in the eyes, travelling to the depths of her soul and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitably consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
You love her for a million reasons...
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind ....
but of the heart.
A feeling....
Only felt.....

i miss you sweetie..... *muacks*

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

several updates....

the overseas posting management people came down to camp today. they talked about overseas camps that are in constant need of permanent staffs there. and we apply for it after the whole talk. i've been wanting to get posted overseas. it's like a .. once in a lifetime experience with the army. and you get to experience working life overseas too. so, it kindda explains the interest. but then, the other benefit is also the .. erm.. given allowance to us. like.. erm.. 1200 for first month on top of our current allowance... and from 4th month onwards, monthly allowance of 880 plus current allowance.. yeah.. can save like.. a lot within a year.. wahhahahhaha!
but then, if i go, i'll miss several people. firstly, my family. it'll be the first time i dun get to celebrate hari raya with them. kindda sad. besides family.. of cos.. my dearest princess, miss noorhana atiqah. sorry sayang if i cant make it for this year's hari raya... and anniversary.. and our birthdays.... but look on the bright side, i'll save enough when i almost ORD. hahaha. then i can .. erm... start my own company online. somehow, i suddenly have contacts with these people who are good in internet marketing.. wahhahahaha! 40k per month ohh~~~ wahahhaha!! *ehem* burung terbang dipipiskan lada.. *shakes head*

yeahhh.. hahaha... i'll definitely miss YOU if i'm selected to go... *stays for a while*

today we.. no.. me.. I disassembled parts of the transmission box.. wahhaha... ooily oilyyyy.... eeww.. had fun doing that.. wahah.. what only.. sick fella. well, yeah.. practically that's all we did today.. wahahha! pathetic right? and i tot with the revised courseware, it'll be more cramped... but noooooo.... and i'm here for .. 1 1/2 months already.. sighs... what to do.. what to do...

oh.. sayang went to her usual spot every tuesday with her .. ehem.. gf.. yeah. so... have fun~!
i'll keep everyone updated on the .. erm.. overseas posting.. which i really want.. yeah.. *waves*

for you...
"We are not lovers because of the love we make but the love we have. We are not friends because of the laughs we spend but the tears we save. I don't want to be near you for the thoughts we share but for the words we never have to speak. I will never miss you because of what we do but what we are together."
-Nikki Giovanni

I don't know, but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you

I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.

It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you

Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul

If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you

And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

Noorhana....
When you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers, remember that in those spaces you can see my fingers locked with yours forever. I went to sleep last night with a smile because I knew I'd be dreaming of you ... but I woke up this morning with a smile because you weren't a dream...
"I may not be God's gift to women, but I am God's gift to one woman."
-anonymous

have a wonderful day sweetie....

this song was playing in my mind while i was dreaming... weirdness...

Artist: Five For Fighting
Album: Easy Tonight
Title: Something About You

I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you
I don't know where to dig in
I don't know how to get in there ­to feel you

It's been too long and i'm about to be in time for me
It's been too long and i'm in time
I'm in time.. hey yeah..

Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that

I never thought i would win
I never thought much about that.
(it's been a long time coming)
I never stopped to begin
Thinking about the process.
(it's been a long time coming)

It's been too long and i'm about to be in time for me
It's been too long and i'm in time
yeah i'm in time.. heyy yeaahhh...

Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that

i'm gonna be there ..
be there..
allright

I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you

Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that

Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that

It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
I'm going to hold on to that

­

hehe... for you Noorhana Atiqah

"She loves him more than he'll ever know. He loves her more then he'll ever show."
-anonymous
 
*muacks*

oh oh.. she was online.. but for a while... grandpa's bdae.. hahaha.. oh well...

AAAANNNNYYYWAAAYYYY!!! i've levelled to level 80!!!!!! wootz!! ahahha.. got my first weapon this mort.. so.. yupz... Long LIVE AARDWOLF!!! *hugs sayang* *whispers* u'll always be number one* hehehe

been online since 7... no signs of sayang... sigh..

hahahaha! watched I, Robot with Noorhana in the evening. Great movie. Sci-fi.. hahaha.. i love sci-fi.. makes me think of life if it ever happens... hahaha.. Will Smith was great. Funny chap. and the robots are cute. ahaha.. wished i could produce that multimedia graphics artwork like these professional designers. the robots looked sooooo cute... hahaha right sayang? *winks at her* *AHH-CHOOO* *sniffs* i'm allergic to bullshit... wahhahah! *rolls on stomach*

yeah.. den went to eat at LJS.. and she asked is it Long John Silver's or Long John's Silver. if it's the second one, then what the hell is silver? ahhahhaa... if the first, what is the thing? and i said fish.. and she went " but there's chickkkeeeeennnn and fries... and corn" *shakes head* aper2 lah sayang.. *grins* she had headache... i kindda dunno what to do.. hahaha.. seriously, what can one do when someone else has a headache other than to give a head massage? hmm hmmm?? well well *shrugs* but one thing she doesnt know... i'm experiencing headaches myself.. hahaha.. felt like banging it (the head) on the screen... ahahhaa.. *tongue out*

so yeah... thinks you're sound asleep.. and trying to ease the headache. hopefully it goes off by morning yah? i realli hope it does. *cuddles her in his arms* *kisses her cheeks* sweet dreams sayang~

since i cant wait for tomorrow to come... i'll post this today..

for YOU:
"When we started baby we were friends, but that's not how this fairy tale is gonna end, see I was thinking and it clicked one day, that no one else has ever made me feel this way."
-N'Sync

it's not that i dun want to blog. it's just that when i start, i can't stop. ahhahahha. and since someone asked me to, well, guess i'll update everyone.

friday was guard duty for me. hahaha. it started at 6pm till saturday's 8 am. yepz. and my duty was prowling, where we walk around the camp to do patrols. yeah, supposed to have 3 duties but was given only one... wahhahahah! so lucky! and we did only the first shift la! haha.. so.. after first shift, ehem.. my MDM called me... hahaha! yeah.. she felt better after a whole day of... shitload in the toilet bowl... wahhaha.. but she didnt realise that my shitload just started! hehe.. glad she's back to herself again. *yeah, she changed to a swan yesterday* wahhahahah! yeah lah.. den my friend, Mr Khairul.. haha.. lend his handphone to me cos he got free incoming. hehe.. THAT was why i could talk to sayang for 2 hours! khekhekhekhkekhe... thanks man for the phone!
*ayah dah 2 tahun tak tengok movie* translation: "daddy havent watched movie for 2 years" *rofl* well.. i rolled on the bed last night lah if YOU wanna know.. hahaha.. and everyone else was asleep.. hahahahaha! and i tried to control my laughter.. but.. dun think so.. wahhahahahaha!! okie okie sooooo that's for night duty... den when early morning came... the rain started to pouurrr like nobody's business.... and me.. yes.. me.. was assigned to guard the gate.. hahaha.. open and close for authorised personnel to enter.. anddddd my whole bottom part got wet.. that's cos i wore this "security" raincoat.. hahaha.. got the word security there! ya lah! .. all yellow in colour.. hehehe.. so bright... so i was sitting there.. alone, shivering like eskimo... waiting for people to come.. hahahaha.. so that's all for the duty day~ *smiles*

i wrote some stuffs in my.. temporary journal.. hahaha.. it's like a record of what happens in a day.. and my thoughts at times la... BUT.. am not going to publish them here! wahahha! nope.. no matter what YOU say sayang.. hahahaha! nope! well.. maybe i might.. wahhahaha! *fickle-minded*

so.. NOW i'm having quotes.. wahhahaha

~*sayang*~
"See there's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me."
~Emma~

A sacred gift of heaven
For better worse, wherever
And I would never let somebody break you down
Until you cried, never

caaaakkkk~~~!!! i see u! i see u!! *kindda old pic u see.. haha..*
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yaayyy!! i won!!! *dances around* see.. i'm white.. wahhahaha.. the sun made me dark... *grumble grumble*
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harlooo...?? harrlooo...?? can i have my toy car pls...???
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Artist: Daniel Bedingfield
Album: If You're Not The One
Title: If You're Not The One

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘ Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I