tonight, i have to go...
a part of me used to be enthusiastic about it...
used to love the thought of getting
somehow it's not here anymore...
i love to see you near..
i love to hear your voice on the phone...
and in person...
and i cant bear to leave all this for money...
loving you has been the best hobby...
the best gift anyone could have...
and to see you smile after all the effort...
it just makes life worth living for...
and i reach out my hand...
one last time before i leave...
so hold it close like u'll never want to let go...
cos you're the only one for me...
-Farhan Suhada
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
oh yah, anybody out there wants to earn extra income....? i have lobang... and it doesnt take much of your time.. and the income is dependant on how much you want it to be... for more information, just give a call or sms me at my handphone... or send me email... or even tag there, leaving me information to contact you...
attention all pioneer JC students, erm.. pioneer JC ex-students for that matter..
head down to http://www.pac.org.sg/ for the Alumni's Online magazine...
it doesnt hurt to look, even once... hahaha.. yeah~
head down to http://www.pac.org.sg/ for the Alumni's Online magazine...
it doesnt hurt to look, even once... hahaha.. yeah~
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
went for bowling on saturday with sayang, fiza and hafiz... ahhaha.. no no.. not the hafiz that u guys know.. it's hafiz the brother of sayang.. hahaha yeah.. so we met at .. erm.. chua chu kang mrt station la.. it was a bright and sunny day anyway.. hahaha.. and slight drizzle in bukit batok... but then for a while only.. hahaha oh yah, and on THAT day, i had no cash.. hahah... my pay havent come in yet, and my ez link's left with 4 cents... wahhahahah!!!
so my dad decided to borrow me his 50 bucks first cos he needs the cash for credit card payment.. and since i'll get my pay on monday, he didnt mind passing them to me.. hahaha.. so i went to top up my card, and waited for ALL of them at the platform... ah.. and as usual, when everyone's supposed to meet at 2, it means come after 2... be it 10 or 30 minutes.. hahaha.. cos it's perfectly alright to come later.. *rolls eyes* so anyway, after everyone arrives, we took the train to bugis where supposed we're going to have lunch and our game..
so we went for lunch after prayers.. it's this small coffeeshop near amiran's that sells halal CHINESE food.. wahhahha! okie.. what are the implications...?
1. It's cheap
2. More stuffs and quantity in one serving
3. Delicious
4. IT'S CHINESE FOOD!!!
5. The wanton noodle's nice.. hahaha and so is the roasted chicken rice.
=P ... wahhahaha.. and everyone was scattered all over the place while the uncle tried to take down our orders.. hahahaha... cos we didnt know what to eat.. sayang had lor mee, hafiz had mee siam (wahhahahha) , fiza had laksa penang, and me, i had the roasted chicken rice!! wahhahaahaha...
and while eating, the rain started to pour.. dang.. it gets heavier and heavier and heavier... and sayang was laughing at the poor old angmos that were seated on the uncovered upper deck of a bus.. i think it's this, visit singapore bus ah.. that tours around places of interest.. hahaha cos apparently, they were panicking trying to get to the lower decks.. hahaha.. they're quite old mind you.. granddads and grandmums.. hahaha...
and so, we waited for the rain to stop.. and it didnt.. even after we finished our meals... den suddenly, someone had this... BRIGHT idea to walk/run/jog in the rain to the bowling alley... ahh.. (from the coffeeshop to the alley is a long long walk there) and yes, surprisingly, everyone agreed... hhahaha.. probably all very excited to play.. hahahaha
so we ran.. and jog.. and walk across the streets and pavements and got drenched ... very ... and i recall hafiz running across a 4 lane road.. and running back after he ran to the other side.. and ran to the other side again with us.. wahhahah!! aper seh.. hahahhaha
and passerbys and shop owners went like.. "waahhhh!! so wet ar u guys...?" "eh, not scared of the rain ah...?" "basahnyaaaaaa~~!!!"
wahhahahaha!!! oh well.. hahaha.. and sayang was freezing.. so i gave my waterproof jacket to her after we reached the place.. i know i know.. should have given her earlier rite? hahaha but she's wearing black.. and it doesnt look soaked though it's soaked.. hahaha.. *sorry sayang* yeah.. so, we took the lift up to the 8th floor... wahhaha... waiting anxiously for it to reach the level.... and guess what.....? "Plaza Bowl is closed for upgrading it's electrical connections" WAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! all that walking and running and jogging in the rain was for NOTHING!! wahhahahahhahah!!!!
yeah.. haha.. and on the way down the lift, fiza played with her shoe and gave that squeky sound... and there's and uncle in front of us.. hahaha.. and he wants to turn but he didnt want to turn kind of gesture.. WAHHAHA!! and he quickly walked out of the lift when it FINALLY opened!! wahhahahahah!!! he must be thinking "what a bunch of crazy wet kids" hahahaha~~
yeah.. oh well.. hahaha... so we didnt get to play... and decided to go ice skating.... but after we boarded a bus towards woodlands, and dropped at city hall station, fiza wanted to sleep.. *PENGZ!!!* so in the end, everyone wants to go home.. hahaha.. yeah la.. understandable.. wet and sticky.. hehehe.. but it was fun.. hahaha.. running around in the rain.. hehehe...
till next time! ciaoz!
so my dad decided to borrow me his 50 bucks first cos he needs the cash for credit card payment.. and since i'll get my pay on monday, he didnt mind passing them to me.. hahaha.. so i went to top up my card, and waited for ALL of them at the platform... ah.. and as usual, when everyone's supposed to meet at 2, it means come after 2... be it 10 or 30 minutes.. hahaha.. cos it's perfectly alright to come later.. *rolls eyes* so anyway, after everyone arrives, we took the train to bugis where supposed we're going to have lunch and our game..
so we went for lunch after prayers.. it's this small coffeeshop near amiran's that sells halal CHINESE food.. wahhahha! okie.. what are the implications...?
1. It's cheap
2. More stuffs and quantity in one serving
3. Delicious
4. IT'S CHINESE FOOD!!!
5. The wanton noodle's nice.. hahaha and so is the roasted chicken rice.
=P ... wahhahaha.. and everyone was scattered all over the place while the uncle tried to take down our orders.. hahahaha... cos we didnt know what to eat.. sayang had lor mee, hafiz had mee siam (wahhahahha) , fiza had laksa penang, and me, i had the roasted chicken rice!! wahhahaahaha...
and while eating, the rain started to pour.. dang.. it gets heavier and heavier and heavier... and sayang was laughing at the poor old angmos that were seated on the uncovered upper deck of a bus.. i think it's this, visit singapore bus ah.. that tours around places of interest.. hahaha cos apparently, they were panicking trying to get to the lower decks.. hahaha.. they're quite old mind you.. granddads and grandmums.. hahaha...
and so, we waited for the rain to stop.. and it didnt.. even after we finished our meals... den suddenly, someone had this... BRIGHT idea to walk/run/jog in the rain to the bowling alley... ahh.. (from the coffeeshop to the alley is a long long walk there) and yes, surprisingly, everyone agreed... hhahaha.. probably all very excited to play.. hahahaha
so we ran.. and jog.. and walk across the streets and pavements and got drenched ... very ... and i recall hafiz running across a 4 lane road.. and running back after he ran to the other side.. and ran to the other side again with us.. wahhahah!! aper seh.. hahahhaha
and passerbys and shop owners went like.. "waahhhh!! so wet ar u guys...?" "eh, not scared of the rain ah...?" "basahnyaaaaaa~~!!!"
wahhahahaha!!! oh well.. hahaha.. and sayang was freezing.. so i gave my waterproof jacket to her after we reached the place.. i know i know.. should have given her earlier rite? hahaha but she's wearing black.. and it doesnt look soaked though it's soaked.. hahaha.. *sorry sayang* yeah.. so, we took the lift up to the 8th floor... wahhaha... waiting anxiously for it to reach the level.... and guess what.....? "Plaza Bowl is closed for upgrading it's electrical connections" WAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! all that walking and running and jogging in the rain was for NOTHING!! wahhahahahhahah!!!!
yeah.. haha.. and on the way down the lift, fiza played with her shoe and gave that squeky sound... and there's and uncle in front of us.. hahaha.. and he wants to turn but he didnt want to turn kind of gesture.. WAHHAHA!! and he quickly walked out of the lift when it FINALLY opened!! wahhahahahah!!! he must be thinking "what a bunch of crazy wet kids" hahahaha~~
yeah.. oh well.. hahaha... so we didnt get to play... and decided to go ice skating.... but after we boarded a bus towards woodlands, and dropped at city hall station, fiza wanted to sleep.. *PENGZ!!!* so in the end, everyone wants to go home.. hahaha.. yeah la.. understandable.. wet and sticky.. hehehe.. but it was fun.. hahaha.. running around in the rain.. hehehe...
till next time! ciaoz!
Saturday, January 08, 2005
You create the experience of love by giving the gift of acceptance and appreciation. Just look at how you feel when someone genuinely accepts and appreciates you. Doesn't this feel great? Of course it does.
You feel better about yourself and better about your life. You also feel better about the person who accepts and appreciates you. Automatically, you become accepting and appreciative in return.
Now notice how you feel when someone is non-accepting towards you. Notice how you feel when someone is critical of you or tries to change you. Notice how fast the experience of love disappears.
Instantly, you get hurt. You get upset and close down. You put up your walls of protection and automatically become non-accepting and critical in return.
Then the other person gets upset, puts up his or her walls of protection, and becomes even more non-accepting towards you.
Then you get even more upset. Your walls of protection get stronger and you become more critical of the other person.
Then that person gets more upset and becomes more resentful of you. Then you become more hateful towards the other person. Without knowing, you create a cycle of conflict, a cycle of resisting, attacking and withdrawing from each other. This cycle of conflict then destroys your relationship and produces tremendous suffering.
If you have any relationship that isn't working, this cycle is present. If you want to heal your relationship and end the conflict, you need to end this cycle.
Fortunately, all it takes is one person.
The cycle of conflict is like a tennis volley. Two people are needed to keep the cycle going. Only one is needed to end it. When one person stops playing the game, the cycle is over.
You stop playing the game when you give acceptance and appreciation instead of being critical and resentful.
To make the shift from criticalness to acceptance, you need to let go of your resistance. You can do this by taking the following steps:
1. Find and heal the hurt that has been reactivated by the other person
Ultimately, the reason you are non-accepting is because the other person has reactivated some hurt in you. As you heal this hurt, the need to resist disappears. You can then interact in a way that creates love instead of destroying it.
2. Give the person full permission to be the way he or she is
Notice that the other person is the way he or she is whether you like it or not. Your feelings are totally irrelevant. Hating the way someone is doesn't change a thing. That person is still exactly the way he or she is. When you fight the truth of how someone is, you fuel the cycle of conflict and you lose your ability to see what needs to be done. When you are at peace with the way the someone is, you see your situation clearly. You can see what needs to be done and you can do it in a way that is supportive.
3. Forgive the person
When you resent someone, a big part of you closes down. You become bitter and lose your ability to love. You also interact in a way that automatically creates opposition and resistance against yourself. Forgiveness is not for the other person, forgiveness is for you.
4. Let the person go
When you hang on to someone, you push the person away. The person feels suffocated and has to fight for breathing room. Just look at how you feel when someone hangs on to you. To have any relationship work, you have to be willing to lose the person.
5. Accept full 100% responsibility for the loss of love
Relationships are not 50/50. They are 100/100. Each person is 100% responsible for the presence or absence of love in a relationship. Once you see your 100% responsibility for the loss of love, you can no longer blame the other person. You also become more effective in all your future relationships.
6. See that you are just like the other person
Any characteristic that you can't stand in another person is an aspect of you that you can't stand in yourself. Once you discover that this characteristic is also in you, your resistance towards the other person gets replaced with compassion. You also become more at peace with yourself.
7. Get with the person and clean up your relationship
Once you let go of your resistance towards someone, the next step is to get with the person and clean up your relationship. Tell the person that you've had some major self-discoveries and that now you're interacting in a new way.
Take full responsibility for what happened and ask the person to please forgive you. If you have been hanging on, give the person freedom to leave.
Say whatever you need to say to clean up your relationship. Then follow your statement up with action. Make sure the other person always feels loved, accepted and appreciated.
Every time you interact with someone, you will either create love or destroy love, and whatever you give will come right back.
So put the focus on ending the conflict and restoring the love, not necessarily as husband and wife, but as one human being to another.
As you do this, you will heal both your relationship and your hurt. You will also create a life that is a lot more enjoyable.
- from this a war and SHAX
******************
in a relationship, conflicts are bound to happen. i'm sorry...
You feel better about yourself and better about your life. You also feel better about the person who accepts and appreciates you. Automatically, you become accepting and appreciative in return.
Now notice how you feel when someone is non-accepting towards you. Notice how you feel when someone is critical of you or tries to change you. Notice how fast the experience of love disappears.
Instantly, you get hurt. You get upset and close down. You put up your walls of protection and automatically become non-accepting and critical in return.
Then the other person gets upset, puts up his or her walls of protection, and becomes even more non-accepting towards you.
Then you get even more upset. Your walls of protection get stronger and you become more critical of the other person.
Then that person gets more upset and becomes more resentful of you. Then you become more hateful towards the other person. Without knowing, you create a cycle of conflict, a cycle of resisting, attacking and withdrawing from each other. This cycle of conflict then destroys your relationship and produces tremendous suffering.
If you have any relationship that isn't working, this cycle is present. If you want to heal your relationship and end the conflict, you need to end this cycle.
Fortunately, all it takes is one person.
The cycle of conflict is like a tennis volley. Two people are needed to keep the cycle going. Only one is needed to end it. When one person stops playing the game, the cycle is over.
You stop playing the game when you give acceptance and appreciation instead of being critical and resentful.
To make the shift from criticalness to acceptance, you need to let go of your resistance. You can do this by taking the following steps:
1. Find and heal the hurt that has been reactivated by the other person
Ultimately, the reason you are non-accepting is because the other person has reactivated some hurt in you. As you heal this hurt, the need to resist disappears. You can then interact in a way that creates love instead of destroying it.
2. Give the person full permission to be the way he or she is
Notice that the other person is the way he or she is whether you like it or not. Your feelings are totally irrelevant. Hating the way someone is doesn't change a thing. That person is still exactly the way he or she is. When you fight the truth of how someone is, you fuel the cycle of conflict and you lose your ability to see what needs to be done. When you are at peace with the way the someone is, you see your situation clearly. You can see what needs to be done and you can do it in a way that is supportive.
3. Forgive the person
When you resent someone, a big part of you closes down. You become bitter and lose your ability to love. You also interact in a way that automatically creates opposition and resistance against yourself. Forgiveness is not for the other person, forgiveness is for you.
4. Let the person go
When you hang on to someone, you push the person away. The person feels suffocated and has to fight for breathing room. Just look at how you feel when someone hangs on to you. To have any relationship work, you have to be willing to lose the person.
5. Accept full 100% responsibility for the loss of love
Relationships are not 50/50. They are 100/100. Each person is 100% responsible for the presence or absence of love in a relationship. Once you see your 100% responsibility for the loss of love, you can no longer blame the other person. You also become more effective in all your future relationships.
6. See that you are just like the other person
Any characteristic that you can't stand in another person is an aspect of you that you can't stand in yourself. Once you discover that this characteristic is also in you, your resistance towards the other person gets replaced with compassion. You also become more at peace with yourself.
7. Get with the person and clean up your relationship
Once you let go of your resistance towards someone, the next step is to get with the person and clean up your relationship. Tell the person that you've had some major self-discoveries and that now you're interacting in a new way.
Take full responsibility for what happened and ask the person to please forgive you. If you have been hanging on, give the person freedom to leave.
Say whatever you need to say to clean up your relationship. Then follow your statement up with action. Make sure the other person always feels loved, accepted and appreciated.
Every time you interact with someone, you will either create love or destroy love, and whatever you give will come right back.
So put the focus on ending the conflict and restoring the love, not necessarily as husband and wife, but as one human being to another.
As you do this, you will heal both your relationship and your hurt. You will also create a life that is a lot more enjoyable.
- from this a war and SHAX
******************
in a relationship, conflicts are bound to happen. i'm sorry...
Friday, January 07, 2005
*looks at the calendar* january 7th... 11 more days before i leave Singapore. Ah yes, i just received news that i'm officially off to Brunei for my 1 year tour overseas yesterday. i'll be leaving Singapore on the 18th 0230hrs.... hahaha.. a chartered SQ flight in the middle of the night.. yeah~ ah.. so those of u who want stuffs from brunei, i dunno what's there.. hahahaha! u want a cicada...? the size of a rat...? wahhahahahahah!!
just now i cleared my toolbox, sort of like, returned all the tools that were issued to me. ah.. it was a tough job.. fine la fine la.. dun believe me.. hahahaha.... it's tough cos when u work with other technicians, the tools gets mixed up and u dun realise it... and in the end, when u check ur tools, some gets missing.. and some extras..... so i lost several tools.. including socket extensions and RACHET.. god! no one loses a rachet... except that someone else has more than 1 rachet... yeah.. so i spent the whole day looking for tools.. asking around... trading extra tools.. and in the end, i managed to clear it.. wahhaha... the toolstore ic was like "can u lose some tools....?" wahhaha that was after he checked most of the tools in my box.. hahahaha...
but it was short lived... he noticed that the screwdrivers were not the ones issued... due to the difference in it's length and width... aiya.. hahahahaha ... so i went around and exchanged again.. and yaay~ hahahahhaha
so after clearing toolbox, i have to get signatures from my company's main appointment holders, HQ appointment holders, S1, S3, S4 branch too.... aiya.. it's irritating cos the higher ranks will tell u that they dun want to sign cos the lower ranks havent signed yet... i'm like.. wah lau.. why cant he/she sign while she's still here? i mean, what if on monday he/she decides to fall sick or have some urgent meeting ker....? den where do i get the signatures seh.... *shakes head* but it's okie la.. i think i might need to come down to camp for 2 more days only... yeah..
ahh.. yes..i think i'll be getting a new hp and subscription line tmrw... hahaha.. yeah~!! rock on! and sayang's still shopping i think.. hahahaha... i missed her... a lot.. *smiles*
till later!
just now i cleared my toolbox, sort of like, returned all the tools that were issued to me. ah.. it was a tough job.. fine la fine la.. dun believe me.. hahahaha.... it's tough cos when u work with other technicians, the tools gets mixed up and u dun realise it... and in the end, when u check ur tools, some gets missing.. and some extras..... so i lost several tools.. including socket extensions and RACHET.. god! no one loses a rachet... except that someone else has more than 1 rachet... yeah.. so i spent the whole day looking for tools.. asking around... trading extra tools.. and in the end, i managed to clear it.. wahhaha... the toolstore ic was like "can u lose some tools....?" wahhaha that was after he checked most of the tools in my box.. hahahaha...
but it was short lived... he noticed that the screwdrivers were not the ones issued... due to the difference in it's length and width... aiya.. hahahahaha ... so i went around and exchanged again.. and yaay~ hahahahhaha
so after clearing toolbox, i have to get signatures from my company's main appointment holders, HQ appointment holders, S1, S3, S4 branch too.... aiya.. it's irritating cos the higher ranks will tell u that they dun want to sign cos the lower ranks havent signed yet... i'm like.. wah lau.. why cant he/she sign while she's still here? i mean, what if on monday he/she decides to fall sick or have some urgent meeting ker....? den where do i get the signatures seh.... *shakes head* but it's okie la.. i think i might need to come down to camp for 2 more days only... yeah..
ahh.. yes..i think i'll be getting a new hp and subscription line tmrw... hahaha.. yeah~!! rock on! and sayang's still shopping i think.. hahahaha... i missed her... a lot.. *smiles*
till later!
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
Saturday, December 25, 2004
people sometimes do stupid things that they dun realise. they get angry over little things that shouldnt be gotten angry about. and when they calmed down, like 5 mins later, they realised what they did and unintentionally hurt the ones they love by being indifferent abt the whole situation. though they can still say sorry to whoever that they hurt, but the scar might still be there. the hurt felt when something nasty is said.
i'm sorry sayang. yes, i want everyone to know that i'm sorry. i'm sorry that sometimes i get frustrated that things doesnt go my way, like using the comp or going out with you without having people calling and asking me out too. i just want to be with you every second... totally dependant huh? *smiles* yeah, they all say love makes you do crazy things. i didnt actually believe that, until i met you..
i know you're in your emotional state for the past week. i try to make you happy. i try to make you smile and forget all your worries. i believe i did it. i'm positive i did it. but on the other hand, i do stupid things too... maybe it's just miscommunication, well at least i think that's the case. and once again, i'm sorry..
and sayang, i'd like to express my heart to you with a simple lyrics below. my love, you're the only one.... *takes her hand and lifts it slightly towards him* *bends down and kiss the back of her hand* *looks at her* can i have this dance....?
i'm sorry sayang. yes, i want everyone to know that i'm sorry. i'm sorry that sometimes i get frustrated that things doesnt go my way, like using the comp or going out with you without having people calling and asking me out too. i just want to be with you every second... totally dependant huh? *smiles* yeah, they all say love makes you do crazy things. i didnt actually believe that, until i met you..
i know you're in your emotional state for the past week. i try to make you happy. i try to make you smile and forget all your worries. i believe i did it. i'm positive i did it. but on the other hand, i do stupid things too... maybe it's just miscommunication, well at least i think that's the case. and once again, i'm sorry..
and sayang, i'd like to express my heart to you with a simple lyrics below. my love, you're the only one.... *takes her hand and lifts it slightly towards him* *bends down and kiss the back of her hand* *looks at her* can i have this dance....?
My love
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's right
My first love
You're every breath that i take
You're every step i make
And i
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do
And your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Oh, yes you will always be
My endless love
Two hearts
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives had just begun
Forever
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms
And love
I'll be a fool for you
I'm sure
You know i don't mind
You know i don't mind
'cause you
You mean the world to me
Oh, i know
I know i found in you
My endless love
Oh
And love
I'll be that fool for you
I'm sure
You know i don't mind
You know i don't mind
And yes
You'll be the only one
'cause no one can't deny
This love i have inside
And i'll give it all to you
My love
My endless love...
Friday, December 17, 2004
You're so beautiful, divine
Everything 'bout you so fine
And with the love like yours
There is no pain in this world that i can't endure
So beautiful, so wonderful
And as we float on the floor
I hear the music of love
Chorus
This is our song
This is the song we'll remember forever and ever
It means to you what it means to me
So from this moment on, we know
This is our song
Our song
Anytime i feel alone
I put on our favorite song
And like the music and words
We merge into one
And play on and on
Love's so beautiful, unconditional
Can't find the words to explain
This is our song and our song says it all
Chorus
When my skies are grey
Make them clear again
When i'm weak you are strong
I need to hear the sound, you need to hear the words
This is how it all began
Chorus
This is the song we'll remember forever and ever
That it means to you, what it means to me
So from this moment on
This is our song
This is our song
So forever and ever
With just so you know
Just so
We know
We know
We both know
This is our song
Saturday, December 11, 2004
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
*smiles* i love you sayang~
Beautiful_Soul - Jesse McCartney
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
*smiles* i love you sayang~
Beautiful_Soul - Jesse McCartney
Friday, December 10, 2004
I just watched Puteri Gunung Ledang today. I know i know that it's been out for quite a while, but i didnt have time to go watch it. *laughs* aaaaanyyywaaayyy, it's actually a love story, with parts of history and myths reflected in it. the flow of the movie is slow to people who doesnt appreciate the richness of the Malay Language. i do agree that it can get boring at times because it's purely dialog, and there's a lot of flashbacks and inner desires. anyway, i'd give it a 7/10 for it's professional look, beautiful use of the Malay Language, amazing sceneries, and its commendable costumes and props....
for the official movie website, visit http://www.pglthemovie.com/
for a hilarious perspective on the movie, visit http://mel-licious.blogspot.com/2004/08/hang-tuahs-pick-up-line.html
and for a negative perspective of the movie from Malaysians themselves, visit http://www.aizuddindanian.com/voi/archives/2004/09/review_puteri_g.html
personally, what i feel about these malaysians is that they doesnt even appreciate the historical/mythical value of this movie. from their comments, i assumed that their expectations of movies are MORE action, MORE love scenes, MORE easily understandable dialog and MORE young actors/actresses.... *shrugs*
and i believe i'll get lots of comments on my tagboard regarding this entry.. *laughs* if i dun, phew! hahahaha.. if i do, BRING IT ON!!
for the official movie website, visit http://www.pglthemovie.com/
for a hilarious perspective on the movie, visit http://mel-licious.blogspot.com/2004/08/hang-tuahs-pick-up-line.html
and for a negative perspective of the movie from Malaysians themselves, visit http://www.aizuddindanian.com/voi/archives/2004/09/review_puteri_g.html
personally, what i feel about these malaysians is that they doesnt even appreciate the historical/mythical value of this movie. from their comments, i assumed that their expectations of movies are MORE action, MORE love scenes, MORE easily understandable dialog and MORE young actors/actresses.... *shrugs*
and i believe i'll get lots of comments on my tagboard regarding this entry.. *laughs* if i dun, phew! hahahaha.. if i do, BRING IT ON!!
Monday, December 06, 2004
ahhh.. jalan raya.. hahah i know i know it's like 2 weeks ago.. but hey, when else do i have the time to post rite? hahaha lalala.. zat's me for those bloghoppers to take note.. hahaha!
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Saturday, December 04, 2004
This Day is Dedicated to the ONE that i LOVE...
~*~Noorhana Atiqah~*~
Happy Birthday My sweetie... i know you had a great time last night, with lots of surprises up my sleeves.. *laughs* and a surprise birthday cake and gifts from the rest of our friends... *smiles* dun worry, i didnt tell them about it.. hehe.. see, i kept my promise! i LOVE you... with all my heart.. *gives her a hug* *and a small kiss on her cheeks* once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY....
L.O.V.E.Y.O.U.... I ain't gonna lose your love tonight...
I just wanna make you feel alright...
L.O.V.E.Y.O.U.... I just hope you can stay the night...
Kiss you, Love you, Hold you tight...
~*~Noorhana Atiqah~*~
Happy Birthday My sweetie... i know you had a great time last night, with lots of surprises up my sleeves.. *laughs* and a surprise birthday cake and gifts from the rest of our friends... *smiles* dun worry, i didnt tell them about it.. hehe.. see, i kept my promise! i LOVE you... with all my heart.. *gives her a hug* *and a small kiss on her cheeks* once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY....
L.O.V.E.Y.O.U.... I ain't gonna lose your love tonight...
I just wanna make you feel alright...
L.O.V.E.Y.O.U.... I just hope you can stay the night...
Kiss you, Love you, Hold you tight...
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
hey hey~ i just came back from field camp last night. sooo tired out.. hahaha
on monday, we had to stay in-camp because they wanted us to have 7 hours of sleep before the field camp. well, i was kindda excited about it.. haha.. i mean, it's field camp with the people i can work with. it's not like BMTC where my section was being some racist idiots. yah, so, we did some last minute checks on our field packs and issued items to ensure that we have them. the whole weight, including SBO and helmet was more than half of my weight i think.. i couldnt even lift up the field pack from my sides.. haha..
on tuesday, we woke up at 445 and had our shower and stuff. we fall in at 520 in our number 4 to go for breakfast. our platoon sergeant(PS) started to make us move quickly instead of taking our time. *feels like BMT all over again* so, he made us run to the other side of the road on top of the hill and fall in to walk-in-steps towards the cookhouse.. haha... we draw our weapons after breakfast and proceeded withh all the necessary items needed for the weapon. we then took our field packs, SBO, and helmet down and arrange them nicely... hahaha.. we waited until first light broke and then we loaded up the 5-tonner, while others loaded up the LMTV, a maintenance vehicle and the commanders took the rovers. we moved out towards yishun for our training.. haha.. it took a long long time to reach there cos military vehicles in public can only be drove at 50km/h max... :P
it was our first deployment site. we moved slowly into the jungle. then we came to an area which we call our holding area.. once there, we unloaded the tonner and form an all round defense of the area. i got a stinky area where some dudes just peed.. urgh.. but i didnt sit at the pee la.. crazy eh? haha i was just nearby.. and it smelt of pee... haha.. after a long long wait, we loaded the tonner again and moved in to our deployment area... there, we did and all round defense again and waited... waited for minutes to pass... many many many minutes to pass.. i was fascinated with the mosquitos cos i tot there was only one circling around me... but when i moved my whole self, a freaking horde of mosquitos arose from my body... sheeeeesssshhhhh!!! and so, after many many fascinating moments with my new frens, my sect comm finally came to assign me a place to dig my shell-scrape.. aka my coffin.. it's the same size to bury a dead guy except that it's not as deep as a real coffin... ah.. and mine was in the middle of a field of long, tall grasses with thick hard roots.. hahahahahahaha... go figure...
before digging,i was made to help out in camouflaging the vehicles... which took till afternoon to complete... did i mention we reached there at8 plus....? hahahaha... after lunch, we continue to dig and do our security.. it was when our first contact occurs... Apple sector was attacked, and 2 guys were down.. they called in the rear area local protection team aka tiger force, to enfore the area. i lovethe drills cos the enemies are visible and they keep shooting at us.. so we were sent in to flank... in the end, we got shot by friendly and the enemy escapes... sheesh... hahaha... after that, we discuss abt it as one paltoon before breaking up to sections again.... to end the day, we had artillery drill to evacute from the place... and move on to our next deployment site... at night! so we repeated everything all over again.. except that .. we didnt have to dig at night.. haha.. tired seh digging the ground... so after stand down, we had a trip-flare lesson.. hahaha.. cool stuff seh.. after that, the management decided to let us rest for the night.. cos they said we did great in the morning.. so we did get the rest.. ahhh.. better than nothing seh.. we slept from 1045 to 4am... den, that same morning... before light, we headed off to our third deployment site... same thing again.. like yesterday... except that... on the second day, we had 3 contacts...
first contact was on my sector... i was doing sentry at the other end of the road... about 200m away from base camp... HQ used the comms to call all the tiger force from the sentries to report back to camp.. cos my sector only left 3 guys... i was the last to arrive there.. so i was enforced to Apple sector... the enenmy was finally run down by our sector... except that, they crossed Apple's line of fire... meaning, they could have been dead too if live rounds were used.... sheesh.. our OC, a Major, was definately unhappy with it... after the scolding the whole platoon got, OC called all the sect comm to report to him.. and from far, we saw that he gave them push ups! sheesh.. after we break to sections, as we're about to start our discussion, another sector was contacted... Chiku sector.. GAWD! they were in need of reinforcements.. and so, me, a tiger force, had to run back to HQ to wait for PS to send us to the frontline.. enemy contacts was from both angles of the sector.. so my side we shoot the one on the left.. and the other on the right... i located the enemy though the others cant see.. i mean.. wth seh.. he's crawling.. yes.. but the tall grasses was moving erratically.. obviously he's there seh... hahahaha... so i ordered the guys to shoot at that position.. haha. instead of waiting for the IC to make the decision.. sheesh.. we could all be dead if we're to wait for the IC to command... so after everything was done, we went back to regroup and talk about what went right.. and what went wrong... erm... and the OC wasnt pleased still ... though it was better than the last 2 contacts... hahaha...
so the break us up back to our sections... when we reached our side, we all decided to top up our water bottles... as i was topping it a gunshot rang at our sector.. DAMN IT! 3 freaking contacts continuously..... i was shagged la of cos... everyone was shagged too... but i tot.. ah what the heck.. actually i wasnt even feeling tired la... hahaha... kk .. den ah, my section IC and some of the guys ran forward to their defense position when the gun was being fired... i was like WTF!!! i shouted " GET DOWN!! GET DOWN!!!!" good thing was, everyone listened to me.. haha.. good! den i shouted again " LEAPORD CRAWL TO YOUR POSITIONS! GO GO GO!!!" everyone crawled to their positions and started firing at the general direction of enemy fire.... wuuhoo!! as we were waiting for our next command from the section IC, we got news that he was being shot... sheesh!!! of cos our 2 IC decided to call for reinforcements immediately... and so we got 4 tiger force to help us out... i got 2 in my team... i openly tell them "2 OF YOU.. FOLLOW MY ORDERS!!" they nodded as they heard that.. cool thing... at this point of time, i was still waiting for my 2IC to make the next move.. we were still being fired at.. damn.. he panic and blanked out.... and of cos, i shouted at the section.. "SECTION!! 11 OCLOCK!!! ENEMY LEFT OF TALL TREE!!!! WATCH AND FIRE!!!!"hahaha.. and i started to give all the commands everytime... the photographer took my photo as i was shooting.. hahah.. cool.. :P den the warrant officers were asking each other... "is farhan the IC or robin....?" hahahaha.... i gave another command that wasnt even taught.. i shouted "SECTION!!! HOLD THE LINE!!!"haha... den i was looking for the enemy again.. i shouted to the guy on my right if he can see them.. he said he cant.. i shouted at him to ask the guy to his right... yeah man!! not even taught by the commanders.. hahahaha.. i mean.. seriously, u have to take initiative to win a fire-fight... and then.. finally the 2IC regained his composure.. he shouted for everyone to crawl forward a little more while maintaining the line.. wahhahaha.. nice work 2IC!! and from there, we keep communicating to each other as he asked how many guys do i have with me.. i said i have 4... all still alive.. khekheke.. finally.. all the enemies were down... i waited for his command again.. he didnt gave any.. so i told the guy on the right to tell him the command... khekhekhe... den he gave a very solid move... "TEAM 2! ADVANCE AND CLEAR YOUR SECTOR!!" wuhoo!! we stood up with rifles at high alert position, meaning eye aiming at the front already, and moved forward in a line and stop a few metres from team 1.. den he commandes his team to move forward and link up with us... making a longer line again... khekhekhe.. we did that for several times before ensuring that the whole place is cleared... section ic declared the place is cleared and ordered an all round defense... he asked me to check on everyone's status.. even enemy's.... and he said, go and be the rear defense... get 2 guys to evacuate the casualties... and get out of the place.... so i told my guys the plan.. and they did it! hahaha.. we completed everything with only 1 man from the section down.. sheesh... that is already bad.. hahaha.. and guess what...? the OC commended on our performance.. especially on me taking over the section and completing the mission.. hahaha.. i just smiled as they talked about my wonderful performance.. hahaha.. oh well...
den at the end of the day, OC saw me and personally said "farhan, they way you took over the section was wonderful... great job" and i went sheepish smile "thank you sir" hahaha
so we ended the field camp with a 4km route march.. it's been a long time since we've had route marches.. so it felt very very tiring... we stopped near the seaside.. yeah.. that was the whole field camp story.. hahaha.. so so sooooo tiring....
khekhek.. and i brought along my hp for the field camp.. sayang didnt know.. haha.. so i waited the whole day for her to sms.. khekhekhe.. and she did!!! and of cos, she was surprised to receive my reply.. wahhahaa.. i sure do know how to make my sayang love me more.. wahahaha.. lalala.. and i love her too.... a lot a lot... and i ended this entry at 1252AM ... 03 dec..
on monday, we had to stay in-camp because they wanted us to have 7 hours of sleep before the field camp. well, i was kindda excited about it.. haha.. i mean, it's field camp with the people i can work with. it's not like BMTC where my section was being some racist idiots. yah, so, we did some last minute checks on our field packs and issued items to ensure that we have them. the whole weight, including SBO and helmet was more than half of my weight i think.. i couldnt even lift up the field pack from my sides.. haha..
on tuesday, we woke up at 445 and had our shower and stuff. we fall in at 520 in our number 4 to go for breakfast. our platoon sergeant(PS) started to make us move quickly instead of taking our time. *feels like BMT all over again* so, he made us run to the other side of the road on top of the hill and fall in to walk-in-steps towards the cookhouse.. haha... we draw our weapons after breakfast and proceeded withh all the necessary items needed for the weapon. we then took our field packs, SBO, and helmet down and arrange them nicely... hahaha.. we waited until first light broke and then we loaded up the 5-tonner, while others loaded up the LMTV, a maintenance vehicle and the commanders took the rovers. we moved out towards yishun for our training.. haha.. it took a long long time to reach there cos military vehicles in public can only be drove at 50km/h max... :P
it was our first deployment site. we moved slowly into the jungle. then we came to an area which we call our holding area.. once there, we unloaded the tonner and form an all round defense of the area. i got a stinky area where some dudes just peed.. urgh.. but i didnt sit at the pee la.. crazy eh? haha i was just nearby.. and it smelt of pee... haha.. after a long long wait, we loaded the tonner again and moved in to our deployment area... there, we did and all round defense again and waited... waited for minutes to pass... many many many minutes to pass.. i was fascinated with the mosquitos cos i tot there was only one circling around me... but when i moved my whole self, a freaking horde of mosquitos arose from my body... sheeeeesssshhhhh!!! and so, after many many fascinating moments with my new frens, my sect comm finally came to assign me a place to dig my shell-scrape.. aka my coffin.. it's the same size to bury a dead guy except that it's not as deep as a real coffin... ah.. and mine was in the middle of a field of long, tall grasses with thick hard roots.. hahahahahahaha... go figure...
before digging,i was made to help out in camouflaging the vehicles... which took till afternoon to complete... did i mention we reached there at8 plus....? hahahaha... after lunch, we continue to dig and do our security.. it was when our first contact occurs... Apple sector was attacked, and 2 guys were down.. they called in the rear area local protection team aka tiger force, to enfore the area. i lovethe drills cos the enemies are visible and they keep shooting at us.. so we were sent in to flank... in the end, we got shot by friendly and the enemy escapes... sheesh... hahaha... after that, we discuss abt it as one paltoon before breaking up to sections again.... to end the day, we had artillery drill to evacute from the place... and move on to our next deployment site... at night! so we repeated everything all over again.. except that .. we didnt have to dig at night.. haha.. tired seh digging the ground... so after stand down, we had a trip-flare lesson.. hahaha.. cool stuff seh.. after that, the management decided to let us rest for the night.. cos they said we did great in the morning.. so we did get the rest.. ahhh.. better than nothing seh.. we slept from 1045 to 4am... den, that same morning... before light, we headed off to our third deployment site... same thing again.. like yesterday... except that... on the second day, we had 3 contacts...
first contact was on my sector... i was doing sentry at the other end of the road... about 200m away from base camp... HQ used the comms to call all the tiger force from the sentries to report back to camp.. cos my sector only left 3 guys... i was the last to arrive there.. so i was enforced to Apple sector... the enenmy was finally run down by our sector... except that, they crossed Apple's line of fire... meaning, they could have been dead too if live rounds were used.... sheesh.. our OC, a Major, was definately unhappy with it... after the scolding the whole platoon got, OC called all the sect comm to report to him.. and from far, we saw that he gave them push ups! sheesh.. after we break to sections, as we're about to start our discussion, another sector was contacted... Chiku sector.. GAWD! they were in need of reinforcements.. and so, me, a tiger force, had to run back to HQ to wait for PS to send us to the frontline.. enemy contacts was from both angles of the sector.. so my side we shoot the one on the left.. and the other on the right... i located the enemy though the others cant see.. i mean.. wth seh.. he's crawling.. yes.. but the tall grasses was moving erratically.. obviously he's there seh... hahahaha... so i ordered the guys to shoot at that position.. haha. instead of waiting for the IC to make the decision.. sheesh.. we could all be dead if we're to wait for the IC to command... so after everything was done, we went back to regroup and talk about what went right.. and what went wrong... erm... and the OC wasnt pleased still ... though it was better than the last 2 contacts... hahaha...
so the break us up back to our sections... when we reached our side, we all decided to top up our water bottles... as i was topping it a gunshot rang at our sector.. DAMN IT! 3 freaking contacts continuously..... i was shagged la of cos... everyone was shagged too... but i tot.. ah what the heck.. actually i wasnt even feeling tired la... hahaha... kk .. den ah, my section IC and some of the guys ran forward to their defense position when the gun was being fired... i was like WTF!!! i shouted " GET DOWN!! GET DOWN!!!!" good thing was, everyone listened to me.. haha.. good! den i shouted again " LEAPORD CRAWL TO YOUR POSITIONS! GO GO GO!!!" everyone crawled to their positions and started firing at the general direction of enemy fire.... wuuhoo!! as we were waiting for our next command from the section IC, we got news that he was being shot... sheesh!!! of cos our 2 IC decided to call for reinforcements immediately... and so we got 4 tiger force to help us out... i got 2 in my team... i openly tell them "2 OF YOU.. FOLLOW MY ORDERS!!" they nodded as they heard that.. cool thing... at this point of time, i was still waiting for my 2IC to make the next move.. we were still being fired at.. damn.. he panic and blanked out.... and of cos, i shouted at the section.. "SECTION!! 11 OCLOCK!!! ENEMY LEFT OF TALL TREE!!!! WATCH AND FIRE!!!!"hahaha.. and i started to give all the commands everytime... the photographer took my photo as i was shooting.. hahah.. cool.. :P den the warrant officers were asking each other... "is farhan the IC or robin....?" hahahaha.... i gave another command that wasnt even taught.. i shouted "SECTION!!! HOLD THE LINE!!!"haha... den i was looking for the enemy again.. i shouted to the guy on my right if he can see them.. he said he cant.. i shouted at him to ask the guy to his right... yeah man!! not even taught by the commanders.. hahahaha.. i mean.. seriously, u have to take initiative to win a fire-fight... and then.. finally the 2IC regained his composure.. he shouted for everyone to crawl forward a little more while maintaining the line.. wahhahaha.. nice work 2IC!! and from there, we keep communicating to each other as he asked how many guys do i have with me.. i said i have 4... all still alive.. khekheke.. finally.. all the enemies were down... i waited for his command again.. he didnt gave any.. so i told the guy on the right to tell him the command... khekhekhe... den he gave a very solid move... "TEAM 2! ADVANCE AND CLEAR YOUR SECTOR!!" wuhoo!! we stood up with rifles at high alert position, meaning eye aiming at the front already, and moved forward in a line and stop a few metres from team 1.. den he commandes his team to move forward and link up with us... making a longer line again... khekhekhe.. we did that for several times before ensuring that the whole place is cleared... section ic declared the place is cleared and ordered an all round defense... he asked me to check on everyone's status.. even enemy's.... and he said, go and be the rear defense... get 2 guys to evacuate the casualties... and get out of the place.... so i told my guys the plan.. and they did it! hahaha.. we completed everything with only 1 man from the section down.. sheesh... that is already bad.. hahaha.. and guess what...? the OC commended on our performance.. especially on me taking over the section and completing the mission.. hahaha.. i just smiled as they talked about my wonderful performance.. hahaha.. oh well...
den at the end of the day, OC saw me and personally said "farhan, they way you took over the section was wonderful... great job" and i went sheepish smile "thank you sir" hahaha
so we ended the field camp with a 4km route march.. it's been a long time since we've had route marches.. so it felt very very tiring... we stopped near the seaside.. yeah.. that was the whole field camp story.. hahaha.. so so sooooo tiring....
khekhek.. and i brought along my hp for the field camp.. sayang didnt know.. haha.. so i waited the whole day for her to sms.. khekhekhe.. and she did!!! and of cos, she was surprised to receive my reply.. wahhahaa.. i sure do know how to make my sayang love me more.. wahahaha.. lalala.. and i love her too.... a lot a lot... and i ended this entry at 1252AM ... 03 dec..
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