this is my friend, hazir, opening the door for me.. ;) *nods over* thank you my fine lad.. here's a quarter..
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Friday, December 09, 2005
ahhaha.. this was me beside my new car.. it's the BMW convertible.. hahaha.. cool huh? :P
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005
tonight's very cold... i'm sitting down on my bed, typing this. :D
*looks at sayang's reply*
*smiles* i'll sleep in a while. i just thought that i'd like to put up this song for all you lovebirds out there. *beams* to me, there's no harm in loving the other with all your heart, even if it means there's a lot more to lose if things doesnt work out.
It still FEELS like the first night together,
Feels like the first kiss,
and it's getting BETTER baby.
No one can better this,
still holding on, you're still the ONE.
First time our eyes met,
same feeling I get,
only feels much STRONGER,
and I will love you longer,
you still turn the fire on.
So if you're feeling lonely don't,
you're the ONLY ONE I ever want.
I only want to make it good,
so if I love you a little more than I should.
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving u
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Please believe me for what I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like the best time together,
feels like the first touch,
still getting closer baby,
can't get close enough.
Still holding on you're still number ONE.
I REMEMBER the smell of your skin.
I REMEMBER everything.
I REMEMBER all your moves.
I REMEMBER YOU, yeah...
I REMEMBER the nights, you know I still do.
So if you're feeling lonely don't,
you're the only one I ever want.
I only want to make it good,
so if I love you a little more than I should.
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving u
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Please believe me for what I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you....
*beams* i hope you read it instead of thinking it's part of a song. It means more when it's read. :D though it sounds better with the music.. hehehehe... anyways.. if you have loved ones, be sure to treasure them 'cos you'll never know when you will get to see them again... *smiles*
going to sleep now... *turns over to sayang and gives her a hug* *whispers* good night my dear... i love you... *winks* sweet dreams as always... i can't stop loving you...
*looks at sayang's reply*
*smiles* i'll sleep in a while. i just thought that i'd like to put up this song for all you lovebirds out there. *beams* to me, there's no harm in loving the other with all your heart, even if it means there's a lot more to lose if things doesnt work out.
It still FEELS like the first night together,
Feels like the first kiss,
and it's getting BETTER baby.
No one can better this,
still holding on, you're still the ONE.
First time our eyes met,
same feeling I get,
only feels much STRONGER,
and I will love you longer,
you still turn the fire on.
So if you're feeling lonely don't,
you're the ONLY ONE I ever want.
I only want to make it good,
so if I love you a little more than I should.
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving u
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Please believe me for what I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like the best time together,
feels like the first touch,
still getting closer baby,
can't get close enough.
Still holding on you're still number ONE.
I REMEMBER the smell of your skin.
I REMEMBER everything.
I REMEMBER all your moves.
I REMEMBER YOU, yeah...
I REMEMBER the nights, you know I still do.
So if you're feeling lonely don't,
you're the only one I ever want.
I only want to make it good,
so if I love you a little more than I should.
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving u
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me I need you like I do
Please believe me for what I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you....
*beams* i hope you read it instead of thinking it's part of a song. It means more when it's read. :D though it sounds better with the music.. hehehehe... anyways.. if you have loved ones, be sure to treasure them 'cos you'll never know when you will get to see them again... *smiles*
going to sleep now... *turns over to sayang and gives her a hug* *whispers* good night my dear... i love you... *winks* sweet dreams as always... i can't stop loving you...
Monday, November 21, 2005
today, i went back to brunei. i had my most wonderful time again the past 12 days. in 12 days, i did the usual things that i do before. and in that same 12 days, i learnt new things. ahhaha. in my life, i've NEVER roller bladed before, and i managed to ICE SKATE in 1 day. *beams* i learnt how to play puzzle pirates and intimidate the captain! wahhahaha.. but i'm sad that within 12 days, many things happen to keep us occupied, and i had wished time moved slower.
earlier today, mum, farah, and hana darling sent me to the airport. hehe. i woke up at 0830 exactly. hmmm *taps chin* and darling was up earlier. haha. then, i told mum that my darling is coming over for breakfast and she got farah to clean the house. :D then i picked sayang from the bus stop cos it was raining, we got to the house, and then we went for breakfast at McDonalds'. Mum bought mee siam in the morning but i didn't think my stomach will make it to brunei.. ahaahha.. but i didn't tell mum that.. *winks* by the way, i haven't eaten mee siam for almost 7 months... and that sucks! heh.
so after breakfast, we took the taxi towards the airport. the driver was very very very quiet on the way.. ahaha.. that's cos everyone in the taxi was talking most of the journey.. :D then farah had an upsized meal at burger king while me and sayang entertained mum and farah with magic... hahaha... it's just 6 cards with numbers and we can read their mind the numbers that they chose. hehe.. oh, i almost forgot. i met staff azalani and his "wife",which he claimed, at the airport too. hahaha. apparently he was sending her off back to brunei on the same flight as yours truly. after burger king, we went window shopping there and farah bought some handphone chains... ahahha.. *shrugs* don't ask me why.. haha.. so we headed over to the departure gate, took some pictures and said my goodbyes... and sayang had to comment on the guy who's riding on the airport's mopping machine. haha.. she said, "imagine if a malay mat is riding on it, and then he wink wink at girls while on the machine... *laughs*" ooookie darling... hahaha...
inside the lounge, i met MR JARED OH!!!! ahahahha.. he was my physics teacher back in temasek secondary and he RECOGNISED ME!! ahaha.. cept that he forgot my name, which is normal.. haha.. cos i forget people's names too.. yeah.. so we talked for a while, and found out he's going over to brunei with temasekians for the foreign exchange programme! how cool is that la.. hahaha.. during my time, it was with the australians.. ahha.. and the chicks were huge.. so, no motivation... wahahhaha.. wah lau, brunei girls... aahhhh.. *looks at darling* *quickly changes topic* anyway, haha.. we boarded the plane. it was an airbus. there's three seats on each side and only one aisle. hehe.. narrow giler2 nyer... there's no personal tv for everyone and it's replaced with an overhead screen. ahahhaa.. it's this small screen where every 3 rows, there's one overhead. *laughs* another special feature of this airline is that they will pray first for a safe flight before every take off. it will be featured on the screen and the words for us to say the prayer. for muslims only of cos. as for me, i got the aisle seat. and i think the air stewardess was looking at me for quite some time before she decides that i'm probably not interested.. hahaha.. padan muka... and u all might be wondering why i say that right? haha.. cos she rubbed her butt on my shoulder for quite a while even after i pulled my arm away. and then, while serving customers their lunch, we was glancing over for quite some time.. ahhahaha... i knew that cos i was watching the overhead tv, and one heads to the right of the tv was her face. ah... it's not that she's not pretty or not attractive la.. haha.. but i'm just not interested. end of story. haha.. so on the plane, there's an old man sitting on my left. he's singaporean but he worked in brunei for 25 years already. he has 2 kids who are married, maybe he has more cos he just talked abt the 2.. ahahha.. he owned a business over here in brunei. selling computer appliances over at centrepoint, gadong. haha. i'll probably drop by someday to see him.. and get my computer stuffs!! i assumed he's very rich cos he travelled home every month. so that's 3 weeks working, 1 week back in singapore. i asked why he didnt bring his wife along and he said he dun have to cos he's always back every month.. hahaha.. oookie... guess he doesnt want the priviledges of marriage.. WAHHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAA... or maybe waiting longer would mean more tension for him.. WAHHAHAHAHAHHA... *whistles*
but i can't forget the way the airplane landed at Brunei International Airport. we were swaying left and right as the plane was descending. then it tilts left and right continuously as though the pilot cant control the rudder. then the wheels screeched as it touched the ground, the front of the plane "crashed" hard and bounced as the wheels starts its motion...at that moment, i tot we were gonna crash already seh... wah lau.. and after that, i'm in brunei soil all over again.. just waiting for time to pass by.. which would be less than 2 months now.. wahhahahaha...
oh, and my replacement's name is PTE HAFIZ!!!!! wth.. is there NO OTHER name in the world? ahhhahaha... so, till next time wonderful readers of mine... hahaha.. *winks*
oh, and all this is typed in MY NEW LAPTOP! wahhahaha.. :P
and sayang: nightmares are normal. and it do feel real. i've been researching on the possibility of being alive without moving ourselves. ie, matrix.. it's just the brain in action. and the possibility of dying in this matrix is very very possible... especially when u believe that the matrix is real... that's when u'll die in it... sounds familiar huh?
ahhaah.. okie bye!
earlier today, mum, farah, and hana darling sent me to the airport. hehe. i woke up at 0830 exactly. hmmm *taps chin* and darling was up earlier. haha. then, i told mum that my darling is coming over for breakfast and she got farah to clean the house. :D then i picked sayang from the bus stop cos it was raining, we got to the house, and then we went for breakfast at McDonalds'. Mum bought mee siam in the morning but i didn't think my stomach will make it to brunei.. ahaahha.. but i didn't tell mum that.. *winks* by the way, i haven't eaten mee siam for almost 7 months... and that sucks! heh.
so after breakfast, we took the taxi towards the airport. the driver was very very very quiet on the way.. ahaha.. that's cos everyone in the taxi was talking most of the journey.. :D then farah had an upsized meal at burger king while me and sayang entertained mum and farah with magic... hahaha... it's just 6 cards with numbers and we can read their mind the numbers that they chose. hehe.. oh, i almost forgot. i met staff azalani and his "wife",which he claimed, at the airport too. hahaha. apparently he was sending her off back to brunei on the same flight as yours truly. after burger king, we went window shopping there and farah bought some handphone chains... ahahha.. *shrugs* don't ask me why.. haha.. so we headed over to the departure gate, took some pictures and said my goodbyes... and sayang had to comment on the guy who's riding on the airport's mopping machine. haha.. she said, "imagine if a malay mat is riding on it, and then he wink wink at girls while on the machine... *laughs*" ooookie darling... hahaha...
inside the lounge, i met MR JARED OH!!!! ahahahha.. he was my physics teacher back in temasek secondary and he RECOGNISED ME!! ahaha.. cept that he forgot my name, which is normal.. haha.. cos i forget people's names too.. yeah.. so we talked for a while, and found out he's going over to brunei with temasekians for the foreign exchange programme! how cool is that la.. hahaha.. during my time, it was with the australians.. ahha.. and the chicks were huge.. so, no motivation... wahahhaha.. wah lau, brunei girls... aahhhh.. *looks at darling* *quickly changes topic* anyway, haha.. we boarded the plane. it was an airbus. there's three seats on each side and only one aisle. hehe.. narrow giler2 nyer... there's no personal tv for everyone and it's replaced with an overhead screen. ahahhaa.. it's this small screen where every 3 rows, there's one overhead. *laughs* another special feature of this airline is that they will pray first for a safe flight before every take off. it will be featured on the screen and the words for us to say the prayer. for muslims only of cos. as for me, i got the aisle seat. and i think the air stewardess was looking at me for quite some time before she decides that i'm probably not interested.. hahaha.. padan muka... and u all might be wondering why i say that right? haha.. cos she rubbed her butt on my shoulder for quite a while even after i pulled my arm away. and then, while serving customers their lunch, we was glancing over for quite some time.. ahhahaha... i knew that cos i was watching the overhead tv, and one heads to the right of the tv was her face. ah... it's not that she's not pretty or not attractive la.. haha.. but i'm just not interested. end of story. haha.. so on the plane, there's an old man sitting on my left. he's singaporean but he worked in brunei for 25 years already. he has 2 kids who are married, maybe he has more cos he just talked abt the 2.. ahahha.. he owned a business over here in brunei. selling computer appliances over at centrepoint, gadong. haha. i'll probably drop by someday to see him.. and get my computer stuffs!! i assumed he's very rich cos he travelled home every month. so that's 3 weeks working, 1 week back in singapore. i asked why he didnt bring his wife along and he said he dun have to cos he's always back every month.. hahaha.. oookie... guess he doesnt want the priviledges of marriage.. WAHHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAA... or maybe waiting longer would mean more tension for him.. WAHHAHAHAHAHHA... *whistles*
but i can't forget the way the airplane landed at Brunei International Airport. we were swaying left and right as the plane was descending. then it tilts left and right continuously as though the pilot cant control the rudder. then the wheels screeched as it touched the ground, the front of the plane "crashed" hard and bounced as the wheels starts its motion...at that moment, i tot we were gonna crash already seh... wah lau.. and after that, i'm in brunei soil all over again.. just waiting for time to pass by.. which would be less than 2 months now.. wahhahahaha...
oh, and my replacement's name is PTE HAFIZ!!!!! wth.. is there NO OTHER name in the world? ahhhahaha... so, till next time wonderful readers of mine... hahaha.. *winks*
oh, and all this is typed in MY NEW LAPTOP! wahhahaha.. :P
and sayang: nightmares are normal. and it do feel real. i've been researching on the possibility of being alive without moving ourselves. ie, matrix.. it's just the brain in action. and the possibility of dying in this matrix is very very possible... especially when u believe that the matrix is real... that's when u'll die in it... sounds familiar huh?
ahhaah.. okie bye!
Thursday, November 17, 2005
hallluuuuu....
i woke up late today.. ahaha. supposed to meet sayang at 1230 but i woke up at 1216. wah lau eh.. ahhaha.. den i was like, shit shit shit... and called her, saying that i'm late.. heah... that's cos we played yahoo! pool late at night.. ahhaha.. till 4 am u~ :P
so now, i'm waiting for my friend to pass me my games... laughs.. that i bought from brunei. hehehe.. and i'm passing him his umbrella and shoes.. khekhekhe...
okie, think i have to go now...
to sayang: Muacks... i love u.. sorry for today... very very short ... yeah.. :D
i woke up late today.. ahaha. supposed to meet sayang at 1230 but i woke up at 1216. wah lau eh.. ahhaha.. den i was like, shit shit shit... and called her, saying that i'm late.. heah... that's cos we played yahoo! pool late at night.. ahhaha.. till 4 am u~ :P
so now, i'm waiting for my friend to pass me my games... laughs.. that i bought from brunei. hehehe.. and i'm passing him his umbrella and shoes.. khekhekhe...
okie, think i have to go now...
to sayang: Muacks... i love u.. sorry for today... very very short ... yeah.. :D
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
updates:
1)holiday-ing in singapore!
2)spent wonderful times with darling
3)bought a new laptop! ahhaha
4)went for 2 hari raya visitings
ahhahaa... yupz! finally glad that i'm home. brunei's taken a lot out of me. and the thought of going back there for another 2 months is just torture. aiya. what to do. if i'm not there, i'm here in singapore, and that means 0430 waking up, 0515 walking to interchange. ahhahaha.. and lesser pay.. but at least there's freedom.
going back next week on monday. have yet to confirm the flight details and i'm thinking of going today. then at the same time, can go and convert my driving license.. hehe. have been delaying it for quite some time now... :D
wahahaha.. alright, till then...
1)holiday-ing in singapore!
2)spent wonderful times with darling
3)bought a new laptop! ahhaha
4)went for 2 hari raya visitings
ahhahaa... yupz! finally glad that i'm home. brunei's taken a lot out of me. and the thought of going back there for another 2 months is just torture. aiya. what to do. if i'm not there, i'm here in singapore, and that means 0430 waking up, 0515 walking to interchange. ahhahaha.. and lesser pay.. but at least there's freedom.
going back next week on monday. have yet to confirm the flight details and i'm thinking of going today. then at the same time, can go and convert my driving license.. hehe. have been delaying it for quite some time now... :D
wahahaha.. alright, till then...
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
hello...?
HEELLLLOOOO????
am i .. still... alllive...?
wahhahahahhahaha...
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it's freaking hot here during fasting month.. hahaha
wondered when it'll be less hot... shrugs..
well, it rained every evening.. till night.. hahaha.. den no rain again...
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didnt use the computer much
even if i do, it'll be during guard duty...
and will be chatting with the sweetie.. hahaha
hence, 3 months of emptiness in this blog.. hahaha
not to worry, it'll change when i'm back home.. yaay~
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i was playing grand theft auto : san andreas earlier in the afternoon..
and i managed to fit a helicopter inside a car garage!
wahhahaha.. it's a low level garage....
so i had to slightly lift the heli off the ground, tilt the heli forward so that it moves...
hahahaha.. and on top of that, i squeezed 3 more cars inside with the heli.. WAHHAHAHHA..
well, nothing better to do per.. hahahaha
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miss you darling.. khekhekhekhe
muacks...
HEELLLLOOOO????
am i .. still... alllive...?
wahhahahahhahaha...
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it's freaking hot here during fasting month.. hahaha
wondered when it'll be less hot... shrugs..
well, it rained every evening.. till night.. hahaha.. den no rain again...
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didnt use the computer much
even if i do, it'll be during guard duty...
and will be chatting with the sweetie.. hahaha
hence, 3 months of emptiness in this blog.. hahaha
not to worry, it'll change when i'm back home.. yaay~
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i was playing grand theft auto : san andreas earlier in the afternoon..
and i managed to fit a helicopter inside a car garage!
wahhahaha.. it's a low level garage....
so i had to slightly lift the heli off the ground, tilt the heli forward so that it moves...
hahahaha.. and on top of that, i squeezed 3 more cars inside with the heli.. WAHHAHAHHA..
well, nothing better to do per.. hahahaha
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miss you darling.. khekhekhekhe
muacks...
Friday, June 10, 2005
Bila kita dalam salam perpisahan
Namun aku tetap bersamamu
Ku rasa bagai satu sentuhan
Dalam mimpi ku terbayang wajahmu
Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari namun semakin rindu
Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu
Untukmu akan ku semaikan
Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi
Warisan wanita terakhir
Jiwa raga ku serah
Kau ingin milik segalanya
Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi
Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi
Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih
Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir
Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari namun semakin rindu
Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu
Untukmu akan ku semaikan
Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi
Warisan wanita terakhir
Jiwa raga ku serah
Kau ingin milik segalanya
Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi
Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi
Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih
Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir
Hati sucimu ingin ku miliki
Hanya satu yang ku pinta... Kasih...
Kau warisan wanita ynag terakhir
Kau warisan wanita... Yang terakhir...
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You'll always be the only one.. *hugs*
No matter what comes between us..
kaulah.. warisan wanita terakhir.. buatku...
Namun aku tetap bersamamu
Ku rasa bagai satu sentuhan
Dalam mimpi ku terbayang wajahmu
Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari namun semakin rindu
Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu
Untukmu akan ku semaikan
Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi
Warisan wanita terakhir
Jiwa raga ku serah
Kau ingin milik segalanya
Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi
Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi
Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih
Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir
Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari namun semakin rindu
Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu
Untukmu akan ku semaikan
Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi
Warisan wanita terakhir
Jiwa raga ku serah
Kau ingin milik segalanya
Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi
Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi
Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih
Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir
Hati sucimu ingin ku miliki
Hanya satu yang ku pinta... Kasih...
Kau warisan wanita ynag terakhir
Kau warisan wanita... Yang terakhir...
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You'll always be the only one.. *hugs*
No matter what comes between us..
kaulah.. warisan wanita terakhir.. buatku...
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
hey everyone.. i'm doing guard commander duty again tonight.. haha.. i'm actually covering for someone else since he has to go for the e-tour tmrw morning... yeah.. and as such, he cannot dismount early.. sooo, at first it kindda suck la cos overall i'm doing 5 duties this month.. actually.. 5 duties half a month.. haha.. and then, i'm activated when i'm on standby.. hahaha.. oh well, on the brighter note, i'll be able to talk to my sayang tonight! weee~~ oh .. she just came back from bangkok with her mum and aunts.. yepz~ *whispers to sayang* where's my bangkok girl? *chuckles*
brb...
oikie.. am back.. haha.. had to monitor the people that are throwing rubbish.. and ensure that each package has no SAF items in them.. hehehe.. and soo, i have to use MY hands to search the bag individually.. hahaha.. shrugs.. crappy.. and oh, i just heard that tmrw, another guard commander cannot do.. so i have to do again la~!! hahahaha cool!!! and that's liike... erm.. 6 guard duties half a month? hahahahaha.. steady la...
oh.. and sorry for the little updates.. *small smile* lazy la to blog from here.. hahaha.. cos firstly, time is a factor.. secondly, sometimes not enough comps ... hhahaha.. yeah..
sooo.. that's all i have...
oh.. and sayang called me using a global calling card.. hahaha.. aiya.. expensive.. anyone has a cheaper alternative? hahaha.. tell me ait? :P
love you hana...
brb...
oikie.. am back.. haha.. had to monitor the people that are throwing rubbish.. and ensure that each package has no SAF items in them.. hehehe.. and soo, i have to use MY hands to search the bag individually.. hahaha.. shrugs.. crappy.. and oh, i just heard that tmrw, another guard commander cannot do.. so i have to do again la~!! hahahaha cool!!! and that's liike... erm.. 6 guard duties half a month? hahahahaha.. steady la...
oh.. and sorry for the little updates.. *small smile* lazy la to blog from here.. hahaha.. cos firstly, time is a factor.. secondly, sometimes not enough comps ... hhahaha.. yeah..
sooo.. that's all i have...
oh.. and sayang called me using a global calling card.. hahaha.. aiya.. expensive.. anyone has a cheaper alternative? hahaha.. tell me ait? :P
love you hana...
Saturday, May 21, 2005
today is indeed very special. it comes once in a lifetime. *thinks* hmm, there are other things that comes once in a lifetime* anyways, today is THE day. today is..... my ONE YEAR anniversary!!!
*~*Happy One Year Anniversary*~*
indeed it's one of the happiest days of my life.. i mean, getting to spend your life with the ONE person that completes you in every aspect... *chuckles*
i love YOU noorhana, with all my heart.. i've given you my love, and so do you.. i can't imagine living without you.. it's especially hard surviving a day without getting an sms from you.. it's like, "i need to know if she is well" and stuffs like that.. *blushes* ...
forever and for always,
yours...
dude...
farhan suhada
p.s : i love you.. and when u get home, go and rest...
*~*Happy One Year Anniversary*~*
indeed it's one of the happiest days of my life.. i mean, getting to spend your life with the ONE person that completes you in every aspect... *chuckles*
i love YOU noorhana, with all my heart.. i've given you my love, and so do you.. i can't imagine living without you.. it's especially hard surviving a day without getting an sms from you.. it's like, "i need to know if she is well" and stuffs like that.. *blushes* ...
forever and for always,
yours...
dude...
farhan suhada
p.s : i love you.. and when u get home, go and rest...
Friday, May 13, 2005
Kasihku ingin ku menyatakan hasrat ikhlas di hati ini
Mungkinkah luahan dapat di abadi
Bagaimana harus nak ku buktikan
Tak terdaya hendak ku lafazkan
Hanyalah satu keikhlasan diri
Kau permaisuri
Jangan kau bersedih lagi
Hanya satu ku pinta... secebis janjimu
Lelapkanlah mata
Kau selalu di hatiku
Terbayang dalam firasat
Termakbulnya hasrat
Ku bersyukur pada yang esa
Hilanglah kesepian lama
Betapa sukarnya untuk memahami dirimu
Walaupum hatiku membara
Tiada apa dapat di lakukan
Sekiranya perasaanmu berduka
Kau permaisuri
Jangan kau bersedih lagi
Hanya satu ku pinta...secebis janjimu
Lelapkanlah mata
Kau selalu di hatiku
Terbayang dalam firasat
Termakbulnya hasrat
Ingin ku belai hatimu
Dan ku pegang erat jemarimu
Apa yang nyatakan... hanyalah ku rindu
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it's hard to talk if no one understands.
and by trying very hard and still not understanding, really hurts la.
sorry for what happened..
i had a wonderful day...
nite...
Mungkinkah luahan dapat di abadi
Bagaimana harus nak ku buktikan
Tak terdaya hendak ku lafazkan
Hanyalah satu keikhlasan diri
Kau permaisuri
Jangan kau bersedih lagi
Hanya satu ku pinta... secebis janjimu
Lelapkanlah mata
Kau selalu di hatiku
Terbayang dalam firasat
Termakbulnya hasrat
Ku bersyukur pada yang esa
Hilanglah kesepian lama
Betapa sukarnya untuk memahami dirimu
Walaupum hatiku membara
Tiada apa dapat di lakukan
Sekiranya perasaanmu berduka
Kau permaisuri
Jangan kau bersedih lagi
Hanya satu ku pinta...secebis janjimu
Lelapkanlah mata
Kau selalu di hatiku
Terbayang dalam firasat
Termakbulnya hasrat
Ingin ku belai hatimu
Dan ku pegang erat jemarimu
Apa yang nyatakan... hanyalah ku rindu
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it's hard to talk if no one understands.
and by trying very hard and still not understanding, really hurts la.
sorry for what happened..
i had a wonderful day...
nite...
Thursday, May 12, 2005
It's all about you baby
It's all about you
It's all about you
Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smileit's all about you
Then you whispered in my ear and told me too
That you made my life worthwhile
it's all about you
And I would answer all of your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you leave I need one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
it's all about you, yeah!
And I would answer all of your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you leave I need one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you make my life worthwhile
So I told you with a smile
It's all about you
It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you baby
~ It's All Abt You
It's all about you
It's all about you
Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smileit's all about you
Then you whispered in my ear and told me too
That you made my life worthwhile
it's all about you
And I would answer all of your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you leave I need one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
it's all about you, yeah!
And I would answer all of your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you leave I need one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you make my life worthwhile
So I told you with a smile
It's all about you
It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you baby
~ It's All Abt You
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
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In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Sunday, May 08, 2005
It's impressive that nowadays i get to blog almost everyday... And at the privacy of your own house at that.. hahaha.. as of today, i met sayang at JEC today for an evening movie. We watched "Kingdom Of Heaven". To every guy who thinks that LOTR's battle scenes are cool, wait till you watch this battle scene. It doesn't concentrate on just 3 idiots who can incredibly overcome most of the enemies by doing style killings and a little "competition". neope... it concentrates more on the strategy... the way things are planned out and executed at the very moment... the importance of battle flags to troops morale... the damage hundreds of balistas can do to the entire city.. haha.. i'd give the movie a 7/10 cos there are really certain parts of the movie where it doesnt even supposed to be there.. hahaha.. all this just reminds me of the game Rome: Total War... absolutely fantastic...
and so, after the movie, we just sat around at long john silver's for a taste of salsa fiesta. sayang was impressed that i came back with 3 chickens on one plate, and many many salsa cheese sauce.... *winks* i learnt from the best mah~ *laughs* yeah.. and when i requested from the counter for more salsa sauce, she went like, "you like it ah?" and i smiled and replied "YAH!!" hahaha.. den she decided to give me a FULL cup of the sauce.. hehehe.. for the same price.. *giggles* and sayang still can say "why never ask for free seh??" nyeehhh...
and by then, it was already 9 plus.. oh, and during our "dinner", i saw this couple fighting verbally... they actually came quietly to the seats behind us... then after the guy talked and talked and talked, he suddenly got irritated and angry and started to raise his voice at her.. she just kept quiet and listened to his nonsense ah... den afterwards, he just left her at the table like that... she's definitely embarrased already ah by then.. and since females has 120 degree angle view, i'm sure she can see that i was looking at the whole scene laaaaaa.... shortly after, the guy came back, and she slapped his hands hard and walked away... he chased her and pushed her hard on her back and she just ran... he chase on, raising his hand for another beating...
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and the construction boards covered my view... *laughs* it's where the old KFC used to be la... yeah.. i'm sure the guy did something to the girl cos the other patrons around the place turned to look at their direction.. *shrugs* very.. very.. bad... i wanted to go help the lady la... by going over to them and said "who the hell do u think you are hitting a girl like that?" ... and sayang stopped me when she knew i was going to beat the guy up if he retaliates... *shrugs* i'm sure other guys would do the same thing too if they're in my situation, ie beat the guy up if he wants to play punk... rite?? *hey, support me by leaving a tag saying you are supporting!" yah lah... den in the end, i just sit there, with sayang.. while the others around were looking at the whole thing... best part is, there was a security guard there.. and he acted as if he didn't see anything... haha.. he's dark, has a large belly, and he wore pants that is very, very small... sort of like, fitting, but doesnt cover his tummy.. so it's like, bulging over the pants la... *shudders* oh! oh! he got moustache too!!! hahaha !!! and no, i dun have any fascination over moustaches... might as well dun have security guard there if he cant keep the security of the place seh.. hahaha.. i can be security guard! *laughs*
and soon after, we left JEC and head over to McDonald's near her house.. haha.. had Milo Ice... the guy at the counter asked if i'd like regular or medium milo.. i was stunned cos i only knew there's one sized milo.. haha.. so i asked how much is medium and he said 2.50.. i'm like.. okie, give me medium.. hahaha.. den after, as i left the counter, he mumbled something.. and i went, heah? and he mumbled again... and i smiled.. hahahaha.. den sayang said that he said "thank you. please come again" or something like that.. hahaha.. aiya.. :P
yepz~ in the end, after sending her home, i left for the train at 1120... walked home at that... hahaha.. and then i saw bus 852 sailing past me.... rrriiittteeee... hahahahaha.. yeah.. :P
so that's all for today.. hehe.. aiya.. going back camp soon.. *sighs*... 15th march.. it's probably a night flight... am going to collect the tickets tmrw... yeah.. i'll inform everyone of the flight details here.. hahaha.. and if u decide to drop by and send me off, yaay~ hahahahaha...
nites everyone~~
To the wonderful lady in my life...
Aku tak mengerti
Apa yang ku rasa
Rindu yang tak pernah
Begitu hebatnya
Aku persembahkan hidupku untukmu
Telah kurelakan hatiku padamu
Aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak'kan pernah tahu~
i love you always... *hugs*
and so, after the movie, we just sat around at long john silver's for a taste of salsa fiesta. sayang was impressed that i came back with 3 chickens on one plate, and many many salsa cheese sauce.... *winks* i learnt from the best mah~ *laughs* yeah.. and when i requested from the counter for more salsa sauce, she went like, "you like it ah?" and i smiled and replied "YAH!!" hahaha.. den she decided to give me a FULL cup of the sauce.. hehehe.. for the same price.. *giggles* and sayang still can say "why never ask for free seh??" nyeehhh...
and by then, it was already 9 plus.. oh, and during our "dinner", i saw this couple fighting verbally... they actually came quietly to the seats behind us... then after the guy talked and talked and talked, he suddenly got irritated and angry and started to raise his voice at her.. she just kept quiet and listened to his nonsense ah... den afterwards, he just left her at the table like that... she's definitely embarrased already ah by then.. and since females has 120 degree angle view, i'm sure she can see that i was looking at the whole scene laaaaaa.... shortly after, the guy came back, and she slapped his hands hard and walked away... he chased her and pushed her hard on her back and she just ran... he chase on, raising his hand for another beating...
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and the construction boards covered my view... *laughs* it's where the old KFC used to be la... yeah.. i'm sure the guy did something to the girl cos the other patrons around the place turned to look at their direction.. *shrugs* very.. very.. bad... i wanted to go help the lady la... by going over to them and said "who the hell do u think you are hitting a girl like that?" ... and sayang stopped me when she knew i was going to beat the guy up if he retaliates... *shrugs* i'm sure other guys would do the same thing too if they're in my situation, ie beat the guy up if he wants to play punk... rite?? *hey, support me by leaving a tag saying you are supporting!" yah lah... den in the end, i just sit there, with sayang.. while the others around were looking at the whole thing... best part is, there was a security guard there.. and he acted as if he didn't see anything... haha.. he's dark, has a large belly, and he wore pants that is very, very small... sort of like, fitting, but doesnt cover his tummy.. so it's like, bulging over the pants la... *shudders* oh! oh! he got moustache too!!! hahaha !!! and no, i dun have any fascination over moustaches... might as well dun have security guard there if he cant keep the security of the place seh.. hahaha.. i can be security guard! *laughs*
and soon after, we left JEC and head over to McDonald's near her house.. haha.. had Milo Ice... the guy at the counter asked if i'd like regular or medium milo.. i was stunned cos i only knew there's one sized milo.. haha.. so i asked how much is medium and he said 2.50.. i'm like.. okie, give me medium.. hahaha.. den after, as i left the counter, he mumbled something.. and i went, heah? and he mumbled again... and i smiled.. hahahaha.. den sayang said that he said "thank you. please come again" or something like that.. hahaha.. aiya.. :P
yepz~ in the end, after sending her home, i left for the train at 1120... walked home at that... hahaha.. and then i saw bus 852 sailing past me.... rrriiittteeee... hahahahaha.. yeah.. :P
so that's all for today.. hehe.. aiya.. going back camp soon.. *sighs*... 15th march.. it's probably a night flight... am going to collect the tickets tmrw... yeah.. i'll inform everyone of the flight details here.. hahaha.. and if u decide to drop by and send me off, yaay~ hahahahaha...
nites everyone~~
To the wonderful lady in my life...
Aku tak mengerti
Apa yang ku rasa
Rindu yang tak pernah
Begitu hebatnya
Aku persembahkan hidupku untukmu
Telah kurelakan hatiku padamu
Aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak'kan pernah tahu~
i love you always... *hugs*
Friday, May 06, 2005
i miss this.. this is 2003's international dance SYF.. hahaha.. and i'm right in the middle there, lifting the lady up.. *laughs* i dun think ppl will believe that i'm a dancer.. *shrugs* hahaha *senses that sayang's having cows* and i think i like the make up.. :P made me look feminine yet mascular.. get it? hahaha nvm.. *smiles* JILLINE!!! I WANT THE VIDEO!!!!
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i miss those days.. where all we have to worry for is just exams.... *thinks* and girls.. haha.. introducing the League Of Extraordinary Losers.. *smiles*
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i dun understand... *scratch head*
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Thursday, May 05, 2005
this is meeeeeee *duh* .. looking at hana.. haha.. okie okie.. the camera is where hana is.. and i was looking... ah.. somewhere? hahaha
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In your arms I can still feel the way you
want me when you hold me
I can still hear the words you whispered
when you told me
I can stay right here forever in your arms
And there ain't no way...
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't no way...
and there ain't not how
I'll never see that day....
Chorus:
'Cause I'm keeping you
forever and for always
We will be together all of our day
Wanna wake up every
morning to your sweet face...always
Mmmm, baby
In your heart,
I can still hear a beat for every time you kiss me
And when we're apart,
I know how much you miss me
I can feel your love for me in your heart
And there ain't no way...
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't now way...
and there ain't no how
I'll never see that day....
Repeat Chorus
In your eyes,
I can still see
the look of the one who really loves me
The one who wouldn't put anything
else in the world above me
I can still see love for me in your eyes
And there ain't no way...
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't no way...
and there ain't no how
I'll never see that day....
Repeat Chorus (2x)
I'm keeping you forever and for always
I'm in your arms
-Shania Twain, Forever and For Always
*~*~*~*
*hugs*
*whispers*
love you very much...
want me when you hold me
I can still hear the words you whispered
when you told me
I can stay right here forever in your arms
And there ain't no way...
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't no way...
and there ain't not how
I'll never see that day....
Chorus:
'Cause I'm keeping you
forever and for always
We will be together all of our day
Wanna wake up every
morning to your sweet face...always
Mmmm, baby
In your heart,
I can still hear a beat for every time you kiss me
And when we're apart,
I know how much you miss me
I can feel your love for me in your heart
And there ain't no way...
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't now way...
and there ain't no how
I'll never see that day....
Repeat Chorus
In your eyes,
I can still see
the look of the one who really loves me
The one who wouldn't put anything
else in the world above me
I can still see love for me in your eyes
And there ain't no way...
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't no way...
and there ain't no how
I'll never see that day....
Repeat Chorus (2x)
I'm keeping you forever and for always
I'm in your arms
-Shania Twain, Forever and For Always
*~*~*~*
*hugs*
*whispers*
love you very much...
*clutchs his thighs* owww... that was one major wake up call, a cramp in the leg... *grumble grumble as he massages his thighs* and that's like two days straight already.. i tot you only get those cramps when it's cold...? i dun even have aircon.. *shrugs*
had a beautiful day yesterday with darrliiinnggg.. laughs.. yeah.. *smiles lovingly at her*
oh by the way, i would like to recommend a western food stall at tampines. it's near to tampines EAST community centre and facing the road exit towards simei. to make it easier still, there's this arch pillars right in front of the shop.. and if i'm not wrong, that was opened by Mr Mah Bow Tan... yepz.... it's easy to spot cos if you come by PIE and exit by Simei Road, You'll see it when u reach to the end of the road... if you're taking bus from tampines interchange, bus 3 will go there. the community centre will be on the left. if you decide to take bus 18, 28, 38 *there's more bus i reckon* you just have to alight after Ngee Ann Secondary, and walk towards the traffic light after the overhead bridge... It's easy to spot... it's called "All The Best Western Food" and it's definitely better than Tenderfresh Chickens.. *smiles* i had All The Best 2 days ago... and i had a similar dish from tenderfresh... and i give All The Best most of the credits.. hahaha.. the chicken is FREAKING soft that you wish it's much much bigger than it is.. *though it is already very large, unlike tenderfresh* yepz.. so there... go on! try ALL The Best Western Food. You won't regret it... *thumbs up and smile*
*chuckles* i love YOU!! yes YOU YOU YOU!!!
had a beautiful day yesterday with darrliiinnggg.. laughs.. yeah.. *smiles lovingly at her*
oh by the way, i would like to recommend a western food stall at tampines. it's near to tampines EAST community centre and facing the road exit towards simei. to make it easier still, there's this arch pillars right in front of the shop.. and if i'm not wrong, that was opened by Mr Mah Bow Tan... yepz.... it's easy to spot cos if you come by PIE and exit by Simei Road, You'll see it when u reach to the end of the road... if you're taking bus from tampines interchange, bus 3 will go there. the community centre will be on the left. if you decide to take bus 18, 28, 38 *there's more bus i reckon* you just have to alight after Ngee Ann Secondary, and walk towards the traffic light after the overhead bridge... It's easy to spot... it's called "All The Best Western Food" and it's definitely better than Tenderfresh Chickens.. *smiles* i had All The Best 2 days ago... and i had a similar dish from tenderfresh... and i give All The Best most of the credits.. hahaha.. the chicken is FREAKING soft that you wish it's much much bigger than it is.. *though it is already very large, unlike tenderfresh* yepz.. so there... go on! try ALL The Best Western Food. You won't regret it... *thumbs up and smile*
*chuckles* i love YOU!! yes YOU YOU YOU!!!
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
dearest noorhana....
I just felt like writing a letter to you. I cannot help myself but think how lucky I am to have you as MY significant other. I simply cannot visualise myself without you in my life. The past 11 months and 12 days has been the most wonderful moments of my life, better than getting into JC, better than getting selected for Unit Drill Instructor course, better than going to Brunei for support. There's just one word to describe what you've given me, tranquility. You bring peace in my life. You showed me that family IS everything 'cos all the while my family is only there when they needs me or when they can find time to be there for me. You showed me love more than I ever thought possible. You pick me up when i'm down, sprawled on the ground, trampled like dirt and kicked around. You were always there for me.
I am very thankful of the love that you have given me, and I will strive not to ask for more from you. I know it is not always beautiful or peaceful during our time together, but this love that we are cultivating is more precious than all the hurt and pain. I seek your forgiveness for hurting you with my directness sometimes. I should have known better.
And so my darling, right now, this very moment, I just want to go up to you, hold your hand lightly, look into your eyes, give you a smile and whispers "I love You" to you. Then I'll smile again and say, "Thank You Sayang".
*hugs*
I just felt like writing a letter to you. I cannot help myself but think how lucky I am to have you as MY significant other. I simply cannot visualise myself without you in my life. The past 11 months and 12 days has been the most wonderful moments of my life, better than getting into JC, better than getting selected for Unit Drill Instructor course, better than going to Brunei for support. There's just one word to describe what you've given me, tranquility. You bring peace in my life. You showed me that family IS everything 'cos all the while my family is only there when they needs me or when they can find time to be there for me. You showed me love more than I ever thought possible. You pick me up when i'm down, sprawled on the ground, trampled like dirt and kicked around. You were always there for me.
I am very thankful of the love that you have given me, and I will strive not to ask for more from you. I know it is not always beautiful or peaceful during our time together, but this love that we are cultivating is more precious than all the hurt and pain. I seek your forgiveness for hurting you with my directness sometimes. I should have known better.
And so my darling, right now, this very moment, I just want to go up to you, hold your hand lightly, look into your eyes, give you a smile and whispers "I love You" to you. Then I'll smile again and say, "Thank You Sayang".
*hugs*
Monday, May 02, 2005
have you ever thought that nothing can go wrong today but in the end it just went wrong anyway? that's Murphy's Law for you.. it always happens unexpectedly.. it's like.. you have to submit a major project and when it's your turn to present, you suddenly had a terrible urge to relieve your bowels.. great rite?
hahaha.. anyways, i was supposed to be online at 0230 am last last night.. but apparently, i overslept.. cos the alarm shuts off.. hahaha.. hence the entry below.. ;) anyways, when i just logged off to sleep, my dear darling went online.. hahaha.. all the way till 9 plus.. where she smsed.. and then i woke up at 10 plus.. and smsed her back.. by then, she was already asleep and i was online alone.. hahaha.. cut the story short... we decided to meet up at a later time la.. hahaha.. she decided on meeting at 1 or 130.. haha.. i said i couldnt reach there on time.. therefore, we settled at 2.. cos any later, we wouldnt be able to spend much time.. khekhekhe..
and so, i reached her mrt station at 2pm.. khekhe.. she wasnt there.. so i waited la.. *wonderful boyfriend mah!* haha.. and waited.. and waited.. and waited... hahaha.. cos she said her mum's gonna send her to the mrt station.. i had no idea why la.. cos it's just walking distance away.. so i waited.. and waited.. *like i said, wonderful boyfriend* and waited.. and she smsed "sighs.. sorry.. go to woodlands mrt" hahahaha... and so, i took the train and waited at woodlands.. and waited some more.. haha.. and waited again.. in the end, i went to find myself a seat and sleep.. WAHAHAHHAHA.... many2 minutes later, she came.. khekhehke..
see, murphy's law... and no, she didnt do it on purpose.. u see, the late one is ALWAYS me.. haha.. she'll always be early and waited at where we're supposed to meet.. so when she's late, it's cos something went wrong.. *murphy's law??* haha.. apparently, it was HAKIM's *the little brother* birthday today and the whole family suddenly decides to celebrate his birthday that same afternoon.. hahaha.. i shall not go into details why the decision was made.. but yah .. so she had to wait and wait cos need to transfer money laaaaa... :P and i waited also.. hahaha.. many2 minutes later...
and then, off we head to toa payoh where she had to collect her ZEN MICRO!!!!! wahahha.. man.. the accesories that comes with it is worth the money laaaa.. got earpiece, charger, stand, clip, earphone clip, manual.. hahaha.. and even the bag to keep the ZEN MICRO!!!! in it.. *laughs* after that, we had the deliciously appetising chicken rice... laughs.. i'm sure those in toa payoh would know abt this place.. khekhekhe.. we had chicken rice and chap chye.. :P *rubs tummy* yumz! hahaha.. eating done, we went to look for HAKIM's present! hahaha.. we decided on this archery set at kiddy palace.. waahhaha.. if i was younger, i'd love to have that for myself too.. khekhekhe.. *dances around* yaaahhhh...
so all the shopping done.. khekhekhe.. it was time to find a place to sit down and study.. *for her at least.. cos i'll be studying too... studying her.. LAUGHS* hahaha.. we went to starbucks at toa payoh.. wonderful environment to accompany sayang when she studies.. hehehe.. there, her primary school junior approached her and talked.. hahahaha.. duh, takkan laugh rite? :P yeah.. so i went in to order la.. *did i mention that junior works at starbucks?* haha.. and this junior of hers *sorry i dunno ur name* whispered something to the ocunter girl la... *hmmm* so i ordered .. erm.. GRANDE... RHUMBA GRANDE.. haha.. cos SAYANG specifically said DUN order VENTI cos it's HUGE.. haha.. *yes darling.. yes* haha.. so i asked for 2 grandes... and a few minutes later, i came out with VENTI... for GRANDE price.. -_-' ... and i dun wonder how my darling gets free and cheap stuffs la... hahahaha.. and her junior came over and said "takder air lagi besar ker?" laughs!!
oh well... so after many2 minutes of studying.. haha.. and crapping... and listening to some bad singing from an old chinese man on the huge speakers, i went off to send her home.. hahaha.. we waited for a bus to tampines at one of the bus stops near her house cos i had to go to my grandma's house.. hahaa.. and ehem.. flirted over ice cream.. *laughs* and i guess the apek gave us a weird look.. *shrugs* so anyways, that was a wonderful day spent with sayang.. khekhe...
on the way to my grandma's house, i met KHAIRUL ANWAR aka gay boy OETI.. hahaha.. :X he was going somewhere with his family.. and i can't deny that his sister looks hot.. hhaha.. okie2.. she's pretty and sweet looking laa.. *hey khai, that's a compliment tau.. haha..* he told me that the news of HAFIZ *yes kau apiz* giving handjob spread all over singapore.. shrugs.. apparently someone told someone else that you got caught giving handjobs to someone in brunei... *confused look* HE'S INNOCENT LOR!!! aiya.. now must find that guy who spread the rumour and kill him for you.. haha.. *dun worry isya.. it'll be taken care of* hahaha...
yepz.. and so i spend time at my grandma's house and went home afterwards.. laughs.. a whole day of adventure.. *smiles* and today will be a new adventure.. haha.. to the AIRPORT!! wootz! now i'm contemplating whether to bring my guitar or not... *taps chin* hmmm... hahaha.. okie la! got to renew my dad's season parking and meet sayang in a while.. hahhaha.. and oh, practice makes perfect.. doesnt matter what u do ah.. hahaha..!!!
ciao!
I LOVE YOU NOORHANA!!!!!!!!!! *hugs* *blows kisses to everyone*
have a great day~
hahaha.. anyways, i was supposed to be online at 0230 am last last night.. but apparently, i overslept.. cos the alarm shuts off.. hahaha.. hence the entry below.. ;) anyways, when i just logged off to sleep, my dear darling went online.. hahaha.. all the way till 9 plus.. where she smsed.. and then i woke up at 10 plus.. and smsed her back.. by then, she was already asleep and i was online alone.. hahaha.. cut the story short... we decided to meet up at a later time la.. hahaha.. she decided on meeting at 1 or 130.. haha.. i said i couldnt reach there on time.. therefore, we settled at 2.. cos any later, we wouldnt be able to spend much time.. khekhekhe..
and so, i reached her mrt station at 2pm.. khekhe.. she wasnt there.. so i waited la.. *wonderful boyfriend mah!* haha.. and waited.. and waited.. and waited... hahaha.. cos she said her mum's gonna send her to the mrt station.. i had no idea why la.. cos it's just walking distance away.. so i waited.. and waited.. *like i said, wonderful boyfriend* and waited.. and she smsed "sighs.. sorry.. go to woodlands mrt" hahahaha... and so, i took the train and waited at woodlands.. and waited some more.. haha.. and waited again.. in the end, i went to find myself a seat and sleep.. WAHAHAHHAHA.... many2 minutes later, she came.. khekhehke..
see, murphy's law... and no, she didnt do it on purpose.. u see, the late one is ALWAYS me.. haha.. she'll always be early and waited at where we're supposed to meet.. so when she's late, it's cos something went wrong.. *murphy's law??* haha.. apparently, it was HAKIM's *the little brother* birthday today and the whole family suddenly decides to celebrate his birthday that same afternoon.. hahaha.. i shall not go into details why the decision was made.. but yah .. so she had to wait and wait cos need to transfer money laaaaa... :P and i waited also.. hahaha.. many2 minutes later...
and then, off we head to toa payoh where she had to collect her ZEN MICRO!!!!! wahahha.. man.. the accesories that comes with it is worth the money laaaa.. got earpiece, charger, stand, clip, earphone clip, manual.. hahaha.. and even the bag to keep the ZEN MICRO!!!! in it.. *laughs* after that, we had the deliciously appetising chicken rice... laughs.. i'm sure those in toa payoh would know abt this place.. khekhekhe.. we had chicken rice and chap chye.. :P *rubs tummy* yumz! hahaha.. eating done, we went to look for HAKIM's present! hahaha.. we decided on this archery set at kiddy palace.. waahhaha.. if i was younger, i'd love to have that for myself too.. khekhekhe.. *dances around* yaaahhhh...
so all the shopping done.. khekhekhe.. it was time to find a place to sit down and study.. *for her at least.. cos i'll be studying too... studying her.. LAUGHS* hahaha.. we went to starbucks at toa payoh.. wonderful environment to accompany sayang when she studies.. hehehe.. there, her primary school junior approached her and talked.. hahahaha.. duh, takkan laugh rite? :P yeah.. so i went in to order la.. *did i mention that junior works at starbucks?* haha.. and this junior of hers *sorry i dunno ur name* whispered something to the ocunter girl la... *hmmm* so i ordered .. erm.. GRANDE... RHUMBA GRANDE.. haha.. cos SAYANG specifically said DUN order VENTI cos it's HUGE.. haha.. *yes darling.. yes* haha.. so i asked for 2 grandes... and a few minutes later, i came out with VENTI... for GRANDE price.. -_-' ... and i dun wonder how my darling gets free and cheap stuffs la... hahahaha.. and her junior came over and said "takder air lagi besar ker?" laughs!!
oh well... so after many2 minutes of studying.. haha.. and crapping... and listening to some bad singing from an old chinese man on the huge speakers, i went off to send her home.. hahaha.. we waited for a bus to tampines at one of the bus stops near her house cos i had to go to my grandma's house.. hahaa.. and ehem.. flirted over ice cream.. *laughs* and i guess the apek gave us a weird look.. *shrugs* so anyways, that was a wonderful day spent with sayang.. khekhe...
on the way to my grandma's house, i met KHAIRUL ANWAR aka gay boy OETI.. hahaha.. :X he was going somewhere with his family.. and i can't deny that his sister looks hot.. hhaha.. okie2.. she's pretty and sweet looking laa.. *hey khai, that's a compliment tau.. haha..* he told me that the news of HAFIZ *yes kau apiz* giving handjob spread all over singapore.. shrugs.. apparently someone told someone else that you got caught giving handjobs to someone in brunei... *confused look* HE'S INNOCENT LOR!!! aiya.. now must find that guy who spread the rumour and kill him for you.. haha.. *dun worry isya.. it'll be taken care of* hahaha...
yepz.. and so i spend time at my grandma's house and went home afterwards.. laughs.. a whole day of adventure.. *smiles* and today will be a new adventure.. haha.. to the AIRPORT!! wootz! now i'm contemplating whether to bring my guitar or not... *taps chin* hmmm... hahaha.. okie la! got to renew my dad's season parking and meet sayang in a while.. hahhaha.. and oh, practice makes perfect.. doesnt matter what u do ah.. hahaha..!!!
ciao!
I LOVE YOU NOORHANA!!!!!!!!!! *hugs* *blows kisses to everyone*
have a great day~
Sunday, May 01, 2005
hmm you must have been wondering when did i start liking you.. ? how come it didnt start earlier..? when did all the love start to blossom...? and why you and not other girls...? *chuckles*
i hope at the end of this, it becomes clearer? khekhe.. *hugs*
Sayang,
i remember....
I remember the day i first laid my eyes on you. You were standing around as you watch me and Haqeem introduce each other and talked about Syahrom. And then, Haqeem introduced you to me. That day, i told myself that she's probably Haqeem's girlfriend.
I remember in J1, where you were already hanging out with Muhammad. *laughs* And during his birthday, the malay students gathered to eat his cake (wondered who bought that) and I just sat facing away from the whole thing.
I remember seeing you walking around with Muhammad every other day. That day, i told myself that she's probably Muhammad's girlfriend.
I remember when we were doing Orientation, and you applied to be OGL. Hahaha. And i was horrified that of all the other 30 plus OGL, i had to end up with this girl from my class that i did not really talk to. *laughs* that was one classic moment of fate. khekhekhe.
I remember you asking me for ONE dance at the end of the whole orientation. My heart was racing when i touched your hands during the dance part. *chuckles* And then, i commented that your hands were sweaty.. ah.. best comment ever.. haha.. That day, I realised that I want to do Mass Dance with you forever. *sheepish smile*
I remember a card that you decorated with your artistic designs and you wrote a short "letter" at the back of it. *embarrassed smile* That day, I started to have feelings for you...
I remember when we were in class, you will sometimes sit facing sideways and looking at the back of the class. When i lift up my face and look at you, and give a questioning look, you just smiled and shakes your head. *chuckles* That day onwards, I told myself she will never have feelings for me. (confused i guess.. hahaha)
I remember GP seminar, where you were suddenly in the group because Muhammad decided to use your specialty in arts. *smiles* And i thought everything was back to normal with the two of you. (so i moved on i guess.. Laughs)
I remember the day I asked you if you would like to watch my sister performed at Suntec. I was exalted when you said yes and even asked for directions. *chuckles* and i was smiling to myself when i SAW you walking towards me.
I remember after the whole show, you met my brother and sister for the first time and they asked if you were my girlfriend. I was embarrassed and assured you that they always do that to every girl that I know. One thing that you didn't know was, everytime they say that, the girl WILL be my girlfriend. That night, i really really wished that you like me at least...
I remember you flirting with me the night before open house. *laughs* and that night, you asked to have a dance with me during open house. *smiles* It was like a dream come true. And that night, i smiled myself to sleep and wishing tomorrow will come soon.
i remember Open House mass dance. I couldn't wait for the dance to start and every other minute, I glanced around to look for you. I thought you decided not to come when mass dance was being played, but there you were, walking amongst the crowd looking for me too. *chuckles* and throughout the dance, i wondered if I really stand a chance to be your ONE...
I remember prom night where I looked everywhere to find you. *smiles* And i DID reserved a seat beside you. But Aida just came and told me to sit away from you... and I was surprised myself that I felt happier sitting beside you.. That night, when I look in your eyes, I realised that maybe you DO like me after all...
I remember all the flirtings during prom night, asking me to take pictures with you, grabbing my hand and smiling your widest. *chuckles* that night, I wished you will hold me for the rest of my life.
I remember feeling all alone and miserable afterwards and I didn't know why. I looked at my handphone and it hadn't beeped for more than a month. That day, i realised my life is not complete without getting any sms from you.
I remember going online with you one day and I said I have a new girlfriend. You said you had a new boyfriend too. My heart SANK. I didn't know why I felt intense jealousy. That day, you got to know my girlfriend was just a game character and yours was real.
I remember the night you suddenly asked me out for a classic mcdonald's dinner after tuition. I started to really think things through with starting my life with you. That night, i never can get you out of my mind.
I remember a few nights later, early in the morning of the 22nd, at 0023 hours, after a very satisfying msn conversation with you, you asked "what's the stitch between us?" That very same night, I poured my heart and soul to you..
And that's how my love builds up for you... even waaaayyy before US... *smiles*
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
and the love doesnt stop there. *smiles* it will continue to grow for you..
i'm sorry that i overslept.. i'll make it up to you later..
My love is like the river, everflowing, neverending...
*hugs* sweet dreams darling..
I LOVE YOU!
i hope at the end of this, it becomes clearer? khekhe.. *hugs*
Sayang,
i remember....
I remember the day i first laid my eyes on you. You were standing around as you watch me and Haqeem introduce each other and talked about Syahrom. And then, Haqeem introduced you to me. That day, i told myself that she's probably Haqeem's girlfriend.
I remember in J1, where you were already hanging out with Muhammad. *laughs* And during his birthday, the malay students gathered to eat his cake (wondered who bought that) and I just sat facing away from the whole thing.
I remember seeing you walking around with Muhammad every other day. That day, i told myself that she's probably Muhammad's girlfriend.
I remember when we were doing Orientation, and you applied to be OGL. Hahaha. And i was horrified that of all the other 30 plus OGL, i had to end up with this girl from my class that i did not really talk to. *laughs* that was one classic moment of fate. khekhekhe.
I remember you asking me for ONE dance at the end of the whole orientation. My heart was racing when i touched your hands during the dance part. *chuckles* And then, i commented that your hands were sweaty.. ah.. best comment ever.. haha.. That day, I realised that I want to do Mass Dance with you forever. *sheepish smile*
I remember a card that you decorated with your artistic designs and you wrote a short "letter" at the back of it. *embarrassed smile* That day, I started to have feelings for you...
I remember when we were in class, you will sometimes sit facing sideways and looking at the back of the class. When i lift up my face and look at you, and give a questioning look, you just smiled and shakes your head. *chuckles* That day onwards, I told myself she will never have feelings for me. (confused i guess.. hahaha)
I remember GP seminar, where you were suddenly in the group because Muhammad decided to use your specialty in arts. *smiles* And i thought everything was back to normal with the two of you. (so i moved on i guess.. Laughs)
I remember the day I asked you if you would like to watch my sister performed at Suntec. I was exalted when you said yes and even asked for directions. *chuckles* and i was smiling to myself when i SAW you walking towards me.
I remember after the whole show, you met my brother and sister for the first time and they asked if you were my girlfriend. I was embarrassed and assured you that they always do that to every girl that I know. One thing that you didn't know was, everytime they say that, the girl WILL be my girlfriend. That night, i really really wished that you like me at least...
I remember you flirting with me the night before open house. *laughs* and that night, you asked to have a dance with me during open house. *smiles* It was like a dream come true. And that night, i smiled myself to sleep and wishing tomorrow will come soon.
i remember Open House mass dance. I couldn't wait for the dance to start and every other minute, I glanced around to look for you. I thought you decided not to come when mass dance was being played, but there you were, walking amongst the crowd looking for me too. *chuckles* and throughout the dance, i wondered if I really stand a chance to be your ONE...
I remember prom night where I looked everywhere to find you. *smiles* And i DID reserved a seat beside you. But Aida just came and told me to sit away from you... and I was surprised myself that I felt happier sitting beside you.. That night, when I look in your eyes, I realised that maybe you DO like me after all...
I remember all the flirtings during prom night, asking me to take pictures with you, grabbing my hand and smiling your widest. *chuckles* that night, I wished you will hold me for the rest of my life.
I remember feeling all alone and miserable afterwards and I didn't know why. I looked at my handphone and it hadn't beeped for more than a month. That day, i realised my life is not complete without getting any sms from you.
I remember going online with you one day and I said I have a new girlfriend. You said you had a new boyfriend too. My heart SANK. I didn't know why I felt intense jealousy. That day, you got to know my girlfriend was just a game character and yours was real.
I remember the night you suddenly asked me out for a classic mcdonald's dinner after tuition. I started to really think things through with starting my life with you. That night, i never can get you out of my mind.
I remember a few nights later, early in the morning of the 22nd, at 0023 hours, after a very satisfying msn conversation with you, you asked "what's the stitch between us?" That very same night, I poured my heart and soul to you..
And that's how my love builds up for you... even waaaayyy before US... *smiles*
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
and the love doesnt stop there. *smiles* it will continue to grow for you..
i'm sorry that i overslept.. i'll make it up to you later..
My love is like the river, everflowing, neverending...
*hugs* sweet dreams darling..
I LOVE YOU!
Saturday, April 30, 2005
yesterday was SENTOSA OUTING day! haha.. yeah.. it's a whole bunch of us la *as can be seen in the pictures* we were supposed to meet at 10 initially.. then at 1030.. and den, me, sayang and hafiz the bro reached harbourfront at 1107... hahaha.. :X and that's because someone had to be in aardwolf doing global quest... when he knows he has to be there early.. hahaha...
so anyway, we just headed towards sentosa.. haha.. there's this bus at the interchange that has free shuttle service into the island.. island's island.. heh.. entry fee into the island is 3 dollars made payable at the visitor centre... then we took the yellow line or was it red..? hmm.. anyways, one of the bus service lines la.. and stopped at the first beach we saw.. hhaha.. and i think people were probably wondering why these kids in jeans and tshirts and shoes are going to the beach.. wahah..
yeah.. so we got an empty area.. and realised it was too hot.. *rolls eyes* and we spread the mat on the sheltered area nearby.. haha.. few hours later, it got hot.. and stayed hot till the end of the day... WAHAHA.. den was sticky and smelly and uncomfortable ah..
and AND.. i got a surprise of my life.. cos apparently, sayang BOUGHT me a GUITAR!! *faints* sheesh.. it's expensive lorrr.... aiyaa.. and she gave it to me yesterday.. together with the bag.. i'm just... speechless la.. it's... expensive.. la... and hafiz can still say it's $2k... thank you sayang... you shouldnt have laa..
uhhu... and she decides to drop me at my mrt station yesterday.. haha.. and i have this bright idea to like have her send me off at the mrt station after every outing we have.. heh.. *looks at YOU* you got HAFIZ to accompany YOU WHAT!! *laughs*
okie la.. till next time...
stand by me...
nobody knows....
the way it's gonna be....
*strum strum strum*
so anyway, we just headed towards sentosa.. haha.. there's this bus at the interchange that has free shuttle service into the island.. island's island.. heh.. entry fee into the island is 3 dollars made payable at the visitor centre... then we took the yellow line or was it red..? hmm.. anyways, one of the bus service lines la.. and stopped at the first beach we saw.. hhaha.. and i think people were probably wondering why these kids in jeans and tshirts and shoes are going to the beach.. wahah..
yeah.. so we got an empty area.. and realised it was too hot.. *rolls eyes* and we spread the mat on the sheltered area nearby.. haha.. few hours later, it got hot.. and stayed hot till the end of the day... WAHAHA.. den was sticky and smelly and uncomfortable ah..
and AND.. i got a surprise of my life.. cos apparently, sayang BOUGHT me a GUITAR!! *faints* sheesh.. it's expensive lorrr.... aiyaa.. and she gave it to me yesterday.. together with the bag.. i'm just... speechless la.. it's... expensive.. la... and hafiz can still say it's $2k... thank you sayang... you shouldnt have laa..
uhhu... and she decides to drop me at my mrt station yesterday.. haha.. and i have this bright idea to like have her send me off at the mrt station after every outing we have.. heh.. *looks at YOU* you got HAFIZ to accompany YOU WHAT!! *laughs*
okie la.. till next time...
stand by me...
nobody knows....
the way it's gonna be....
*strum strum strum*
Thursday, April 28, 2005
i spent the whole entire day yesterday with sayang. *smiles* i really really really missed her... missed her smile.. missed her laugh.. *melts* hahaha.. *sheepish smile* yeah..
so early yesterday morning, my flight was delayed for 30 mins due to some paperwork that SIA has to do... so instead of landing at 0730hrs, we landed around 0745.. and after walking across the entire departure gates, we reached the arrival hall where we waited to collect our luggage.. the whole place looks the same since last i visit, which was in year 2000... haha..
so anyway, i waited for the rest of the camp's permanent staffs to collect their own luggage.. everyone managed to find theirs except ahmad jabbar.. apparently, he used the new duffel bag in which every other troops were using... *laughs his head off* so in the end, we left him and shaffiq back at the airport cos i cant wait to see my gf... hahaha....
oh yah, by the way, i got stopped at the brunei custom check cos the officer said i was bringing in a kris.. *rolls eyes* it's a freaking souvenir from their own country.. it's not like nail clipper or whatever shit la.. thing is, it looks like a small sword.. yeah.. so he was making a fuss abt it.. and i just, oh.. i didnt know.. then he asked his friend who told him it was okie... and he still make a fuss abt it.. den he wanted to see my superior la.. aper la.. den he tried to convince his friend again.. hahaha.. his friend tell him it's alright.. cheh.. and he let me in.. i'm like, heah?! it's like, the whole plane is SAF personnel.. why is he making a fuss of it seh... hahaha.. if it's commercial, i understand la... maybe i JI ker.. aper ker... but the whole plane is our own ppl..
and so, back to singapore cutom check.. hahaha.. the police always have this accusing look on you.. and all they have to do is see how you respond to it.. heah.. i just quickly move out of the place... wahahha.. so, out of the arrival gate, i was "cooly" looking for my darling.. wahhaha.. and den.. and DEN!!! i saw her sitting nearby and having this big big huge smile on her face.. haha.. so i walked towards her la.. composing myself.. trying to look.. erm.. normal? hahaa.. den my friend called me from the other side.. WAHAHHAHA.. so i had to cooly *again* turn to answer to his questions.. wahahahha.. den i turn and MEET UP WITH HER!! wahaha.. *very very happy.. exalted... ecstatic* wahhaha
den i saw faiz there too.. haha.. faiz my brother.. khekhekhe.. and he definitely look very very dark.. darker than me.. hahaha.. must be cos of all the trainings they had... dragon boat katerkannnnn.... haha.. den we go haave breakfast at mcdonalds.. before taking a taxi ride back home.. hahaha..
den we went to watch a play at laselle SIA.. it's called, the jungle book... hahaha.. mowgli, balu, nobita, doraemon, giant.. wahaha.. anyway, the last 3 characters wasnt there.. ah.. erm.. nvm.. haha... *at this VERY moment, sayang is typing abt these too* chuckles.. yah.. so her friend casted in the play.. it was a great play... except the last part of the show where i didnt understand what the whole story is abt and i fell asleep.. wahahha.. i tried very hard not to let sayang see that i was sleeping... haha.. but she saw anyway.. :P
den after the show, we met up with her friend, theresa, and talked and talked la.. i as usual, keep quiet.. hahaha.. anyway, her friend said that someone told her that they spotted people sleeping during the show.. wahahahah!! and i just winked at darling.. :P
so after the play, we had a chill out session at long john silver's balls.. erm.. seats.. erm.. fish.. ah.. silver's restaurant.. hahahahaha.. silver's what goddamnit.. *eric cartman's voice* hahaha.. yeah.. we chilled for a while.. talked abt stuffs... and then it was time to send her for tuition... and so we did.. and i fetched her later that night.. wahahha.. semangat seh farhan...
so , whole day spent with sayang... *smiles* nice... and as of yesterday, 3 days havent sleep.. hahaha...
and... meeting her again today~!!! wahahha.. oh yah, she wrote abt events that i didnt write here.. wow.. weirdness.. cos we typed at the same time.. :P
i love you sayang!!
*hugs*
so early yesterday morning, my flight was delayed for 30 mins due to some paperwork that SIA has to do... so instead of landing at 0730hrs, we landed around 0745.. and after walking across the entire departure gates, we reached the arrival hall where we waited to collect our luggage.. the whole place looks the same since last i visit, which was in year 2000... haha..
so anyway, i waited for the rest of the camp's permanent staffs to collect their own luggage.. everyone managed to find theirs except ahmad jabbar.. apparently, he used the new duffel bag in which every other troops were using... *laughs his head off* so in the end, we left him and shaffiq back at the airport cos i cant wait to see my gf... hahaha....
oh yah, by the way, i got stopped at the brunei custom check cos the officer said i was bringing in a kris.. *rolls eyes* it's a freaking souvenir from their own country.. it's not like nail clipper or whatever shit la.. thing is, it looks like a small sword.. yeah.. so he was making a fuss abt it.. and i just, oh.. i didnt know.. then he asked his friend who told him it was okie... and he still make a fuss abt it.. den he wanted to see my superior la.. aper la.. den he tried to convince his friend again.. hahaha.. his friend tell him it's alright.. cheh.. and he let me in.. i'm like, heah?! it's like, the whole plane is SAF personnel.. why is he making a fuss of it seh... hahaha.. if it's commercial, i understand la... maybe i JI ker.. aper ker... but the whole plane is our own ppl..
and so, back to singapore cutom check.. hahaha.. the police always have this accusing look on you.. and all they have to do is see how you respond to it.. heah.. i just quickly move out of the place... wahahha.. so, out of the arrival gate, i was "cooly" looking for my darling.. wahhaha.. and den.. and DEN!!! i saw her sitting nearby and having this big big huge smile on her face.. haha.. so i walked towards her la.. composing myself.. trying to look.. erm.. normal? hahaa.. den my friend called me from the other side.. WAHAHHAHA.. so i had to cooly *again* turn to answer to his questions.. wahahahha.. den i turn and MEET UP WITH HER!! wahaha.. *very very happy.. exalted... ecstatic* wahhaha
den i saw faiz there too.. haha.. faiz my brother.. khekhekhe.. and he definitely look very very dark.. darker than me.. hahaha.. must be cos of all the trainings they had... dragon boat katerkannnnn.... haha.. den we go haave breakfast at mcdonalds.. before taking a taxi ride back home.. hahaha..
den we went to watch a play at laselle SIA.. it's called, the jungle book... hahaha.. mowgli, balu, nobita, doraemon, giant.. wahaha.. anyway, the last 3 characters wasnt there.. ah.. erm.. nvm.. haha... *at this VERY moment, sayang is typing abt these too* chuckles.. yah.. so her friend casted in the play.. it was a great play... except the last part of the show where i didnt understand what the whole story is abt and i fell asleep.. wahahha.. i tried very hard not to let sayang see that i was sleeping... haha.. but she saw anyway.. :P
den after the show, we met up with her friend, theresa, and talked and talked la.. i as usual, keep quiet.. hahaha.. anyway, her friend said that someone told her that they spotted people sleeping during the show.. wahahahah!! and i just winked at darling.. :P
so after the play, we had a chill out session at long john silver's balls.. erm.. seats.. erm.. fish.. ah.. silver's restaurant.. hahahahaha.. silver's what goddamnit.. *eric cartman's voice* hahaha.. yeah.. we chilled for a while.. talked abt stuffs... and then it was time to send her for tuition... and so we did.. and i fetched her later that night.. wahahha.. semangat seh farhan...
so , whole day spent with sayang... *smiles* nice... and as of yesterday, 3 days havent sleep.. hahaha...
and... meeting her again today~!!! wahahha.. oh yah, she wrote abt events that i didnt write here.. wow.. weirdness.. cos we typed at the same time.. :P
i love you sayang!!
*hugs*
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Thursday, April 14, 2005
*hugs her* and this is for my dearest.. *smiles*
I see forever when I look in your eyes
You're all I ever wanted, I always want you to be mine
Let's make a promise 'till the end of time
We'll always be together, and our love will never die
So here we are face to face and heart to heart
I want you to know we will never be apart
Now I believe that wishes can come true
'Cause I see my whole world
I see only you
Chorus:
When I look into your eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes
I've looked for you all of my life
Now that I've found you, we will never say goodbye
I can't stop this feeling and there's nothing I can do
'Cause I see everything, when I look at you
Chorus
When I look into your eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
We will always be together, and our love will never die
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes
When I look into your eyes
************************
take care on the way home... i love you..
I see forever when I look in your eyes
You're all I ever wanted, I always want you to be mine
Let's make a promise 'till the end of time
We'll always be together, and our love will never die
So here we are face to face and heart to heart
I want you to know we will never be apart
Now I believe that wishes can come true
'Cause I see my whole world
I see only you
Chorus:
When I look into your eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes
I've looked for you all of my life
Now that I've found you, we will never say goodbye
I can't stop this feeling and there's nothing I can do
'Cause I see everything, when I look at you
Chorus
When I look into your eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
We will always be together, and our love will never die
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes
When I look into your eyes
************************
take care on the way home... i love you..
Don't Look Back In Anger
Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd never been
But all the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away
So I start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I have went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
And so Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a rock 'n' roll band
Who'll throw it all away
Gonna I start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I have went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
Cos you ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
And so Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say
So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say
So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
I heard you said
At least not today
Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd never been
But all the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away
So I start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I have went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
And so Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a rock 'n' roll band
Who'll throw it all away
Gonna I start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I have went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
Cos you ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
And so Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say
So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say
So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
I heard you said
At least not today
let's see.. hmm.. i havent been online for a quite some time and i noticed that yahoo! has a new layout... -_-' and that's coming from someone who is always online every other minute everyday.. hahaha.. it's really a new thing here.. i mean, straight up, there's really nothing to do here... all you can do is play sports, watch dvd, train physically by running and jogging every day and night, or buy toys and play... hahaha.. recently what people has been buying is the radio controlled petrol miniature cars... in a way it's fun cos probably we're born to watch things move round and round and round and dont get bored.. hahaha.. like formula 1 or even soccer, where all your shoutings and anger and whatever shit will not even affect the game... heh.. so i'm sort of pressured to get one for myself la... which will cost around 350 brunei ringgit at least.. hahaha.. it's cool la.. but long term.. i guess it'll need lots of maintenance.. hahaha...
the pay's good here... i'm like earning 1000 plus per month.. last month i got 1400 allowance.. hahaha.. and on top of that, i have 400 more in brunei.. so that's a total of 1800 for that month.. this month a little lower.. i got 1500 total.. yeah.. probably next month will go up again cos of backpay.. let's just say 1500 per month.. 3 months, i'll have like 4500 alrrreeaaadddyyy.. hahahaa.. *wriggles his eyebrows as he rubs his hands wistfully* *thinks* hmm.. den can buy laptop, can buy digital camera, buy hard disk, ahahaha.. yummyyy....
lalala.. so u see, at least, by getting a laptop or digital camera, it's worth in the long run... *not that i'm running now* hahahaha..
and my dearest sweetheart can't be online tonight cos she's out with her mum.. have fun~
and sooooo i'll have to spend another long long night alone here.. haha.. hmm i'm starting to think that since i've started to do guard commander duty, i didnt get to talk to sweetie as much as before.. *shrugs* probably it's just duty.. or probably it's just the wrong dates... but anyways, it's already more than 3 weeks since i've had a long long chat with her.. *shrugs* doesnt matter la... if she's online then good lor.. if not, then i'll just log off and save the credit for use at other times..
and so my man ronny.. it's been a while .. no.. it's been waaayyy long since we;ve chatted.. hahaha.. sorry la.. most of the time you messaged me when i'm abt to go for duty.. hahaha.. in the end, we didnt get to chat.. so yeah... maybe when i'm back in singapore yah? hahahaha
oh oh..... i'll be back sometime this month.. wahhaha.. soon soon.... *laughs*
the pay's good here... i'm like earning 1000 plus per month.. last month i got 1400 allowance.. hahaha.. and on top of that, i have 400 more in brunei.. so that's a total of 1800 for that month.. this month a little lower.. i got 1500 total.. yeah.. probably next month will go up again cos of backpay.. let's just say 1500 per month.. 3 months, i'll have like 4500 alrrreeaaadddyyy.. hahahaa.. *wriggles his eyebrows as he rubs his hands wistfully* *thinks* hmm.. den can buy laptop, can buy digital camera, buy hard disk, ahahaha.. yummyyy....
lalala.. so u see, at least, by getting a laptop or digital camera, it's worth in the long run... *not that i'm running now* hahahaha..
and my dearest sweetheart can't be online tonight cos she's out with her mum.. have fun~
and sooooo i'll have to spend another long long night alone here.. haha.. hmm i'm starting to think that since i've started to do guard commander duty, i didnt get to talk to sweetie as much as before.. *shrugs* probably it's just duty.. or probably it's just the wrong dates... but anyways, it's already more than 3 weeks since i've had a long long chat with her.. *shrugs* doesnt matter la... if she's online then good lor.. if not, then i'll just log off and save the credit for use at other times..
and so my man ronny.. it's been a while .. no.. it's been waaayyy long since we;ve chatted.. hahaha.. sorry la.. most of the time you messaged me when i'm abt to go for duty.. hahaha.. in the end, we didnt get to chat.. so yeah... maybe when i'm back in singapore yah? hahahaha
oh oh..... i'll be back sometime this month.. wahhaha.. soon soon.... *laughs*
Monday, March 28, 2005
i'm online alone tonight.. like, there's really no one online.. not even my brothers, my sec sch friends, my SC mates and even my darling.. no, dun get me wrong here.. i told her to get extra sleep tonight, that's all.. and i just hope that she really can get her sleep.. now, i dunno if i should sms her or just keep quiet.. thing is, i dun wanna wake her up in case she DID managed to get sleep..
normally, when i'm on guard duty (like i am now), we'll always be online the entire night cos that's when i usually get to use the computer uninterrupted... sort of like, erm, revenge for not getting to go online everyday.. *small laugh* sighs.. oh well...
i'm feeling very sick today.. it probably got worse as the day passed... i remembered waking up feeling all cold and shivering.. den i did my prayers.. and i dun feel like sleeping.. haha.. so i went for a morning jog/run for a while before i go shower and have breakfast... (wahahah.. yeah) i guess my workload for the past few days has been negligible.. and sometimes, it gets a little too boring.. hey what do you expect from here seh.. everyday see the same thing.. haha.. i mean, even if we DO have our OWN collection of dvds, it'll probably last for a few days like these... hahaha..
so, my body started to feel feverish till guard duty.. and now, my nose's stuck and runny at the same time, you know the kind where it's blocked since you cant pull it in and then it starts dripping out of your nose uncontrollably.. eww... lucky i brought along a piece of cloth.. haha.. to blow my nose off...*blows nose at this instance* *looks at hp* sighs...
oh well, i guess i'll just let her sleep... and not sms.. yeah..
*unsent sms*
*sits gently beside her bed, watching her sleeping peacefully* *slowly pulls her blanket over her, brushing her hair gently away from her face and kisses her forehead* *whispers in her ears* sweet dreams sayang.. may it last.. oh, tell THEM to find me so that you can sleep.. *smiles* i love you.. nite...
good night everyone...
good night my love...
normally, when i'm on guard duty (like i am now), we'll always be online the entire night cos that's when i usually get to use the computer uninterrupted... sort of like, erm, revenge for not getting to go online everyday.. *small laugh* sighs.. oh well...
i'm feeling very sick today.. it probably got worse as the day passed... i remembered waking up feeling all cold and shivering.. den i did my prayers.. and i dun feel like sleeping.. haha.. so i went for a morning jog/run for a while before i go shower and have breakfast... (wahahah.. yeah) i guess my workload for the past few days has been negligible.. and sometimes, it gets a little too boring.. hey what do you expect from here seh.. everyday see the same thing.. haha.. i mean, even if we DO have our OWN collection of dvds, it'll probably last for a few days like these... hahaha..
so, my body started to feel feverish till guard duty.. and now, my nose's stuck and runny at the same time, you know the kind where it's blocked since you cant pull it in and then it starts dripping out of your nose uncontrollably.. eww... lucky i brought along a piece of cloth.. haha.. to blow my nose off...*blows nose at this instance* *looks at hp* sighs...
oh well, i guess i'll just let her sleep... and not sms.. yeah..
*unsent sms*
*sits gently beside her bed, watching her sleeping peacefully* *slowly pulls her blanket over her, brushing her hair gently away from her face and kisses her forehead* *whispers in her ears* sweet dreams sayang.. may it last.. oh, tell THEM to find me so that you can sleep.. *smiles* i love you.. nite...
good night everyone...
good night my love...
Saturday, March 26, 2005
*faints*
guard duty here is.. *shrugs* wonderful?
hahaha..
to those of you who hate guard duty in singapore, dun bother coming here.. haha..
firstly, there's like5 guard duty per month.. minimum..
then sentry's 3 hours.. hahaha... and u get visits from bugs like grasshoppers, stink bugs, scorpion looking cockroach, mosquitoes and those related by blood or species.. and mind you, they dun come in small numbers... they come in hordes.. meaning the whole place is swarmed by these bugs.. hahaha..
so i was just out of the warzone.. and now talking to sayang.. who's having toothache.. haha..
april's coming!!! wahhahaha...
guard duty here is.. *shrugs* wonderful?
hahaha..
to those of you who hate guard duty in singapore, dun bother coming here.. haha..
firstly, there's like5 guard duty per month.. minimum..
then sentry's 3 hours.. hahaha... and u get visits from bugs like grasshoppers, stink bugs, scorpion looking cockroach, mosquitoes and those related by blood or species.. and mind you, they dun come in small numbers... they come in hordes.. meaning the whole place is swarmed by these bugs.. hahaha..
so i was just out of the warzone.. and now talking to sayang.. who's having toothache.. haha..
april's coming!!! wahhahaha...
Monday, March 21, 2005
For the girl I've loved for a long long time...
Just want to wish you..
Happy 10th Month Anniversary~!!
10 months..
wow..
life will never be the same without you..
without your love...
without knowing that there's someone out there who really loves you for who you are...
your wonderful side that only she knows...
your nonsense side that makes her sad..
yet she's still there to let you know that she still loves you...
where else can i find someone so wonderful as Noorhana Atiqah?
loving, trusting, caring, understanding, and expensive sometimes.. *laughs*
in a sense that i spend a lot on sms and calls cos of her.. haha.. *winks*
and since it'll be 10 months in a few hours time, i hope you'll see this when u get home from school...
i miss you...
see you later sayang!
Forever & always...
Farhan...
Just want to wish you..
Happy 10th Month Anniversary~!!
10 months..
wow..
life will never be the same without you..
without your love...
without knowing that there's someone out there who really loves you for who you are...
your wonderful side that only she knows...
your nonsense side that makes her sad..
yet she's still there to let you know that she still loves you...
where else can i find someone so wonderful as Noorhana Atiqah?
loving, trusting, caring, understanding, and expensive sometimes.. *laughs*
in a sense that i spend a lot on sms and calls cos of her.. haha.. *winks*
and since it'll be 10 months in a few hours time, i hope you'll see this when u get home from school...
i miss you...
see you later sayang!
Forever & always...
Farhan...
Friday, March 18, 2005
i was a fireman today.. hahaha
long story.. cut it short, i'm one of the guard personnel today and so i have to fight fire.. hahaha.. i just had maggi in the morning when the alarm sounded.. heh.. and i ran, with my stomach full to report for duty.. hahaha.. it was great.. haha.. i'll update later i hope..
long story.. cut it short, i'm one of the guard personnel today and so i have to fight fire.. hahaha.. i just had maggi in the morning when the alarm sounded.. heh.. and i ran, with my stomach full to report for duty.. hahaha.. it was great.. haha.. i'll update later i hope..
Saturday, February 26, 2005
i bought lots of dvds here.. hahaha.. and guess what? they costs 3 bucks for the dvd 5 and 8 bucks for dvd 9... but if u buy 3 dvd 9, it'll cost 10 bucks..and 5 dvd 5 will cost 10 bucks too...
hahaha.. there's also the 2 in one and 3 in one dvds... and buying 4 and 3 of each will cost 10 bucks.. wahha.. anyway, am not makiing sense..
sooooo... that was my second day out of camp to bandar (bandar seri begawan) hahaha.. and i learnt how to take the bus around the town.. hahaha.. just a one day outing.. haha.. went to this place called Gadong.. where they had *stretches out his hand as he says* The Mall.... hahaha.. yeah.. ah.. *doesnt know what else to say*
oh well.. i dun want to think abt things right now... just spoiling the mood... i'll try to update on some stuffs... some other time...*smiles*
hahaha.. there's also the 2 in one and 3 in one dvds... and buying 4 and 3 of each will cost 10 bucks.. wahha.. anyway, am not makiing sense..
sooooo... that was my second day out of camp to bandar (bandar seri begawan) hahaha.. and i learnt how to take the bus around the town.. hahaha.. just a one day outing.. haha.. went to this place called Gadong.. where they had *stretches out his hand as he says* The Mall.... hahaha.. yeah.. ah.. *doesnt know what else to say*
oh well.. i dun want to think abt things right now... just spoiling the mood... i'll try to update on some stuffs... some other time...*smiles*
Friday, February 18, 2005
hey...
just another update...
i passed IPPT!! wahhaha.. meaning i can come back after 3 months... which probably is in april.. hahaha... yeah...
everything's great here... everyone's alright...
am going out of camp to bandar tmrw... sooo.. hahaha.. s hopping!!! haha..
and i miss everyone in singapore... ibu, ayah, faiz, fadhilah, farah.. hahaha... sighs..
i miss compouter... wahha.. i miss my games...
and i miss hana too.. :P
oh well.. life goes on! i'm applying for license here in may... wahhahahaa!!! lalala...
just another update...
i passed IPPT!! wahhaha.. meaning i can come back after 3 months... which probably is in april.. hahaha... yeah...
everything's great here... everyone's alright...
am going out of camp to bandar tmrw... sooo.. hahaha.. s hopping!!! haha..
and i miss everyone in singapore... ibu, ayah, faiz, fadhilah, farah.. hahaha... sighs..
i miss compouter... wahha.. i miss my games...
and i miss hana too.. :P
oh well.. life goes on! i'm applying for license here in may... wahhahahaa!!! lalala...
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Saturday, January 22, 2005
haha.. i guess this blog will be very.. very.. slow in updating... i'm sorry...
i need to pay for internet access here.. hahaha...
anyway, i'm fine here... with aircon bunks and water heaters... hahaha.. and all rooms have own tvs and radios.. some have xbox and playstation 2.. hahaha...
and as of now, i dunno how much my bill will be.. hehe.. it's a lot i guess.. i dunno.. but i'm sure my allowance can pay them off.. hahaha...
hope everyone's doing great.. i'm still alive here.. hahaha...
see ya around~
i need to pay for internet access here.. hahaha...
anyway, i'm fine here... with aircon bunks and water heaters... hahaha.. and all rooms have own tvs and radios.. some have xbox and playstation 2.. hahaha...
and as of now, i dunno how much my bill will be.. hehe.. it's a lot i guess.. i dunno.. but i'm sure my allowance can pay them off.. hahaha...
hope everyone's doing great.. i'm still alive here.. hahaha...
see ya around~
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
so here i am in brunei.. temburong..
listening to the sounds of the crickets...
thinking of the loved ones....
thinking of sayang....
got not much time to blog.. hahaha... well u see, i'm on prepaid card here.. and i have one hour to do everything before someone else gets their turn..
interesting trip i'd say...
hahaha... was at changi airport around 1200.. which was 30 mins before the gates open for luggage check in. only my parents see me off from the airport.. haha.. no big hoohas... :P yeah~ the point is, it was freezing over there.. and my jacket's with .. hehe.. u know.. my darling. so i was hugging and hugging myself for warmth... den we checked in luggage and i had 2 hours till departure time...
went inside the transit area.. and found myself loads of xbox and free internet access with mic and camera!! wahhahaha.. so i spent my time there chatting with some ppl who appear to be online at that time.. which was around 1am... when it's almost 2, i decided to walk slowly to the gates la... and den, the announcement came and called for me.. wahhaha... said i have to report there.. NOW! waahhH~~~
i got the window seat... hehe.. looked at the left wing of the plane.. had a light meal, which was chicken and rice.. hahaha.. and i fell asleep with orange juice in hand and an empty cup beside it... wahhaha... i woke up feeling very sharp pain in the right ear... lasted till we landed... aiya.. haha.. and my cup was gone.. hahah.. they took it away when i slept.. heh...
we boarded a coach... hmm well i have to stop here.. no time to blog already... good night everyone.. just know that i reach brunei airport at 430.. and reached my camp at 9.. wahhaha go figure.. took a boat here.. :P
and of cos, i miss my sayang a lot a lot... miss noorhana atiqah... i love u..
i'll see you in 3 months i hope... or i'll wait till 6 months which i CAN take regardless of ippt... nite... sweet dreams baby... i will... *muacks*
listening to the sounds of the crickets...
thinking of the loved ones....
thinking of sayang....
got not much time to blog.. hahaha... well u see, i'm on prepaid card here.. and i have one hour to do everything before someone else gets their turn..
interesting trip i'd say...
hahaha... was at changi airport around 1200.. which was 30 mins before the gates open for luggage check in. only my parents see me off from the airport.. haha.. no big hoohas... :P yeah~ the point is, it was freezing over there.. and my jacket's with .. hehe.. u know.. my darling. so i was hugging and hugging myself for warmth... den we checked in luggage and i had 2 hours till departure time...
went inside the transit area.. and found myself loads of xbox and free internet access with mic and camera!! wahhahaha.. so i spent my time there chatting with some ppl who appear to be online at that time.. which was around 1am... when it's almost 2, i decided to walk slowly to the gates la... and den, the announcement came and called for me.. wahhaha... said i have to report there.. NOW! waahhH~~~
i got the window seat... hehe.. looked at the left wing of the plane.. had a light meal, which was chicken and rice.. hahaha.. and i fell asleep with orange juice in hand and an empty cup beside it... wahhaha... i woke up feeling very sharp pain in the right ear... lasted till we landed... aiya.. haha.. and my cup was gone.. hahah.. they took it away when i slept.. heh...
we boarded a coach... hmm well i have to stop here.. no time to blog already... good night everyone.. just know that i reach brunei airport at 430.. and reached my camp at 9.. wahhaha go figure.. took a boat here.. :P
and of cos, i miss my sayang a lot a lot... miss noorhana atiqah... i love u..
i'll see you in 3 months i hope... or i'll wait till 6 months which i CAN take regardless of ippt... nite... sweet dreams baby... i will... *muacks*
Monday, January 17, 2005
Sunday, January 16, 2005
tonight, i have to go...
a part of me used to be enthusiastic about it...
used to love the thought of getting
somehow it's not here anymore...
i love to see you near..
i love to hear your voice on the phone...
and in person...
and i cant bear to leave all this for money...
loving you has been the best hobby...
the best gift anyone could have...
and to see you smile after all the effort...
it just makes life worth living for...
and i reach out my hand...
one last time before i leave...
so hold it close like u'll never want to let go...
cos you're the only one for me...
-Farhan Suhada
a part of me used to be enthusiastic about it...
used to love the thought of getting
somehow it's not here anymore...
i love to see you near..
i love to hear your voice on the phone...
and in person...
and i cant bear to leave all this for money...
loving you has been the best hobby...
the best gift anyone could have...
and to see you smile after all the effort...
it just makes life worth living for...
and i reach out my hand...
one last time before i leave...
so hold it close like u'll never want to let go...
cos you're the only one for me...
-Farhan Suhada
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
oh yah, anybody out there wants to earn extra income....? i have lobang... and it doesnt take much of your time.. and the income is dependant on how much you want it to be... for more information, just give a call or sms me at my handphone... or send me email... or even tag there, leaving me information to contact you...
attention all pioneer JC students, erm.. pioneer JC ex-students for that matter..
head down to http://www.pac.org.sg/ for the Alumni's Online magazine...
it doesnt hurt to look, even once... hahaha.. yeah~
head down to http://www.pac.org.sg/ for the Alumni's Online magazine...
it doesnt hurt to look, even once... hahaha.. yeah~
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
went for bowling on saturday with sayang, fiza and hafiz... ahhaha.. no no.. not the hafiz that u guys know.. it's hafiz the brother of sayang.. hahaha yeah.. so we met at .. erm.. chua chu kang mrt station la.. it was a bright and sunny day anyway.. hahaha.. and slight drizzle in bukit batok... but then for a while only.. hahaha oh yah, and on THAT day, i had no cash.. hahah... my pay havent come in yet, and my ez link's left with 4 cents... wahhahahah!!!
so my dad decided to borrow me his 50 bucks first cos he needs the cash for credit card payment.. and since i'll get my pay on monday, he didnt mind passing them to me.. hahaha.. so i went to top up my card, and waited for ALL of them at the platform... ah.. and as usual, when everyone's supposed to meet at 2, it means come after 2... be it 10 or 30 minutes.. hahaha.. cos it's perfectly alright to come later.. *rolls eyes* so anyway, after everyone arrives, we took the train to bugis where supposed we're going to have lunch and our game..
so we went for lunch after prayers.. it's this small coffeeshop near amiran's that sells halal CHINESE food.. wahhahha! okie.. what are the implications...?
1. It's cheap
2. More stuffs and quantity in one serving
3. Delicious
4. IT'S CHINESE FOOD!!!
5. The wanton noodle's nice.. hahaha and so is the roasted chicken rice.
=P ... wahhahaha.. and everyone was scattered all over the place while the uncle tried to take down our orders.. hahahaha... cos we didnt know what to eat.. sayang had lor mee, hafiz had mee siam (wahhahahha) , fiza had laksa penang, and me, i had the roasted chicken rice!! wahhahaahaha...
and while eating, the rain started to pour.. dang.. it gets heavier and heavier and heavier... and sayang was laughing at the poor old angmos that were seated on the uncovered upper deck of a bus.. i think it's this, visit singapore bus ah.. that tours around places of interest.. hahaha cos apparently, they were panicking trying to get to the lower decks.. hahaha.. they're quite old mind you.. granddads and grandmums.. hahaha...
and so, we waited for the rain to stop.. and it didnt.. even after we finished our meals... den suddenly, someone had this... BRIGHT idea to walk/run/jog in the rain to the bowling alley... ahh.. (from the coffeeshop to the alley is a long long walk there) and yes, surprisingly, everyone agreed... hhahaha.. probably all very excited to play.. hahahaha
so we ran.. and jog.. and walk across the streets and pavements and got drenched ... very ... and i recall hafiz running across a 4 lane road.. and running back after he ran to the other side.. and ran to the other side again with us.. wahhahah!! aper seh.. hahahhaha
and passerbys and shop owners went like.. "waahhhh!! so wet ar u guys...?" "eh, not scared of the rain ah...?" "basahnyaaaaaa~~!!!"
wahhahahaha!!! oh well.. hahaha.. and sayang was freezing.. so i gave my waterproof jacket to her after we reached the place.. i know i know.. should have given her earlier rite? hahaha but she's wearing black.. and it doesnt look soaked though it's soaked.. hahaha.. *sorry sayang* yeah.. so, we took the lift up to the 8th floor... wahhaha... waiting anxiously for it to reach the level.... and guess what.....? "Plaza Bowl is closed for upgrading it's electrical connections" WAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! all that walking and running and jogging in the rain was for NOTHING!! wahhahahahhahah!!!!
yeah.. haha.. and on the way down the lift, fiza played with her shoe and gave that squeky sound... and there's and uncle in front of us.. hahaha.. and he wants to turn but he didnt want to turn kind of gesture.. WAHHAHA!! and he quickly walked out of the lift when it FINALLY opened!! wahhahahahah!!! he must be thinking "what a bunch of crazy wet kids" hahahaha~~
yeah.. oh well.. hahaha... so we didnt get to play... and decided to go ice skating.... but after we boarded a bus towards woodlands, and dropped at city hall station, fiza wanted to sleep.. *PENGZ!!!* so in the end, everyone wants to go home.. hahaha.. yeah la.. understandable.. wet and sticky.. hehehe.. but it was fun.. hahaha.. running around in the rain.. hehehe...
till next time! ciaoz!
so my dad decided to borrow me his 50 bucks first cos he needs the cash for credit card payment.. and since i'll get my pay on monday, he didnt mind passing them to me.. hahaha.. so i went to top up my card, and waited for ALL of them at the platform... ah.. and as usual, when everyone's supposed to meet at 2, it means come after 2... be it 10 or 30 minutes.. hahaha.. cos it's perfectly alright to come later.. *rolls eyes* so anyway, after everyone arrives, we took the train to bugis where supposed we're going to have lunch and our game..
so we went for lunch after prayers.. it's this small coffeeshop near amiran's that sells halal CHINESE food.. wahhahha! okie.. what are the implications...?
1. It's cheap
2. More stuffs and quantity in one serving
3. Delicious
4. IT'S CHINESE FOOD!!!
5. The wanton noodle's nice.. hahaha and so is the roasted chicken rice.
=P ... wahhahaha.. and everyone was scattered all over the place while the uncle tried to take down our orders.. hahahaha... cos we didnt know what to eat.. sayang had lor mee, hafiz had mee siam (wahhahahha) , fiza had laksa penang, and me, i had the roasted chicken rice!! wahhahaahaha...
and while eating, the rain started to pour.. dang.. it gets heavier and heavier and heavier... and sayang was laughing at the poor old angmos that were seated on the uncovered upper deck of a bus.. i think it's this, visit singapore bus ah.. that tours around places of interest.. hahaha cos apparently, they were panicking trying to get to the lower decks.. hahaha.. they're quite old mind you.. granddads and grandmums.. hahaha...
and so, we waited for the rain to stop.. and it didnt.. even after we finished our meals... den suddenly, someone had this... BRIGHT idea to walk/run/jog in the rain to the bowling alley... ahh.. (from the coffeeshop to the alley is a long long walk there) and yes, surprisingly, everyone agreed... hhahaha.. probably all very excited to play.. hahahaha
so we ran.. and jog.. and walk across the streets and pavements and got drenched ... very ... and i recall hafiz running across a 4 lane road.. and running back after he ran to the other side.. and ran to the other side again with us.. wahhahah!! aper seh.. hahahhaha
and passerbys and shop owners went like.. "waahhhh!! so wet ar u guys...?" "eh, not scared of the rain ah...?" "basahnyaaaaaa~~!!!"
wahhahahaha!!! oh well.. hahaha.. and sayang was freezing.. so i gave my waterproof jacket to her after we reached the place.. i know i know.. should have given her earlier rite? hahaha but she's wearing black.. and it doesnt look soaked though it's soaked.. hahaha.. *sorry sayang* yeah.. so, we took the lift up to the 8th floor... wahhaha... waiting anxiously for it to reach the level.... and guess what.....? "Plaza Bowl is closed for upgrading it's electrical connections" WAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! all that walking and running and jogging in the rain was for NOTHING!! wahhahahahhahah!!!!
yeah.. haha.. and on the way down the lift, fiza played with her shoe and gave that squeky sound... and there's and uncle in front of us.. hahaha.. and he wants to turn but he didnt want to turn kind of gesture.. WAHHAHA!! and he quickly walked out of the lift when it FINALLY opened!! wahhahahahah!!! he must be thinking "what a bunch of crazy wet kids" hahahaha~~
yeah.. oh well.. hahaha... so we didnt get to play... and decided to go ice skating.... but after we boarded a bus towards woodlands, and dropped at city hall station, fiza wanted to sleep.. *PENGZ!!!* so in the end, everyone wants to go home.. hahaha.. yeah la.. understandable.. wet and sticky.. hehehe.. but it was fun.. hahaha.. running around in the rain.. hehehe...
till next time! ciaoz!
Saturday, January 08, 2005
You create the experience of love by giving the gift of acceptance and appreciation. Just look at how you feel when someone genuinely accepts and appreciates you. Doesn't this feel great? Of course it does.
You feel better about yourself and better about your life. You also feel better about the person who accepts and appreciates you. Automatically, you become accepting and appreciative in return.
Now notice how you feel when someone is non-accepting towards you. Notice how you feel when someone is critical of you or tries to change you. Notice how fast the experience of love disappears.
Instantly, you get hurt. You get upset and close down. You put up your walls of protection and automatically become non-accepting and critical in return.
Then the other person gets upset, puts up his or her walls of protection, and becomes even more non-accepting towards you.
Then you get even more upset. Your walls of protection get stronger and you become more critical of the other person.
Then that person gets more upset and becomes more resentful of you. Then you become more hateful towards the other person. Without knowing, you create a cycle of conflict, a cycle of resisting, attacking and withdrawing from each other. This cycle of conflict then destroys your relationship and produces tremendous suffering.
If you have any relationship that isn't working, this cycle is present. If you want to heal your relationship and end the conflict, you need to end this cycle.
Fortunately, all it takes is one person.
The cycle of conflict is like a tennis volley. Two people are needed to keep the cycle going. Only one is needed to end it. When one person stops playing the game, the cycle is over.
You stop playing the game when you give acceptance and appreciation instead of being critical and resentful.
To make the shift from criticalness to acceptance, you need to let go of your resistance. You can do this by taking the following steps:
1. Find and heal the hurt that has been reactivated by the other person
Ultimately, the reason you are non-accepting is because the other person has reactivated some hurt in you. As you heal this hurt, the need to resist disappears. You can then interact in a way that creates love instead of destroying it.
2. Give the person full permission to be the way he or she is
Notice that the other person is the way he or she is whether you like it or not. Your feelings are totally irrelevant. Hating the way someone is doesn't change a thing. That person is still exactly the way he or she is. When you fight the truth of how someone is, you fuel the cycle of conflict and you lose your ability to see what needs to be done. When you are at peace with the way the someone is, you see your situation clearly. You can see what needs to be done and you can do it in a way that is supportive.
3. Forgive the person
When you resent someone, a big part of you closes down. You become bitter and lose your ability to love. You also interact in a way that automatically creates opposition and resistance against yourself. Forgiveness is not for the other person, forgiveness is for you.
4. Let the person go
When you hang on to someone, you push the person away. The person feels suffocated and has to fight for breathing room. Just look at how you feel when someone hangs on to you. To have any relationship work, you have to be willing to lose the person.
5. Accept full 100% responsibility for the loss of love
Relationships are not 50/50. They are 100/100. Each person is 100% responsible for the presence or absence of love in a relationship. Once you see your 100% responsibility for the loss of love, you can no longer blame the other person. You also become more effective in all your future relationships.
6. See that you are just like the other person
Any characteristic that you can't stand in another person is an aspect of you that you can't stand in yourself. Once you discover that this characteristic is also in you, your resistance towards the other person gets replaced with compassion. You also become more at peace with yourself.
7. Get with the person and clean up your relationship
Once you let go of your resistance towards someone, the next step is to get with the person and clean up your relationship. Tell the person that you've had some major self-discoveries and that now you're interacting in a new way.
Take full responsibility for what happened and ask the person to please forgive you. If you have been hanging on, give the person freedom to leave.
Say whatever you need to say to clean up your relationship. Then follow your statement up with action. Make sure the other person always feels loved, accepted and appreciated.
Every time you interact with someone, you will either create love or destroy love, and whatever you give will come right back.
So put the focus on ending the conflict and restoring the love, not necessarily as husband and wife, but as one human being to another.
As you do this, you will heal both your relationship and your hurt. You will also create a life that is a lot more enjoyable.
- from this a war and SHAX
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in a relationship, conflicts are bound to happen. i'm sorry...
You feel better about yourself and better about your life. You also feel better about the person who accepts and appreciates you. Automatically, you become accepting and appreciative in return.
Now notice how you feel when someone is non-accepting towards you. Notice how you feel when someone is critical of you or tries to change you. Notice how fast the experience of love disappears.
Instantly, you get hurt. You get upset and close down. You put up your walls of protection and automatically become non-accepting and critical in return.
Then the other person gets upset, puts up his or her walls of protection, and becomes even more non-accepting towards you.
Then you get even more upset. Your walls of protection get stronger and you become more critical of the other person.
Then that person gets more upset and becomes more resentful of you. Then you become more hateful towards the other person. Without knowing, you create a cycle of conflict, a cycle of resisting, attacking and withdrawing from each other. This cycle of conflict then destroys your relationship and produces tremendous suffering.
If you have any relationship that isn't working, this cycle is present. If you want to heal your relationship and end the conflict, you need to end this cycle.
Fortunately, all it takes is one person.
The cycle of conflict is like a tennis volley. Two people are needed to keep the cycle going. Only one is needed to end it. When one person stops playing the game, the cycle is over.
You stop playing the game when you give acceptance and appreciation instead of being critical and resentful.
To make the shift from criticalness to acceptance, you need to let go of your resistance. You can do this by taking the following steps:
1. Find and heal the hurt that has been reactivated by the other person
Ultimately, the reason you are non-accepting is because the other person has reactivated some hurt in you. As you heal this hurt, the need to resist disappears. You can then interact in a way that creates love instead of destroying it.
2. Give the person full permission to be the way he or she is
Notice that the other person is the way he or she is whether you like it or not. Your feelings are totally irrelevant. Hating the way someone is doesn't change a thing. That person is still exactly the way he or she is. When you fight the truth of how someone is, you fuel the cycle of conflict and you lose your ability to see what needs to be done. When you are at peace with the way the someone is, you see your situation clearly. You can see what needs to be done and you can do it in a way that is supportive.
3. Forgive the person
When you resent someone, a big part of you closes down. You become bitter and lose your ability to love. You also interact in a way that automatically creates opposition and resistance against yourself. Forgiveness is not for the other person, forgiveness is for you.
4. Let the person go
When you hang on to someone, you push the person away. The person feels suffocated and has to fight for breathing room. Just look at how you feel when someone hangs on to you. To have any relationship work, you have to be willing to lose the person.
5. Accept full 100% responsibility for the loss of love
Relationships are not 50/50. They are 100/100. Each person is 100% responsible for the presence or absence of love in a relationship. Once you see your 100% responsibility for the loss of love, you can no longer blame the other person. You also become more effective in all your future relationships.
6. See that you are just like the other person
Any characteristic that you can't stand in another person is an aspect of you that you can't stand in yourself. Once you discover that this characteristic is also in you, your resistance towards the other person gets replaced with compassion. You also become more at peace with yourself.
7. Get with the person and clean up your relationship
Once you let go of your resistance towards someone, the next step is to get with the person and clean up your relationship. Tell the person that you've had some major self-discoveries and that now you're interacting in a new way.
Take full responsibility for what happened and ask the person to please forgive you. If you have been hanging on, give the person freedom to leave.
Say whatever you need to say to clean up your relationship. Then follow your statement up with action. Make sure the other person always feels loved, accepted and appreciated.
Every time you interact with someone, you will either create love or destroy love, and whatever you give will come right back.
So put the focus on ending the conflict and restoring the love, not necessarily as husband and wife, but as one human being to another.
As you do this, you will heal both your relationship and your hurt. You will also create a life that is a lot more enjoyable.
- from this a war and SHAX
******************
in a relationship, conflicts are bound to happen. i'm sorry...
Friday, January 07, 2005
*looks at the calendar* january 7th... 11 more days before i leave Singapore. Ah yes, i just received news that i'm officially off to Brunei for my 1 year tour overseas yesterday. i'll be leaving Singapore on the 18th 0230hrs.... hahaha.. a chartered SQ flight in the middle of the night.. yeah~ ah.. so those of u who want stuffs from brunei, i dunno what's there.. hahahaha! u want a cicada...? the size of a rat...? wahhahahahahah!!
just now i cleared my toolbox, sort of like, returned all the tools that were issued to me. ah.. it was a tough job.. fine la fine la.. dun believe me.. hahahaha.... it's tough cos when u work with other technicians, the tools gets mixed up and u dun realise it... and in the end, when u check ur tools, some gets missing.. and some extras..... so i lost several tools.. including socket extensions and RACHET.. god! no one loses a rachet... except that someone else has more than 1 rachet... yeah.. so i spent the whole day looking for tools.. asking around... trading extra tools.. and in the end, i managed to clear it.. wahhaha... the toolstore ic was like "can u lose some tools....?" wahhaha that was after he checked most of the tools in my box.. hahahaha...
but it was short lived... he noticed that the screwdrivers were not the ones issued... due to the difference in it's length and width... aiya.. hahahahaha ... so i went around and exchanged again.. and yaay~ hahahahhaha
so after clearing toolbox, i have to get signatures from my company's main appointment holders, HQ appointment holders, S1, S3, S4 branch too.... aiya.. it's irritating cos the higher ranks will tell u that they dun want to sign cos the lower ranks havent signed yet... i'm like.. wah lau.. why cant he/she sign while she's still here? i mean, what if on monday he/she decides to fall sick or have some urgent meeting ker....? den where do i get the signatures seh.... *shakes head* but it's okie la.. i think i might need to come down to camp for 2 more days only... yeah..
ahh.. yes..i think i'll be getting a new hp and subscription line tmrw... hahaha.. yeah~!! rock on! and sayang's still shopping i think.. hahahaha... i missed her... a lot.. *smiles*
till later!
just now i cleared my toolbox, sort of like, returned all the tools that were issued to me. ah.. it was a tough job.. fine la fine la.. dun believe me.. hahahaha.... it's tough cos when u work with other technicians, the tools gets mixed up and u dun realise it... and in the end, when u check ur tools, some gets missing.. and some extras..... so i lost several tools.. including socket extensions and RACHET.. god! no one loses a rachet... except that someone else has more than 1 rachet... yeah.. so i spent the whole day looking for tools.. asking around... trading extra tools.. and in the end, i managed to clear it.. wahhaha... the toolstore ic was like "can u lose some tools....?" wahhaha that was after he checked most of the tools in my box.. hahahaha...
but it was short lived... he noticed that the screwdrivers were not the ones issued... due to the difference in it's length and width... aiya.. hahahahaha ... so i went around and exchanged again.. and yaay~ hahahahhaha
so after clearing toolbox, i have to get signatures from my company's main appointment holders, HQ appointment holders, S1, S3, S4 branch too.... aiya.. it's irritating cos the higher ranks will tell u that they dun want to sign cos the lower ranks havent signed yet... i'm like.. wah lau.. why cant he/she sign while she's still here? i mean, what if on monday he/she decides to fall sick or have some urgent meeting ker....? den where do i get the signatures seh.... *shakes head* but it's okie la.. i think i might need to come down to camp for 2 more days only... yeah..
ahh.. yes..i think i'll be getting a new hp and subscription line tmrw... hahaha.. yeah~!! rock on! and sayang's still shopping i think.. hahahaha... i missed her... a lot.. *smiles*
till later!
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
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