hey everyone.. i'm doing guard commander duty again tonight.. haha.. i'm actually covering for someone else since he has to go for the e-tour tmrw morning... yeah.. and as such, he cannot dismount early.. sooo, at first it kindda suck la cos overall i'm doing 5 duties this month.. actually.. 5 duties half a month.. haha.. and then, i'm activated when i'm on standby.. hahaha.. oh well, on the brighter note, i'll be able to talk to my sayang tonight! weee~~ oh .. she just came back from bangkok with her mum and aunts.. yepz~ *whispers to sayang* where's my bangkok girl? *chuckles*

brb...

oikie.. am back.. haha.. had to monitor the people that are throwing rubbish.. and ensure that each package has no SAF items in them.. hehehe.. and soo, i have to use MY hands to search the bag individually.. hahaha.. shrugs.. crappy.. and oh, i just heard that tmrw, another guard commander cannot do.. so i have to do again la~!! hahahaha cool!!! and that's liike... erm.. 6 guard duties half a month? hahahahaha.. steady la...

oh.. and sorry for the little updates.. *small smile* lazy la to blog from here.. hahaha.. cos firstly, time is a factor.. secondly, sometimes not enough comps ... hhahaha.. yeah..

sooo.. that's all i have...

oh.. and sayang called me using a global calling card.. hahaha.. aiya.. expensive.. anyone has a cheaper alternative? hahaha.. tell me ait? :P

love you hana...

today is indeed very special. it comes once in a lifetime. *thinks* hmm, there are other things that comes once in a lifetime* anyways, today is THE day. today is..... my ONE YEAR anniversary!!!

*~*Happy One Year Anniversary*~*

indeed it's one of the happiest days of my life.. i mean, getting to spend your life with the ONE person that completes you in every aspect... *chuckles*

i love YOU noorhana, with all my heart.. i've given you my love, and so do you.. i can't imagine living without you.. it's especially hard surviving a day without getting an sms from you.. it's like, "i need to know if she is well" and stuffs like that.. *blushes* ...

forever and for always,
yours...
dude...
farhan suhada

p.s : i love you.. and when u get home, go and rest...

Kasihku ingin ku menyatakan hasrat ikhlas di hati ini
Mungkinkah luahan dapat di abadi
Bagaimana harus nak ku buktikan
Tak terdaya hendak ku lafazkan
Hanyalah satu keikhlasan diri

Kau permaisuri
Jangan kau bersedih lagi
Hanya satu ku pinta... secebis janjimu
Lelapkanlah mata
Kau selalu di hatiku
Terbayang dalam firasat
Termakbulnya hasrat

Ku bersyukur pada yang esa
Hilanglah kesepian lama
Betapa sukarnya untuk memahami dirimu
Walaupum hatiku membara
Tiada apa dapat di lakukan
Sekiranya perasaanmu berduka

Kau permaisuri
Jangan kau bersedih lagi
Hanya satu ku pinta...secebis janjimu
Lelapkanlah mata
Kau selalu di hatiku
Terbayang dalam firasat
Termakbulnya hasrat

Ingin ku belai hatimu
Dan ku pegang erat jemarimu
Apa yang nyatakan... hanyalah ku rindu

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it's hard to talk if no one understands.
and by trying very hard and still not understanding, really hurts la.
sorry for what happened..
i had a wonderful day...
nite...

It's all about you baby

It's all about you

It's all about you



Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew

So I told you with a smileit's all about you

Then you whispered in my ear and told me too

That you made my life worthwhile

it's all about you



And I would answer all of your wishes

If you ask me to

But if you leave I need one of your kisses

Don't know what I'd do

So hold me close and say three words like you used to do

Dancing on the kitchen tiles

it's all about you, yeah!



And I would answer all of your wishes

If you ask me to

But if you leave I need one of your kisses

Don't know what I'd do

So hold me close and say three words like you used to do

Dancing on the kitchen tiles

Yes you make my life worthwhile

So I told you with a smile

It's all about you



It's all about you (it's all about you)

It's all about you baby


~ It's All Abt You

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

It's impressive that nowadays i get to blog almost everyday... And at the privacy of your own house at that.. hahaha.. as of today, i met sayang at JEC today for an evening movie. We watched "Kingdom Of Heaven". To every guy who thinks that LOTR's battle scenes are cool, wait till you watch this battle scene. It doesn't concentrate on just 3 idiots who can incredibly overcome most of the enemies by doing style killings and a little "competition". neope... it concentrates more on the strategy... the way things are planned out and executed at the very moment... the importance of battle flags to troops morale... the damage hundreds of balistas can do to the entire city.. haha.. i'd give the movie a 7/10 cos there are really certain parts of the movie where it doesnt even supposed to be there.. hahaha.. all this just reminds me of the game Rome: Total War... absolutely fantastic...

and so, after the movie, we just sat around at long john silver's for a taste of salsa fiesta. sayang was impressed that i came back with 3 chickens on one plate, and many many salsa cheese sauce.... *winks* i learnt from the best mah~ *laughs* yeah.. and when i requested from the counter for more salsa sauce, she went like, "you like it ah?" and i smiled and replied "YAH!!" hahaha.. den she decided to give me a FULL cup of the sauce.. hehehe.. for the same price.. *giggles* and sayang still can say "why never ask for free seh??" nyeehhh...

and by then, it was already 9 plus.. oh, and during our "dinner", i saw this couple fighting verbally... they actually came quietly to the seats behind us... then after the guy talked and talked and talked, he suddenly got irritated and angry and started to raise his voice at her.. she just kept quiet and listened to his nonsense ah... den afterwards, he just left her at the table like that... she's definitely embarrased already ah by then.. and since females has 120 degree angle view, i'm sure she can see that i was looking at the whole scene laaaaaa.... shortly after, the guy came back, and she slapped his hands hard and walked away... he chased her and pushed her hard on her back and she just ran... he chase on, raising his hand for another beating...
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and the construction boards covered my view... *laughs* it's where the old KFC used to be la... yeah.. i'm sure the guy did something to the girl cos the other patrons around the place turned to look at their direction.. *shrugs* very.. very.. bad... i wanted to go help the lady la... by going over to them and said "who the hell do u think you are hitting a girl like that?" ... and sayang stopped me when she knew i was going to beat the guy up if he retaliates... *shrugs* i'm sure other guys would do the same thing too if they're in my situation, ie beat the guy up if he wants to play punk... rite?? *hey, support me by leaving a tag saying you are supporting!" yah lah... den in the end, i just sit there, with sayang.. while the others around were looking at the whole thing... best part is, there was a security guard there.. and he acted as if he didn't see anything... haha.. he's dark, has a large belly, and he wore pants that is very, very small... sort of like, fitting, but doesnt cover his tummy.. so it's like, bulging over the pants la... *shudders* oh! oh! he got moustache too!!! hahaha !!! and no, i dun have any fascination over moustaches... might as well dun have security guard there if he cant keep the security of the place seh.. hahaha.. i can be security guard! *laughs*

and soon after, we left JEC and head over to McDonald's near her house.. haha.. had Milo Ice... the guy at the counter asked if i'd like regular or medium milo.. i was stunned cos i only knew there's one sized milo.. haha.. so i asked how much is medium and he said 2.50.. i'm like.. okie, give me medium.. hahaha.. den after, as i left the counter, he mumbled something.. and i went, heah? and he mumbled again... and i smiled.. hahahaha.. den sayang said that he said "thank you. please come again" or something like that.. hahaha.. aiya.. :P

yepz~ in the end, after sending her home, i left for the train at 1120... walked home at that... hahaha.. and then i saw bus 852 sailing past me.... rrriiittteeee... hahahahaha.. yeah.. :P

so that's all for today.. hehe.. aiya.. going back camp soon.. *sighs*... 15th march.. it's probably a night flight... am going to collect the tickets tmrw... yeah.. i'll inform everyone of the flight details here.. hahaha.. and if u decide to drop by and send me off, yaay~ hahahahaha...

nites everyone~~

To the wonderful lady in my life...
Aku tak mengerti
Apa yang ku rasa
Rindu yang tak pernah
Begitu hebatnya
Aku persembahkan hidupku untukmu
Telah kurelakan hatiku padamu
Aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak'kan pernah tahu~
i love you always... *hugs*

i miss this.. this is 2003's international dance SYF.. hahaha.. and i'm right in the middle there, lifting the lady up.. *laughs* i dun think ppl will believe that i'm a dancer.. *shrugs* hahaha *senses that sayang's having cows* and i think i like the make up.. :P made me look feminine yet mascular.. get it? hahaha nvm.. *smiles* JILLINE!!! I WANT THE VIDEO!!!!
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i miss those days.. where all we have to worry for is just exams.... *thinks* and girls.. haha.. introducing the League Of Extraordinary Losers.. *smiles*
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i dun understand... *scratch head*

Raggedy Ann You scored 44 testiness, 42 testosterone, 52 testimony, and 47 testiosity!

Throw away your crutches, you can see! Go forth and feed the naked, clothe the dead, and play the bongos!

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 17% on testiness You scored higher than 76% on testosterone You scored higher than 82% on testimony You scored higher than 52% on testiosity

Link: The Test that Tests Tests Test written by aliquare on Ok Cupid

stop... looking... at.... me... RAAWWRR!!!!
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erk.. hahaha.. that's her poking her nose and taking her own picture.. *chuckles*
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this is meeeeeee *duh* .. looking at hana.. haha.. okie okie.. the camera is where hana is.. and i was looking... ah.. somewhere? hahaha
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boo! that's sayang's specs! :P
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In your arms I can still feel the way you
want me when you hold me
I can still hear the words you whispered
when you told me
I can stay right here forever in your arms

And there ain't no way...
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't no way...
and there ain't not how
I'll never see that day....

Chorus:
'Cause I'm keeping you
forever and for always
We will be together all of our day
Wanna wake up every
morning to your sweet face...always

Mmmm, baby
In your heart,
I can still hear a beat for every time you kiss me
And when we're apart,
I know how much you miss me
I can feel your love for me in your heart

And there ain't no way...
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't now way...
and there ain't no how
I'll never see that day....

Repeat Chorus

In your eyes,
I can still see
the look of the one who really loves me
The one who wouldn't put anything
else in the world above me
I can still see love for me in your eyes

And there ain't no way...
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't no way...
and there ain't no how
I'll never see that day....

Repeat Chorus (2x)

I'm keeping you forever and for always
I'm in your arms

-Shania Twain, Forever and For Always
*~*~*~*

*hugs*
*whispers*
love you very much...

*clutchs his thighs* owww... that was one major wake up call, a cramp in the leg... *grumble grumble as he massages his thighs* and that's like two days straight already.. i tot you only get those cramps when it's cold...? i dun even have aircon.. *shrugs*

had a beautiful day yesterday with darrliiinnggg.. laughs.. yeah.. *smiles lovingly at her*

oh by the way, i would like to recommend a western food stall at tampines. it's near to tampines EAST community centre and facing the road exit towards simei. to make it easier still, there's this arch pillars right in front of the shop.. and if i'm not wrong, that was opened by Mr Mah Bow Tan... yepz.... it's easy to spot cos if you come by PIE and exit by Simei Road, You'll see it when u reach to the end of the road... if you're taking bus from tampines interchange, bus 3 will go there. the community centre will be on the left. if you decide to take bus 18, 28, 38 *there's more bus i reckon* you just have to alight after Ngee Ann Secondary, and walk towards the traffic light after the overhead bridge... It's easy to spot... it's called "All The Best Western Food" and it's definitely better than Tenderfresh Chickens.. *smiles* i had All The Best 2 days ago... and i had a similar dish from tenderfresh... and i give All The Best most of the credits.. hahaha.. the chicken is FREAKING soft that you wish it's much much bigger than it is.. *though it is already very large, unlike tenderfresh* yepz.. so there... go on! try ALL The Best Western Food. You won't regret it... *thumbs up and smile*

*chuckles* i love YOU!! yes YOU YOU YOU!!!

okie okie.. i updated more names into my links.. hahaha.. apparently, jilline and maya and isya/hafiz all linked me up... SOOOOO as a favour, i'll do the same TOO!! hahaha.. *waves* enjoy!

dearest noorhana....

I just felt like writing a letter to you. I cannot help myself but think how lucky I am to have you as MY significant other. I simply cannot visualise myself without you in my life. The past 11 months and 12 days has been the most wonderful moments of my life, better than getting into JC, better than getting selected for Unit Drill Instructor course, better than going to Brunei for support. There's just one word to describe what you've given me, tranquility. You bring peace in my life. You showed me that family IS everything 'cos all the while my family is only there when they needs me or when they can find time to be there for me. You showed me love more than I ever thought possible. You pick me up when i'm down, sprawled on the ground, trampled like dirt and kicked around. You were always there for me.

I am very thankful of the love that you have given me, and I will strive not to ask for more from you. I know it is not always beautiful or peaceful during our time together, but this love that we are cultivating is more precious than all the hurt and pain. I seek your forgiveness for hurting you with my directness sometimes. I should have known better.

And so my darling, right now, this very moment, I just want to go up to you, hold your hand lightly, look into your eyes, give you a smile and whispers "I love You" to you. Then I'll smile again and say, "Thank You Sayang".

*hugs*

oh.. i just realised that when i'm laughing at the end of every other sentence, it means that i'm damn happy right now.. yupz! so off i will get ready to meet my darling~!!! wwwhhheeee!!!!

and i just thought murphy's law was happening again when i can't publish my post.. and when i recover, only part of it got recovered... *shuddered* lucky it got posted.. ahaha. PHEW!

have you ever thought that nothing can go wrong today but in the end it just went wrong anyway? that's Murphy's Law for you.. it always happens unexpectedly.. it's like.. you have to submit a major project and when it's your turn to present, you suddenly had a terrible urge to relieve your bowels.. great rite?

hahaha.. anyways, i was supposed to be online at 0230 am last last night.. but apparently, i overslept.. cos the alarm shuts off.. hahaha.. hence the entry below.. ;) anyways, when i just logged off to sleep, my dear darling went online.. hahaha.. all the way till 9 plus.. where she smsed.. and then i woke up at 10 plus.. and smsed her back.. by then, she was already asleep and i was online alone.. hahaha.. cut the story short... we decided to meet up at a later time la.. hahaha.. she decided on meeting at 1 or 130.. haha.. i said i couldnt reach there on time.. therefore, we settled at 2.. cos any later, we wouldnt be able to spend much time.. khekhekhe..

and so, i reached her mrt station at 2pm.. khekhe.. she wasnt there.. so i waited la.. *wonderful boyfriend mah!* haha.. and waited.. and waited.. and waited... hahaha.. cos she said her mum's gonna send her to the mrt station.. i had no idea why la.. cos it's just walking distance away.. so i waited.. and waited.. *like i said, wonderful boyfriend* and waited.. and she smsed "sighs.. sorry.. go to woodlands mrt" hahahaha... and so, i took the train and waited at woodlands.. and waited some more.. haha.. and waited again.. in the end, i went to find myself a seat and sleep.. WAHAHAHHAHA.... many2 minutes later, she came.. khekhehke..

see, murphy's law... and no, she didnt do it on purpose.. u see, the late one is ALWAYS me.. haha.. she'll always be early and waited at where we're supposed to meet.. so when she's late, it's cos something went wrong.. *murphy's law??* haha.. apparently, it was HAKIM's *the little brother* birthday today and the whole family suddenly decides to celebrate his birthday that same afternoon.. hahaha.. i shall not go into details why the decision was made.. but yah .. so she had to wait and wait cos need to transfer money laaaaa... :P and i waited also.. hahaha.. many2 minutes later...

and then, off we head to toa payoh where she had to collect her ZEN MICRO!!!!! wahahha.. man.. the accesories that comes with it is worth the money laaaa.. got earpiece, charger, stand, clip, earphone clip, manual.. hahaha.. and even the bag to keep the ZEN MICRO!!!! in it.. *laughs* after that, we had the deliciously appetising chicken rice... laughs.. i'm sure those in toa payoh would know abt this place.. khekhekhe.. we had chicken rice and chap chye.. :P *rubs tummy* yumz! hahaha.. eating done, we went to look for HAKIM's present! hahaha.. we decided on this archery set at kiddy palace.. waahhaha.. if i was younger, i'd love to have that for myself too.. khekhekhe.. *dances around* yaaahhhh...

so all the shopping done.. khekhekhe.. it was time to find a place to sit down and study.. *for her at least.. cos i'll be studying too... studying her.. LAUGHS* hahaha.. we went to starbucks at toa payoh.. wonderful environment to accompany sayang when she studies.. hehehe.. there, her primary school junior approached her and talked.. hahahaha.. duh, takkan laugh rite? :P yeah.. so i went in to order la.. *did i mention that junior works at starbucks?* haha.. and this junior of hers *sorry i dunno ur name* whispered something to the ocunter girl la... *hmmm* so i ordered .. erm.. GRANDE... RHUMBA GRANDE.. haha.. cos SAYANG specifically said DUN order VENTI cos it's HUGE.. haha.. *yes darling.. yes* haha.. so i asked for 2 grandes... and a few minutes later, i came out with VENTI... for GRANDE price.. -_-' ... and i dun wonder how my darling gets free and cheap stuffs la... hahahaha.. and her junior came over and said "takder air lagi besar ker?" laughs!!

oh well... so after many2 minutes of studying.. haha.. and crapping... and listening to some bad singing from an old chinese man on the huge speakers, i went off to send her home.. hahaha.. we waited for a bus to tampines at one of the bus stops near her house cos i had to go to my grandma's house.. hahaa.. and ehem.. flirted over ice cream.. *laughs* and i guess the apek gave us a weird look.. *shrugs* so anyways, that was a wonderful day spent with sayang.. khekhe...

on the way to my grandma's house, i met KHAIRUL ANWAR aka gay boy OETI.. hahaha.. :X he was going somewhere with his family.. and i can't deny that his sister looks hot.. hhaha.. okie2.. she's pretty and sweet looking laa.. *hey khai, that's a compliment tau.. haha..* he told me that the news of HAFIZ *yes kau apiz* giving handjob spread all over singapore.. shrugs.. apparently someone told someone else that you got caught giving handjobs to someone in brunei... *confused look* HE'S INNOCENT LOR!!! aiya.. now must find that guy who spread the rumour and kill him for you.. haha.. *dun worry isya.. it'll be taken care of* hahaha...

yepz.. and so i spend time at my grandma's house and went home afterwards.. laughs.. a whole day of adventure.. *smiles* and today will be a new adventure.. haha.. to the AIRPORT!! wootz! now i'm contemplating whether to bring my guitar or not... *taps chin* hmmm... hahaha.. okie la! got to renew my dad's season parking and meet sayang in a while.. hahhaha.. and oh, practice makes perfect.. doesnt matter what u do ah.. hahaha..!!!

ciao!

I LOVE YOU NOORHANA!!!!!!!!!! *hugs* *blows kisses to everyone*
have a great day~

hmm you must have been wondering when did i start liking you.. ? how come it didnt start earlier..? when did all the love start to blossom...? and why you and not other girls...? *chuckles*

i hope at the end of this, it becomes clearer? khekhe.. *hugs*

Sayang,

i remember....

I remember the day i first laid my eyes on you. You were standing around as you watch me and Haqeem introduce each other and talked about Syahrom. And then, Haqeem introduced you to me. That day, i told myself that she's probably Haqeem's girlfriend.

I remember in J1, where you were already hanging out with Muhammad. *laughs* And during his birthday, the malay students gathered to eat his cake (wondered who bought that) and I just sat facing away from the whole thing.

I remember seeing you walking around with Muhammad every other day. That day, i told myself that she's probably Muhammad's girlfriend.

I remember when we were doing Orientation, and you applied to be OGL. Hahaha. And i was horrified that of all the other 30 plus OGL, i had to end up with this girl from my class that i did not really talk to. *laughs* that was one classic moment of fate. khekhekhe.

I remember you asking me for ONE dance at the end of the whole orientation. My heart was racing when i touched your hands during the dance part. *chuckles* And then, i commented that your hands were sweaty.. ah.. best comment ever.. haha.. That day, I realised that I want to do Mass Dance with you forever. *sheepish smile*

I remember a card that you decorated with your artistic designs and you wrote a short "letter" at the back of it. *embarrassed smile* That day, I started to have feelings for you...

I remember when we were in class, you will sometimes sit facing sideways and looking at the back of the class. When i lift up my face and look at you, and give a questioning look, you just smiled and shakes your head. *chuckles* That day onwards, I told myself she will never have feelings for me. (confused i guess.. hahaha)

I remember GP seminar, where you were suddenly in the group because Muhammad decided to use your specialty in arts. *smiles* And i thought everything was back to normal with the two of you. (so i moved on i guess.. Laughs)

I remember the day I asked you if you would like to watch my sister performed at Suntec. I was exalted when you said yes and even asked for directions. *chuckles* and i was smiling to myself when i SAW you walking towards me.

I remember after the whole show, you met my brother and sister for the first time and they asked if you were my girlfriend. I was embarrassed and assured you that they always do that to every girl that I know. One thing that you didn't know was, everytime they say that, the girl WILL be my girlfriend. That night, i really really wished that you like me at least...

I remember you flirting with me the night before open house. *laughs* and that night, you asked to have a dance with me during open house. *smiles* It was like a dream come true. And that night, i smiled myself to sleep and wishing tomorrow will come soon.

i remember Open House mass dance. I couldn't wait for the dance to start and every other minute, I glanced around to look for you. I thought you decided not to come when mass dance was being played, but there you were, walking amongst the crowd looking for me too. *chuckles* and throughout the dance, i wondered if I really stand a chance to be your ONE...

I remember prom night where I looked everywhere to find you. *smiles* And i DID reserved a seat beside you. But Aida just came and told me to sit away from you... and I was surprised myself that I felt happier sitting beside you.. That night, when I look in your eyes, I realised that maybe you DO like me after all...

I remember all the flirtings during prom night, asking me to take pictures with you, grabbing my hand and smiling your widest. *chuckles* that night, I wished you will hold me for the rest of my life.

I remember feeling all alone and miserable afterwards and I didn't know why. I looked at my handphone and it hadn't beeped for more than a month. That day, i realised my life is not complete without getting any sms from you.

I remember going online with you one day and I said I have a new girlfriend. You said you had a new boyfriend too. My heart SANK. I didn't know why I felt intense jealousy. That day, you got to know my girlfriend was just a game character and yours was real.

I remember the night you suddenly asked me out for a classic mcdonald's dinner after tuition. I started to really think things through with starting my life with you. That night, i never can get you out of my mind.

I remember a few nights later, early in the morning of the 22nd, at 0023 hours, after a very satisfying msn conversation with you, you asked "what's the stitch between us?" That very same night, I poured my heart and soul to you..

And that's how my love builds up for you... even waaaayyy before US... *smiles*


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and the love doesnt stop there. *smiles* it will continue to grow for you..

i'm sorry that i overslept.. i'll make it up to you later..

My love is like the river, everflowing, neverending...
*hugs* sweet dreams darling..

I LOVE YOU!

why does all waking up problems have to do with the alarm being switched off prematurely?? DAMN.... i REALLY need to smash something up RIGHT NOW!

sighs... i'm sorry...